I'm going into surgery in a few moments, and I'll reply more, but I'm on the same journey.
>attend a 1689 LBCF Reformed Baptist church
>Grew up in Presbyterian (OPC) congregation
>Studying at a Reformed bible college
>Talking with admissions at Reformed seminaries (RTS, WTS, WSCAL, SBTS)
>Love reading Church Fathers in the CH101 course
>Decide to read as much of the Apostolic Fathers and Ante-Nicene Fathers as I can
>Trying to understand their theology why aren't they covenantal Baptist ;_;
>Read vol. 1&2 of Pelikans historical theology
>start reading more on Orthodoxy
>borrow The Orthodox Church by Ware
>start talking to Greek Orthodox priest
>bury myself in Greek fathers and Orthodox theologians
>it's been about a year
>everyone around me still thinks I'm Reformed
>inside I now disagree with nearly all of it