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Do not be afraid anon.

What are you afraid of btw?

I can't really tell you about this experience, but yes I also felt like worthless garbage and so on and so forth.

But what you should remember that God loves you no matter what and he always wants his children to return to Him (many sadly do not). And if God says that He loves, I am in no real position to judge Him and myself on this matter so I accept the fact.

>>690159

>Anyone else here not grow up in a religious home but was found by Christ?

I was raised in an Atheist/Agnostic home for the sake of brevity I won't get into anything. But I was eventually called to Christ and my life has been much better as a result of it. I used to be a horrible horrible person, borderline sociopath. Disliked people, didn't feel empathy, laughed at misfortune. Probably /b/'s fault. But since coming to Christ I now feel empathy, I'm kinder to others, others seem to think I'm the nicest person around, etc. Made my life so much better. Don't turn down His call anon, He wants you to become closer to Him.

>I think deep down I feel like I am not worth Gods love and because of my relationship with myself it's hard for me to jump from bridge to shore.

I'm not sure what sort of relationship you have with yourself but know this, NOBODY is worthy of God's love. That is one of the things that makes it so great. That despite our unworthiness, our shitty attitude, our inclination to sin against our loving Lord again and again and again. He will still love us, He still forgives us, and He doesn't want us to dwell on this inequity. So you are correct that you are not worthy of God's love, but none of us are and He doesn't expect you to be. Just accept that you're His beloved son regardless and work to deal with your own self-image.

>Has anyone else experienced these things and overcome them?

>Like I arrive at Church late and leave early so I don't have to talk to anyone or get close.

Unfortunately I haven't experienced these problems. Or at least not in the manner I perceive you do. I just don't like people distracting me from prayer when in Church so avoid people as best I can. All I can really say is try to arrive to Church on time, for the most part the worst that can happen is some Churches like people to turn to eachother and welcome them. But thats all it is, other than that just a hand shake with the people around you saying "may the peace of Christ be with you" with a smile on your face. Every person is your brother/sister after all and more importantly God loves them as children so treat them well.

It may be potentially worth talking to your Priest about your nervousness? And as >>690160 said, please tell us more about how you kind of feel paralyzed?

God bless you anon and I'm glad to hear you're being called to our Lord.

For us who believe in God as our Heavenly Father.. why would you be afraid to speak to your fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, in your fathers house? First stop thinking about those people as strangers. Remember we are all one in Christ. The same Spirit that is in you is in them for you all partake of the same communion. Don’t be afraid friend.. start small by saying “Praise the Lord” or “Good day!” To people to encounter you, you don’t have to straight up go and start a conversation. Take it easy man. God bless you.

Stay strong in your faith.

thanks for replies guys. It helped.