Christanons, can you help me?
> Grow up as Protestant
> Somewhat neurotic, desperate for certainty about my beliefs
> Also motivated to find rationalizations for degeneracy and pre-marital sex
> Start reading modern philosophy and listening to debates about the Bible, God, science, doctrine to try to bolster my faith/look for loopholes
> Gradually lose faith in God, the Bible and Christianity
> Atheist edgelord for a while
> Engage in multifaceted degeneracy
> Very unsatisfying
> Still restless, constantly looking for novel ideas and perspectives
> Start studying maths and philosophy at university
> Stumble upon Catholic philosophers/writers like Edward Feser and David Oderberg
> Das_it_mane.webm
> Spark renewed curiosity about religion and spirituality
> Come to appreciate classical theism, metaphysics and natural law
> No longer identify as an atheist
> Reluctant to join any particular religion or denomination
Wat do lads? The God of the philosophers/mathematicians seems very different from the God of the Bible, who also seems very different from the God of the Christians. And the uniquely Christian, Jewish and Muslim doctrines/dogmas seem like man-made constructions compared to the sublime nature of metaphysics/maths.