Scrupulosity

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Scrupulosity Christanon 01/26/19 (Sat) 00:23:37 eb359f No.761618

Does anybody here struggle with scrupulosity?

I can barely live my life for fear of sin. The world is such a secular place, and I get inactive and slothful for fear of participating in it. I drop activities because anything with a remote possibility of being problematic worries me.

I'm terrified of committing this, an eternal or unforgiveable sin. I have intrusive thoughts, and I won't stop thinking about this. Sometimes I can't even function, doing all I can to smother thoughts of blasphemy or even rejecting my soul. I repeatedly chant the opposite of the intrusive thoughts, sometimes in my head, sometimes aloud, but sometimes I stutter or my tongue slips, or I just mess up and say the very sinful things I'm fighting to avoid saying. It terrifies me, it keeps me from sleeping or being active or functioning in general.

It might be worth mentioning that I have a number of mental issues, but I'm told scrupulosity itself is sinful. It feels like a vicious cycle where one fears other sins, then fears the sin of scrupulosity when trying to confess, etc.

Christanon 01/26/19 (Sat) 01:03:59 bd8ba6 No.761636

>>761618

If that makes you feel any better, I went through the exact same problems: blasphemous intrusive thoughts, fruitlessly trying to extinguish them, fear of commiting the unforgivable sin, etc. I told my mom about it, then she set me up with a doctor. I now get special pills that calm the mind and make it possible to go through the day.

Christanon 01/26/19 (Sat) 01:04:05 988cdc No.761637

>>761618

It happens, but in my case at least it wore off. One must measure up what one is doing and ask if Christ, or the Pharisees would approve more. This religious melancholy is, if you examine it, precisely the kind of thing that consumes a pharisee mindset; worrying about exactness in ritual isn't faith, hope or charity, and as a result it is literal trash. Except I imagine the pharisees were trying for dishonesty whereas the overly scrupulous are just fooling themselves.

If people were given the choice between remembering to fast and helping the homeless, and they choose to let the homeless languish just to remember the ritual, then that's phariseeism; remembering to tithe dill and cumin but neglecting the greater part of the law, which is mercy, charity and faithfulness. Ultimately all should be done that is required, but one must have the right priorities. (Matthew 23:23)

Christanon 01/27/19 (Sun) 01:56:12 eb359f No.762125

>>761636

Yeah, I take medicine too. This issue comes and goes in bouts, but it's still difficult.

Christanon 01/27/19 (Sun) 02:37:36 b4def4 No.762132

Pray the psalms

Christanon 01/27/19 (Sun) 04:06:40 33dfc6 No.762169

>>761618

I go through the same thing. I wouldn’t consider the “thoughts”, let’s call them, sin because they’re out of your control; think of it as a glitch in your brain. Go to a doctor and they’ll give you medicine that you need.

>I have a number of mental issues

Also talk to them about that. Trust me, from experience this is worth it