Is my appartement a prison ?

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Is my appartement a prison ? Christanon 03/18/19 (Mon) 15:21:28 f5b4b7 No.785625

Hello.

I'm trying to get back to some kind of Ordered Life and go back to the Church and to being an upstanding man.

I'm supposed to go to university to follow some courses (not a lot actually) and to practice sports that I need for a physical test that I've already failed the year before.

Anyway, I rationally know that I have to go to the University, exercice, study, read books, read the Bible,…

And yet, I'm stuck at house…I just can't get out easily..I can all be prepared to go to the university, but when the times come to actually go outside, there is this kind of force that makes me stay inside and not go outside and it's making me crazy. It's been like this for 3 years, with moments where I could go to school or university more or less consistently and other moments when I could stop going for 3 whole weeks straight. And to be honest, I had this problem in regular school too, so it's been like that for more than 5 years in fact.

Anyway, I don't get it why I'm trapped inside this appartement, I live with my mother so she's doing everything.

I know it's bad, I know that I have to move my ass and yet, I'm blocked inside, in this environnement that is my house and where I did spent the major party of my life.

Is there a christian explanation for this situation ?

PS: I grew up with a very weak and absent father, some people suggested that it could be a factor.

Christanon 03/18/19 (Mon) 15:52:52 52436a No.785631

>>785625

You've probably got some deep seated issues that you need to see a priest, therapist, support group or all of the above about. It could be anything from social anxiety, to agoraphobia, to major depression, or something else or a combination of the aforementioned. Bottom line is that you need to seek out help beyond yourself IRL. Help online for problems like this can only get you so far.

Christanon 03/18/19 (Mon) 16:02:29 f5b4b7 No.785632

>>785631

I've already done more than 5 years of psychotherapy and it lead me to nothing.

Christanon 03/18/19 (Mon) 16:13:39 ed78b1 No.785633

>>785625

Are you me? I feel safer and more at home anywhere else than my own room because of the same reason. It became a prison full of pleasure (if you get where this phrase is from, I salute you for good taste); internet access, gaming PC, easy access to 'that', being smack dab in urban centre where food is 2 minutes walk or delivery, etc.

I try to break away from all this shit. Bought a guitar and try to pick up music again after a decade, cannot be bother to touch it, but will carry it elsewhere but my room to play and practise.

While I do not have a definite answer for you, brother anon. My guess, I think back about a house cleanse of evil spirits but not fulfilled with any goodness so each evil spirit brought seven more of its kind. That or a SH4 situation, you got a literal daemon in your room. Or maybe it is long period of sedentary lifestyle and it becoming a habit; if this is the case then I advise both you and me to pick up entirely new set of habit altogether.

Christanon 03/18/19 (Mon) 17:44:58 52436a No.785644

>>785632

What kind of therapy? Talk about your feelings to a glorified best friend that feels good during the moment, but as soon as you are done with it, you find yourself stuck with the same issues as before? Or something more concrete, like CBT, DBT, EMDR, support groups and medication? Been down both roads, and the latter is much better.

Maybe you also need a different better therapist, if 5 years isn't getting you results. Did you see a real psychotherapist? Or did you see a counselor or social worker, who called your experience psychotherapy? The latter can get work with just a high school degree. The former at least has to have a bachelor's if not a post grad degree of some kind. Preferably a PHD.