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Do you understand that science does not and can not disprove God ? On the contrary, all we know points towards God, from evolutional studies over astrophysics down to sub-nanoscales and back to sociological studies.
You problem is not that you're "STEM" and can't make the "final step" but that you clearly have an agenda which you don't want to "violate" as changing your ideals and directing your whole self towards God would mean to put everything - especially politically - aside that does not conform with the Gospel. See 80% of your greentext:
>>recognize that the bible is an important manual of how to live your life
>>recognize that Christianity is one of the biggest driving forces behind the success of the west
>>recognize that the decline of it is directly linked to the decline of the west
>>think bringing Christianity back is one of the most important things for society
Christianity is not a political model. Christianity is not some kind of cult built upon superstitious claims. God is not some principle to build a civilization on. God is. God is existence. God is 3 persons in one substance, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. The Son - or Word - has become flesh to suffer with and for us and to redeem us. There's a load of evidence for Christ. There's not only historical evidence of Him, there is also evidence for the transsubstantiation of the Eucharist. From over 8 centuries. With blood type analysis - including the shroud of Turin as well.
What you're doing is you separate the "Truth" from "god" by mental gymnastics. But that is not how it works. Because God is the ==T==ruth and Goodness.
To make a long story short: You need to stop to see Christianity as some kind of agenda, a model set of principles after which you can form your world view. You need to start seeing God as what He is. That will automatically lead you to the Church, no matter what.