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You will be alright if you don't beat yourself up about what people and society expect of you.

If you sort of suffer and feel miserable all the time at the hands of people, don't expect those feelings to go away or at least disappear entirely because they are gonna begin questioning your character in a different way to how they used to, but in the same vain.

Personal problems and doubts aren't a joking matter either, but you could always consider looking at them as tests, trials and tribulations, god testing you as a individual, with an end in sight for these as they would be only temporary, and if you're considering following God anyways, then it is essentially a crystal copy of what Jesus had to endure on this earth, which was pain and betrayal. Obviously this won't be a cake walk and you're gonna suffer as a person, dealing with people being inconsiderate and even evil at times, but i don't know, it's up to you if you wanna take this path, but it's bitter as all hell and it isn't for everyone which is why most people are fine living without God.

Any Christian who says it's gonna get better in your lifetime is only initiating you into an ideological cult, there's a really narrow path that only a few really get and it's filled exclusively with hardships. Which is why a Christians reward is so great.

There's no cure for sociopathy but it can be treated, especially if you don't have the fullblown disorder. Ask a psychiatrist.

>>659401

Thank you for the explanation, and I understand that this path is very difficult, but Christ endured it all while being divine, kind and loving. I am struggling with this, let alone being as saintly as Christ was.

It looks like there's no end in sight for me in this and that this is the only thing left for me to do.

As well as this, I feel very guilty and humiliated when I ask for forgiveness, and when I ask for forgiveness because I feel as if God won't forgive me for what I have said and how I have cursed him and his son in moments that my rage took over. And if you could elaborate on this path, that would help shed some light I need on it

I just hope I won't have to feel the way i currently do. I'd do anything not to.

>>659438

Don't worry about God forgiving you, but he does call for repentance, penance, and restraint.

For me i would occasionally pray and mention a word of repentance, most of the time i understand in my heart that some of the prayers are cold and my repentance is empty and this of course is a great shame but other times the prayers will proceed with legitimate bitter tears and an aching heart and a great longing to seek god and anything that would bring me closer to him.

In the moments where the prayers have me crying and have my heart heavy, i understand that these are the prayers God listens to, and here's where I can find him listening to me repent, after which his forgiveness can be felt almost physically, as if a great burden was lifted off my soul.

I won't lie, it's very humiliating to think that I sat there tear drenched for a few minutes, sometimes wicked thoughts of pride even manage to seep in, to my shame of course, but its all overcome with continued pursuit of his love, guidance and mercy.

Most important part though is making that step towards repenting, i do honestly feel that that is the most important thing anybody can ever do, and it definitely is not easy since it puts everyone into some kind of emotional turmoil and it's defacto a spiritual battle comprising everything, pride, humility, greed- you name it, since you are expected to abandon entire characteristics and habits, wants etc. on the spot.

I also tell myself this, 'I'm a great sinner and all my suffering is deserved and I am worthy of hell, but god's mercy is unending and he will forgive me and ultimately save my soul' occasional, which has helped me a lot through in my pursuit.

Closing in on my ramblings, the most important step you can ever make is repenting. Nothing even comes close to it. And if it's sincere repentance you will really feel it, but that is the most important thing, and God will absolutely forgive you. But it's all extremely hard and not everybody will make it, only very very few.

>>659457

Thank you

This reassurance is great. I am going back to my home country very soon, and by the forest near where I am staying there is a shrine with a natural ground spring. Its where I did most of my most beautiful prayers, and there I feel a connection. I am going to take up this, and this information is priceless.

>>659472

Alright anon take care and may god be merciful.

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