I Feel Worthless.

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I Feel Worthless. Christanon 09/13/18 (Thu) 00:27:10 d24287 No.700525

I'm the chief of Sinners. I'm lustful, I'm jealous, I'm spiteful, I'm a liar, I'm angry all the time with everyone I meet. I pray to God to forgive me, beg for forgiveness, but the first chance I get to sin I sin again. I'm worthless. I want to be a fool for Christ, I have those moments where I feel nothing but love for God and man, but they are brief and I feel into sin, this discrepancy only serves to make me feel even worse for myself. This may sound controversial, but i feel as if there are demons inside of me. I don't know what to do, who to turn to, what to read, anything to help me. I'm just really lost and sad right now.

Christanon 09/13/18 (Thu) 00:33:19 0f8c2e No.700526

don't be too hard on yourself. i believe st. paul (and st. anselm and others) called themselves the chief of sinners because for st. paul (or st. peter etc) to have sinned after experiencing and seeing what they saw, even smaller sins would be worse. we are weak - i am very weak.

for all i know there are demons attacking me too. i have felt that at times… i just keep praying during those times and it goes away. i can't say you will get stronger and Lord knows what will happen but the fact is we are weak. I feel despite my difficulties the Lord is calling me to Him. all i can offer is just don't give up. If we are His, no one will snatch us out of His hands. we may fall 99 times, we just have to get back up 100, just one more time.

Christanon 09/13/18 (Thu) 01:35:17 76a5e3 No.700543

I feel the same way and it's so tiring. I just want to get off this ride already. I don't wanna an hero, but sometimes I wish God would just end it. I realize I'm being spoiled, and that there are people really suffering in countless ways worse than me, but all the doubts and uncertainties and my own willful sinfulness and incapacity just tear at me and make me feel like shit.

Christanon 09/13/18 (Thu) 05:46:27 c5646f No.700603

>>700525

If you practice sin youre going to hell.

Christanon 09/13/18 (Thu) 08:56:55 95c6c0 No.700652

>>700525

Do you have a priest you could go to? A good one might be able to help you get on the right track of affairs. Do you have someone to talk to about this?

>>700603

Perhaps you could help him not sin?

Christanon 09/13/18 (Thu) 09:09:07 c1e01a No.700657

>>700525

Besides the point, but there is a difference between "unworthy" and "worthless". Considering yourself unworthy is sign of humility, but calling yourself worthless is near blasphemy, for you consider image and likeness of God to be worthless.