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>I feel diconnected from God, and that he has given up on me. He gave me plenty of chances but I blew them and he moved on, which is fair.
If that were true, wouldn't you be dead and in hell already?
I think you need to persevere. Resolve to stop sinning, and no matter what, don't give up. Pray the rosary every day, learn more about the faith, and correct any erroneous positions and believe what the Church teaches.
https://www.mostholyfamilymonastery.com/rosary.pdf
> Do you think there are people who are destined to not be saved? Do you think there are people who are so hopeless and wicked that God just walks away because they are a lost cause?
Everyone who goes to hell chooses to do so for one reason or another, it's not God's fault. "…the one who perseveres to the end will be saved." -Matt 24:13
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https://www.papalencyclicals.net/councils/trent/sixth-session.htm
CHAPTER XII.
That a rash presumptuousness in the matter of Predestination is to be avoided.
No one, moreover, so long as he is in this mortal life, ought so far to presume as regards the secret mystery of divine predestination, as to determine for certain that he is assuredly in [Page 40] the number of the predestinate; as if it were true, that he that is justified, either cannot sin any more, or, if he do sin, that he ought to promise himself an assured repentance; for except by special revelation, it cannot be known whom God hath chosen unto Himself.
CHAPTER XIII.
On the gift of Perseverance.
So also as regards the gift of perseverance, of which it is written, He that shall persevere to the end, he shall be saved:-which gift cannot be derived from any other but Him, who is able to establish him who standeth that he stand perseveringly, and to restore him who falleth:-let no one herein promise himself any thing as certain with an absolute certainty; though all ought to place and repose a most firm hope in God’s help. For God, unless men be themselves wanting to His grace, as he has begun the good work, so will he perfect it, working (in them) to will and to accomplish. Nevertheless, let those who think themselves to stand, take heed lest they fall, and, with fear and trembling work out their salvation, in labours, in watchings, in almsdeeds, in prayers and oblations, in fastings and chastity: for, knowing that they are born again unto a hope of glory, but not as yet unto glory, they ought to fear for the combat which yet remains with the flesh, with the world, with the devil, wherein they cannot be victorious, unless they be with God’s grace, obedient to the Apostle, who says; We are debtors, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh; for if you live according to the flesh, you shall die; but if by the spirit you mortify the deeds of the flesh, you shall live.