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I'm in the same boat and I have no idea why I'm still hanging on; why are you? You say you're suicidal but you're not dead yet, what exactly are you looking for?

No offense, but is sounds like a schizo rant

>>716668

Agreed.

>>716649

>>716650

OP, you are in need of serious professional mental and spiritual help that is beyond the scope of any practical advice anyone here can give you. Visit a priest; see a different therapist/psychiatrist, or both. All we can do is pray for you, and that the Lord may open your eyes and have mercy on your soul.

The same applies to you: >>716663

>>716732

>>716649

>>716650

>Visit a priest;

Now that I think of it, you might also want to consider seeking out an exorcist as well.

I feel extremely sorry for this. I wish there was something I could do or say to make everything better for you. My only advice is that your thoughts are betraying you. Stop thinking.

>>716732

I have gone to a psychiatrist they don't believe me. I told them I was in mental hospitals for 5 years was diagnosed as schizoeffective which is really quite possibly the right class of disorder.

I always yell at people who aren't there for example. Etc etc. etc.

I was paranoid for years, like I genuinely believed, that they made video games to make fun of me that the government and even relatives who worked for the government were trying to ruin me for simply being crazy.

It's so stereotypical nobody believes me.

I'm not entirely stupid so they don't believe me they have preconceptions going into things that don't matter and with those preconceptions they don't believe anything but what they were taught in "groupthink"

That's aside from the problems in that they don't classify their diagnoses correctly either. As such would be inter-hemisphere, interlayer, inter-regional brain disorders.

Problems which are NOT the same as a loss of gray matter density and so forth.

A loss gray matter density should always be dementia. They classify everything out of context and were a closer a hundred years ago.

The point is thier medications are totally screwed up, and I know this as I was on meds since like 4 and I believe they fried my brain on the things a couple of times.

But I have not a lot of options. As I can Barely ride a bike anymore many days.

One med sort of works for me but causes bad symptoms. Causing me not to sleep for days on end but felt great. But that's not natural ti not sleep for 3 days and not be tired.

I went to a priest. It was a Catholic one tho. There wasn't anything he could do. He just told me that their pedo scandals were real. Which was kind of shocking.

In any case I've spent most my life in bed. I really have been through six states of surgeons they pulled the same BS things and I don't know why. I've no idea what to do.

>>716663

That god might actually do something.

I got Castor beans for my quick way out if something bad happens.

In a perfect world I would keep a watertight cylinder with Castor beans in it that if anything happened I could do like the fighting tigers or something in indonesia. Pop a couple Castor beans. Dead.

Otherwise my first choice is conium maculatum. And if need be I'll commit suicide of Conium Maculatum as it will be painless.

Not that l havent spent decades praying to God. I don't know why he would answer prayers even if he could have this point.

I just want God to make the problems I have go away.

>>716813

I think you're saying something true.

I'm pretty sure I confuse myself also.

Odd as it sounds I have tried to stop praying also.

Sometimes I think the ordinary Christians are the only real ones.

Most of what I think about release of things people have done to me and it did Blurs together in a weird way I can't really understand.

https://m.youtube.com/user/smakintosh/videos

I've been accused of sinning and everything else when in reality I've been screwed as a victim of crimes that nobody could do anything about. While decades ago still screw my life up.

The guy says the opposite of what most pastors say anymore where as to not forgive these people is worse than sinning is something it's worth hearing.

He calls such people, and pastors sick.

But the Holy Ghost can give unction. I just don't understand why the Holy Ghost won't give unction to things relating to my health or brain that bothers me.

I should make a note that I need to try to stop thinking. I also know that the Holy Ghost did things, and that I've been left holding the back with them.

Even in the Bible in the last days people will fight against God and win.

>>716813

Oh my point was I can try to stop thinking but it's very hard for me to do cuz my brain runs off on its own, does things that don't understand, that's hard, and it's hard.

Are I'm going to try more to it.

>>716668

Well entirely likely it doesn't change the fact that I wonder if maybe people haven't heard from the Holy Ghost and maybe youre concealing something that he does or you're hiding something else altogether.

Because I have no idea what makes people so happy with God, and Christ. Lots of things on christian radio are baffling.

I'm pretty sure I've been persecuted for not regarding Jesus Christ the same as God the father and people like Pastor Anderson again say that it's heresy to say the Father the Son and the Holy Spirit the same person.

Do other people NOT hear things from God in thier person?

>>716829

>I have gone to a psychiatrist they don't believe me.

What do you mean by them not believing you? Do they not believe that you have a mental illness? Or do they not believe that you have the particular mental illness that you've been diagnosed with? Or do they not believe that your mental condition is as bad as it is, because of say, for example, you function in society better than most people with your condition by comparison?

St. Dymphna is patroness of mental illness. Died at 15, killed by her own father, the king. I learned about her literally two hours ago.

Learning of her is already an answer to my prayer, so now I pass her on to you.