It’s frustrating because even a secular life is frozen by my dilemma .the voice in the back of my head is unrelenting at all hours.
>all that is and ever will be will disappear into an eternal nothingness as if it never existed
>you are so pathetic as to have failed even in the seized existence you have been given. You will never be loved by your fellow humans or experience any manner of meaningful romantic love. Everyone you care about is already as good as never being born, yourself included
>if you’re already such a failure, at least show bravery in the face of your inevitable annihilation and end your life with dignity
>the first two points are effectively unmitigatable scientific fact backed by the epitome of human knowledge and are to be taken as absolute truth. The third is the logical conclusion thereof.
I just want to be cared about.