>>669621
Read "On the Shortness of Life" by Seneca
Read "Abiding in Christ" by Andrew Murray
I'm reading these right now and they are very relevant to your questions. You can find them on libgen.pw
> I fully believe in the existence of God but hold no faith in his word or promises.
If you weren't important to God you would never have been born. He is your Lord and sustainer, the ultimate reason your atoms don't disintegrate back into the void and your soul falls asleep is because of the power of God. It's not enough to believe God exists, you have draw nearer to him.
>I also cant shake the feeling and thought that the bible has been tampered with by men for their own gain and societal control
Which passages strike you as uninspired?
>How can i overcome this hurdle? I pray myself to sleep nearly every night.
Hand all your worries and fears over to God, let go of your egoism. You have to test the hypothesis, even if you don't believe that the bible is legit just read it anyway and meditate on it. Even if you think God doesn't care, just rely on him anyway. See how it goes.