>>815412
This inability to believe:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pascal%27s_wager#Inability_to_believe
>>815399
I mostly agree with him. He says that coming to the rational conclusion that God exists is relatively easy, but that doesn't mean you actually fully believe it, and actions are what really build up your faith. I experienced something similar: I was a theist, but my life was a mess, and it wasn't until I started getting some order into my life that I began to fully embrace the christian faith. Religion is not to be understood in a merely rational way, you have to act it out to internalize and comprehend it. That's why a five minute prayer will often bring you closer to God than a whole afternoon of laying on your bed thinking about the meaning of existence.
Pascal's wager is usually presented as "I don't believe but I'll say I do to get to heaven :epic trollface: X^DDD", but it's instead something more complex: it says that reason is, and will always be, just not enough to truly get close to God, that you need to embrace religion and the Church (which, in the case of Pascal, was the Catholic Church).