>be me
>have accepted Christ a few years ago after being an edgy Commie
>spend up to a year researching and reading endlessly on which branch is legitimate
>settle for Orthodoxy after studying Church history and reading theology
>worship privately for several months now
>think to myself "I should go to Church as is written, my faith may weaken if I'm one of those loners who doesn't attend Church"
>wants to be part of the 10% who attend regularly here
>check out churches online
>Orthodoxy has basically no presence here
>one ROCOR Church in reasonable distance
>surprised they actually speak my country's language
>decide to check it out next weekend
>have been looking since and their schedule is outdated on their website
>no idea when to go in
>just want to ask a few questions and see if they're legit
>decide to go at 12:30
>saturday arrives
>really anxious to go given I've never been to Church and barely know how they operate
>spend an hour in -10 Celsius looking
>finally find it
>looks as it was pictured, small comfy house turned into a Church hidden among apartments
>open the door
>enter a small greetings hall surrounded by icons
>heart pounding
>anxious, excited and feeling happy at the same time
>see schedule on wall
>still outdated schedule for December
>everything is written in my language
>feeling confident about this
>hear bells inside
>decide to wait
>minutes pass and the bell stops
>wait a few more minutes
>not a single word is spoken inside
>I see no shapes through the glass
>open slightly
>people are gathered all around with cameras filming the event at hand
>everyone including the priest has their back turned toward me
>a camera guy from the right starts looking
>I give a short bow and go outside
>walk home
Feeling like an absolute autist, what do?
It's the one church I could attend and I feel like I already screwed up my chances with it.