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Take a free day of rest you have, and for the first part of it listen to arguments for God, read them, and listen to arguments against God, and read those (or the opposite way, whichever you want). Then sit down somewhere comfortable, and see what you believe. Ask God if He exist, argue to yourself why He does or why He doesn't. Do this until you have an answer that has satisfied yourself, then see if it holds up.
Rinse and repeat until:
1) You literally get an answer from God that you know to be Him and not some random happening or coincidence.
2) You know God exist logically, and that there are no other options.
3) You know that God does not exist logically, and that there are no other options.
If someone can argue you into the faith, don't trust yourself, it means that anyone can also argue you out of the faith. You have to believe and know that God is real with your entire being, then after that, love Him with your entire being. Or the opposite, and know that He is not real.
You have all the tools at your disposal to discover the Church, God, and all other holy things and persons, and you also have all the tools at your disposal to find out He does not exist.
I'll be praying for you on your journey friend.