Hey guys. The other night I hired a prostitute to have sex with me. But actually we didn't have sex, I told her I only wanted cuddle. We cuddled and heavily kissed and she kept telling me we could have sex but I refused. We slept together for a bit then sh

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Christanon 11/16/18 (Fri) 05:06:25 84525d No.728436

Hey guys. The other night I hired a prostitute to have sex with me. But actually we didn't have sex, I told her I only wanted cuddle. We cuddled and heavily kissed and she kept telling me we could have sex but I refused. We slept together for a bit then she left and I paid her what little I had since I work at a dead end job that pays me shit. That was it. I'm such a fugly bastard and a loser still trying to escape my parents house. That was the first time I've been hugged since I was like 8 and the first time I ever held a woman or kissed one. I didn't have sex though because I knew that would be fornication. But I just needed a woman! I just needed a beautiful woman to hold in my arms! But now… now my conscience is all over the place… Was this a sin? Should I confess? Should I? Why did God make me so ugly and lonely! It's not fair! :( Help me please.

Christanon 11/16/18 (Fri) 08:13:52 c4ba99 No.728487

>>728436

Bro, the decade I spent not having any physical human contact resulted in the most character growth. Pray, let go of sinful desires, and learn to enjoy ideals, art, theology and stop focusing on stupid sh#t like getting laid. I know it's a basic biological drive but it's the higher functions that make life actually worth living. You looks or shitty parents aren't stopping you from improving your mind and enjoying the beauty of thought - especially thoughts of God.

Christanon 11/16/18 (Fri) 08:51:55 88a296 No.728495

>>728436

Thats rough about the not being hugged since you were 8 I can see why you would get to the state you're in. When you become a father remember to give your kids plenty of love.

As for the situation. I would think that it is a venial sin, though it could have possibly been a mortal sin in some instances as it is putting yourself in the near occasion of sin willingly. However a mortal sin would require you to be deliberately and knowingly doing that, and I don't think you were ever really planning on that. So I believe it is sinful as heavily kissing is a fairly lustful act that can lead to sin, and you put yourself in the near occasion of sin. The cuddling less so.

Summary: I don't think you NEED to confess it. But I would suggest going to confession just to clear any worry you may have, and to talk to your Priest about it. They live lives of chastity, they may be able to give you some helpful advice on dealing with the loneliness that you feel. I wish the best of you anon, and I will pray for you. Hang in there and just keeping working on yourself, keep your faith strong, work on your career and if not go to the gym and help improve your looks by getting a bit more fit. It'll help you. Even if you're ugly, if you have strong faith, a nice personality and a decent body from the gym you'll get a wife eventually.

Again God bless anon and stay strong. :)

Christanon 11/16/18 (Fri) 10:44:28 4d5d59 No.728506

>>728436

I dont think it was sin. You didnt have sex out of marriage. If she wasnt married, you didnt covet neighbor's wife. If you're worried about it, just pray and ask for forgiveness. God doesn't expect us not to sin. That's why he sent Jesus. You just have to believe Jesus died for you and ask for forgiveness when you sin. Everyone is a sinner. I sin every day and it also makes me feel bad. Be confident in your faith. If you're catholic, I'd say stop following the catholic church establish a relationship with god on your own. The catholic church blasphemes by claiming the Pope is the God on earth. It's all in the bible. Bible prophecy points to the Vatican and Pope as antichrist. There's a video on YouTube called "PROPHECY MOVIE: FROM BABYLON TO AMERICA." That goes into great detail about it.

https://youtu.be/5pQvM9ZY41k

Christanon 11/16/18 (Fri) 10:49:03 6c685b No.728508

>>728436

You have sinned. Repent.

>But I just needed a woman!

According to whom?

>Should I confess?

Yes.

>Why did God make me so ugly and lonely!

He didn't. You made yourself unhealthy of body and mind by way of your own free choice. Now you need to want yourself into health. By the grace of God it can be done, you only need to want what God wants.

>>728506

>The catholic church blasphemes by claiming the Pope is the God on earth

What on Earth are you talking about? No Catholic believes this.

>Bible prophecy points to the Vatican and Pope as antichrist

The Great Beast in Revelation is about the Roman Empire you halfwit.

Christanon 11/16/18 (Fri) 11:50:17 f548f0 No.728521

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>>728436

Well, most men would falter in that situation and have sex so you were stronger than most.

Drop the 'woe is me' and needy attitude, that is women repellent.

You have to work to be the best you can be with the hand you were dealt. Dressed/groomed properly with a good posture and fit body and you'd have women's interest. So do some gym or sport.

Also you could do some hobbies where you mingle with other people, rock climbing? learning an instrument? martial arts? helping in the church or a old people home? there must be something you like.

For mental maturity gains i recommend reading the Stoics, that will usher a manly mind in you, its a good answer to Job's tribulations. Being 'ugly' or lonely wont be on your cares anymore. I went from being like yourself, self commiserating on my loneliness and being always depressed to being perfectly happy by myself just by disciplining my own thoughts through Stoicism. All the useless thoughts that would always plague my mind 90% of the time were purged because they are useless. You have to start arbitrating over your thoughts, just because something pops on your mind doesnt mean you have to entertain it. Its useful and good? you let it pass, its depressing, self deprecating or useless? you purge it, and in time those thoughts will stop popping.

Literally nothing changed in my circumstances and i changed from being miserable to happy.

'A Guide to the Good Life: The Ancient Art of Stoic Joy' is good as an introduction and after that you can read Marcus Aurelius meditations and all the other Stoics, Seneca, Epictetus, etc.

So there, go discipline your body and mind, the tools are out there, make God proud.

Christanon 11/16/18 (Fri) 11:55:46 46605e No.728523

>>728506

>If you're catholic, I'd say stop following the catholic church establish a relationship with god on your own.

Yeah great advice, really. Go with protestant relativism instead that will just do for you.

>The catholic church blasphemes by claiming the Pope is the God on earth.

Source: your ass. Nobody claims this except of halfwit protestants and some Ortholarpers

>It's all in the bible. Bible prophecy points to the Vatican and Pope as antichrist.

Yeah for sure sure.

>MUH VIDEO SOURCE YOUTUBE "PROPHECY MOVIE: FROM BABYLON TO AMERICA."

lol. You serious?

Plot twist: America is the new babylon and it was not built upon Catholicism. Holy Roman Empire was built upon catholicism.

America was built upon secularism, european multiculturalism, also with a strong flavor of protestantism and puritan spirit. Nothing you can blame on Catholics my friend.

Did not want to derail thread but this is what you get when you go full halfwit here.

Christanon 11/16/18 (Fri) 12:25:55 296668 No.728536

I know this is just an adapted pasta, I think I saw it elsewhere.

However I will give you a reply anyway.

Loneliness is not a sin, your weakness is comprehensible and you avoided furnication.

In a certain sense I think you won this one by avoiding the bigger sin (that could have also led to an habit of hiring prostitutes if fulfilled).

Since you seem honest in your faith I think you should get involved in your parish community, prayer groups and similar things, being with others will help yourself and you may find a good wife in such places.