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>>595524

I was in a very similar situation to you. Late 20s, still living with parents, life going nowhere. For awhile I swore that if did not get out of the house by 30, I would kill myself.

I am now 35, and life has gotten much better overall, in spite not everything being perfect.

Basically, as vid related says, you've paid your money. See all of the movie. Don't be screwed like the people leaving early.

My life is 100x more worse. I dont know what to say to you anon i need advice myself

>almost thirty

Yes

>pretty much no friends

Yes

>the ones I think I have and try to thank God for don't really think of me or message me anyway

Yes

>still live with parents

Yes

>life is going nowhere

Yes

>prayer and fasting is fruitless

Yes and No

>satisfaction or happiness is not foreseeable in the near future.

Yes and No

>everyday is a waste. Zero motivation to do anything.

Yes but it depends only on me

you are not alone

>>595524

>everyday is a waste. Zero motivation to do anything.

Nofap for a few weeks.

>>595524

You remind me so much of my last best friend, who I initially reached out to because of a similar post.

He recently dropped me like a stone because I didn't want to have sex with him when we planned to meet up (we lived in different countries). He claimed he was a staunch Catholic, since he had converted from Protestantism several years ago.

Even though I helped with paying off a small debt and his university work, I've been quickly replaced by another girl.

I'll pray for you as I pray for him, OP.

I'll pray for you too,

>>595539

But, you must do something by yourself.

You cannot do everything, but you must do more.

https://ocw.mit.edu/courses/intro-programming/

https://triplebyte.com/?ref=slatestarcodex

>>595537

I missed your post!

I'll pray for you, too

>the world owes me a living

>god owes me happiness

Suck it up faggot. No one owes you anything. Everyone's life is horrible and 99 percent of people want to go berserk with a gun before turning it on themselves. Just grow up will you?

This goes for all of you tfw faggots

>>595571

Just listen to this song. Read the lyrics.

Life's not been good for you

It's just not fair

I've got some news for you

Nothing is fair

I wish there was a way

To make it all better

I pray for a way

To make you happy

Cause I'm sick and I'm tired

Of your whining, complaining, and bitching and moaning

Boo fucking hoo

Do you go to church? Are you a NEET? If you are not going anywhere and putting yourself out there in social situations you can't really blame anyone but yourself for your lack of friends. Sorry if that sounds harsh. I know it's not easy if you have social anxiety or whatever but the more you wall yourself off the harder it gets. Force yourself into social situations. Do whatever it takes to get a job. If you have no higher education maybe you can take some sort of short community college course or something (if you do, force yourself to talk to people). You will feel so much better about yourself when you live in your own apartment that you pay for.

Don't bet your life on annihilationism. If you're right and kill yourself, you gave up on eternal happiness to avoid what at worst would be 80 or so years of suffering. Bad deal. And if you're wrong, well, you chose eternal torment to avoid 80 or so years of suffering. Even worse deal.

>>595524

don't listen to >>595575

listen to this instead, Anon

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u2yeNzL7rTU

Looking through the paper today

Looking for a specific page

Don't wanna find her full name followed by dates

Because when I left her alone she made a sound, like a moan

"You're known by everyone for everything you've done"

Fuck buying flowers for graves

I'd rather buy you a one way non-stop

To anywhere, find anyone, do anything

Forget and start again, love

She said she won't go (and that's that)

It hurts too much to stand by

You've got to stop and draw a line

Everyone here has to choose a side tonight

The moment of truth is haunting you

Don't forget your family regardless what you choose to do

> I have no reason to believe he's good if I end up in hell

God doesn’t send anyone to hell thats your choice

>>595547

>Best friend was a guy

Um…

>>595646

Is something bothering you?

NOFAP + START LIFTING

/thread

>>595673

Instant life improvement.

>>595639

hey dude do you have a skype or discord?

we can play some games together or pray

I love you anon, and I will pray for you tonight.

>>595707

Begome omish

>>595640

Oh. I forgot. I created hell. How silly of me.

>>595684 I know it sounds stupid, but I was afraid of talking to others on an anonymous board, I just don’t think I’m at that step I’m trying to improve, but I’m not there yet sorry I’m grateful for your offer, but even idea of maintaining or trying to make friends even on internet Still scares me

>>595760

No god did but you’re one who choose to sin, it’s like law if you break the law and get caught and sent to prison it’s your damn fault same applies to hell

>>595766

If I end up in hell if I kms then he sent me there. Just like I didn't send myself here. He didn't have to create me. And if he created me, I don't see why he couldn't just uncreate me instead of giving me an overkill of a punishment for not wanting to exist in a shit life.

>almost thirty

>still live with parents

God bless you and may he watch over you for your whatever you've been through. This is undoubtedly made even worse if you have abusive parents. Unfortunately with the state of the world economics, someone working a minimum-wage job or anything close to it will almost not afford living alone. I guess we all hope for better times, which will likely not come until we've left this world and are with the Lord.

>>595547

Be my friend ;-;

>>595770

>He didn't have to create me

That would have infringed on the freedom of your parents to have a child, so that wasn't an option

>>595547

>He recently dropped me like a stone because I didn't want to have sex with him

Homo?

>>595770

This >>595841

>>595673

This. Just this.

>>595841

God could have gave them someone who wanted to exist then. That's infringement on my rights to not exist.

>>595858

How can anyone want to exist before he's born?

>>595862

God knows all. He knew I would not want to exist.

>>595867

Then blame your parents because god gave them free will to choose to have children and they did and they choosed you and that’s what they wanted, like you can choose to kill yourself now but it has consequences like all action

>>595876

If God's all knowing he knew he should not have made me. Again. God could have created someone else instead of me who wanted to exist to fulfill their "right" to have kids.

If I ever happen to have a girl, I'm not having kids. I'll get a vasectomy. I'll save someone from entering this shit world.

>>595887

Do you have the right to feel bad at all? Do you have the right to complain?

>>595887

Anon suffering in this life is great for the next

not just in Christianity but all religions say this

Dont fret and lose hope

>>595887

maybe you asked for being born but you forgot. I always have the memory of wanting to be sent to earth. Since I was very young.

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>>595770

Nut up you colossal faggot. I guarantee you 98% of people who have ever lived had a shittier life than you, including many alive right now. Read the book of Job everyday until you realize suffering is what characterizes this fallen world. We can either hold our faith and do the best we can to live righteously, or give in to despair and spiritually die before we even leave this Earth. Remember despair is one of the gravest sins because it requires a lack of trust in God.

>>595887

Look, whining and moaning about "I never asked to be created" is pointless and futile.

The fact is you're here. You were born; you exist; and you've suffered. You've paid your money.

As >>595582 succinctly pointed out, killing yourself is a colossally stupid option. Either you forfeit eternal happiness, or you gain eternal torment, all because you couldn't maintain a stiff upper lip for 80ish years tops.

80 years of suffering vs. a LITERAL eternity of happiness.

You would literally be like the kids in vid related, who gulped down the first marshmallow because they lacked the patience and fortitude to wait for the second one.

Except with God, it isn't just a second stupid marshmallow, it's LITERALLY eternal life and happiness.

Think long term and big picture, not your immediate and short-term circumstances. As the cliché' goes: suicide is a permanent solution to a short-term problem.

Stay and see ALL of the movie. It's not done yet. Don't get screwed like the people leaving early.

>>595954

Forgot to post vid related>

>>595938

Job doesn't say anything but that God let's Satan fuck with you for fun. I don't want to play these games.

>>595976

If I can lose salvation, God's not so almighty, and the cross is weak.

>>595986

You are just being a defeatist little faggot right now and you know it. If you really are gonna kill yourself, do it now and save us your whining. But you aren't going to do that, that's why you made this thread. If you really wanted to die you would've already been dead, so either take the advive you've been given and act on it, or keep your promise and kill yourself. Anything else is just whining.

God doesn't help people who don't help themselves. Either work on yourself, or perish.

>>595987

Says the edgy faggot

>>595524

>life is going nowhere

Call me inexperienced, but I'm pretty sure that life goes there where you take it. It's never too late to sort yourself out. Start lifting.

>>595994

To be perfectly honest, I've had this conversation too many times before. You claim to want advice, yet when it's not the advice you want to receive you disregard it and keep blaming other things for your own failures, in this case you even blamed God.

Just admit that you would rather just continue your lifestyle of stewing in your own shit, doing nothing while blaming everyone else instead of putting the work in to better yourself. Fine, do that, but know that it's your own fault.

>>596002

Where did I ask for advice? I said prove suicide isn't an option because I know it can't be done.

>>596010

Life's bloody hard anon, but, as someone who has also been struggling intensely over the last few weeks, I insist you keep going. Just by enduring this much suffering and keeping the faith you'll be pleasing God and storing up rewards for yourself in Heaven.

I'm convinced by the scriptural evidence (death of Saul for example) that you'll be alright either way, but if you endure, you'll thank your former self when you reach Heaven.

>>596010

i dont think its not an option suicide isnt definitely that wrong

still you can go to a monestary(doing it myself,maybe) near you rather than die a pathetic gory death

>>596039

Implying monestaries have power that God doesn't.

>>595524

Just throw a fucking dart at some papers and do the job the dart landed on.

Do it like the job owes you money.

Become the best at the job you have found.

Even if it's scraping shit off septic tanks.

Anything to get you out of the damn house.