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As an atheist, I held truth as the highest value, and I resolved to realise truth in my thought, words, action and life – not merely hold it safely at the distance of my intellect, compartmentalised. Even if it might plunge me into an existential abyss of despair, shatter my self, and lead me to insanity and suicide, I would realise the truth.
This was like boarding a one-way train to an unknown destination. It doesn't necessarily lead to happiness, and there's no reason it won't lead to (or pass through) hell.
That's the path that led me back God. I guess there are easier paths.. You must endure profound mental turmoil, and there are many pitfalls. For example, you must not mire yourself in the metaphysical wasteland and limbo of nirvana/emptiness/non-attachment, but most alight mid-way thinking the journey is over and there is no further to go.
I realised that there is only one absolute certainty (or pre-rational fact): something exists. EVERYTHING else is a matter of faith, usually unconscious, and beliefs are built on faith.
God is real, but there can be no proof. Our relation to Him is through faith. Faith is our relationship with the real: the ultimate and highest reality. That reality is the "hidden" transcendental power that established creation/existence.* God does not exist, except in Christ. He is not bound by the duality of creation.
You can discover faith when you stand naked and alone before reality.
*For the atheists who acknowledge it, this power is assumed to be something like an unaware/blind, unintelligent, indifferent causal "machine" principle – like the universe and our physical being, or logic and mathematics – or in certain atheist "religions", trivialised as the 'tao' or 'hidden void' or 'emptiness'. For atheists, thinking about the nature of the transcendental and about uncertainty has a high pucker factor, so they will throw up their hands and say 'it just is'. Any atheist who values truth and rationality should take their atheism all the way to its logical conclusion in anti-theism, and summon the courage face that reality.