/christian/ - Christian Discussion and Fellowship

>>534459

I was never an atheist.

>>534465

Same for me.

>>534459

I don't like any religion

>>534467

Don't you get tired of having your posts deleted?

>>534459

1 year ago mainly thanks to this board and the facebook group called /rel/

>spring of 2016

>First manic episode

>Believe I'm Jesus

>Kick down door of a random house and start taking a bath

>Arrested, taken to jail

>Believe I'm in hell

>Finally get bailed out by my mom

>Get taken to psych ward

>Get out, go to Dad's house in different town

>Realize once again that I am Jesus, try to walk 120 miles back to the first town

>Get found and taken to mental hospital again

>They start giving me shots

>They work, I come back to normal

>But

>Am still talking to something that gives me feeling in my head/neck in response to yes or no questions

>One day ask if it is Jesus

>Yes

>Start reading the Bible, see the truth in Jesus's words and accept him as my Lord and savior

>Spring 2017

>Go nuts again, believe I am Jesus again

>Went to ecig store

>Asked to see Vape

>Take it and walk out the door

>Cops find and arrest me again

>Get out of jail again

>Go to psych ward again

>Am now on double the dosage of the shot

>Feel normal again, no mood swings or psychosis

>Still talk to whatever it is through physical feeling, but am no longer certain it is Jesus, might be a demon

>Jesus is once again my lord and savior and not me, though I still have doubts

I know I am a sinner.

I believe in Jesus, but I do wish that I had not originally come to him through mental illness. I'm very conflicted because people at times have very clearly been able to read my thoughts, and were joyous to see me. For instance:

>Sitting at bus stop

>See woman in traffic

>She notices me, and smiles brightly

>I catch a whiff of cigarette smoke

>Wonder if she is smoking

>She suddenly looks embarrassed, looks away

>I pull out my own cigarette and light it

>She smiles again, holds up her cigarette at me and calls "I am!" as she drives past.

I have a few more stories like this, including one you will not believe at all. If anyone's interested I will share them.

Sorry for blogpost

>>534489

Excuse me sir, you what?

Why did the cops arrest you for vaping?

>>534490

nah for vaping too big of thicc juicy clouds

>>534490

I stole it. I guess I didn't make that clear enough.

>>534523

Same. I did go through a Protestant phase though.

Last year. When I realized the people around me were fucking degenerates and that Atheists are retarded.

A slow process since I was 19, like >>534485 said this board actually helped (/christian/ was better than it is now)

this

>>534529

and

>>534558

sadly this board is cancer now. the redditors and hitler dickriders have done their damage

>>534459

16

>>534459

Never was one, probably because I had a fairly good relationship with my parents.

>>534459

>Went to Christian school

>Believe in Him, but did not understand Him fully

>Fast forward to college years

>Surrounded by "progressives

>Slowly fell out of His grace

>Fedoras disgust me because how they behave

>So did not became one, just fell silent

>After the long silent, the world without Him feels so empty, meaningless

>Stumbled, into this place

>Found Him again, in you guys who keep their faith in Him no matter what

>Even in the darkest pit, He is there to catch the lost sheeps like me from falling

>Had an epiphany

>Walk home towards Him

>>534693

Was their fashion of sort. Thinking wearing fedoras like the real men of old will make them look like a real man. Obviously, it is not the cloth that makes the man 100% of the time, a dork in a suit is still a dork.

>>534709

It doesn't help that they wear the hat without matching clothes either

>>534459

>When did /christian/ grow out of its atheism?

Atheist from 17-20, went back when I was 21 years old with a more fervent vigor for Christ than ever before.

>What made you come to and accept Christ?

Every aspect of life from mathematics and science to politics and economics, especially history, points to the truth of Christianity. I could only avoid it for so long.

>>534467

>(USER'S FEDORA WAS DONATED FOR THIS POST)

Heh

>>534489

You should see a chiro, it sounds like your spine has been compromised.

>>534459

>When did /christian/ grow out of its atheism?

Long story, but I was about 17/18

>What made you come to and accept Christ?

Long story, but an drug-induced existential crisis, an absurd amount of apologetical material read, and a qt3.14 Baptist girl I know

>>534486

I thought monotheism was mandatory for freemasonry.

>>534459

>raised as an atheist by a dad who's very opposed to religion, mom's agnostic and religion plays no role in her life at all

>am a very logical-thinking person, I don't understand what I hear about Christianity so I'm opposed to it

>when I turn 14, I start to think for myself

>"how can I be opposed to this religion if I don't really know what it is about? Why should I base my opinion solely on things I've heard other people say about it?"

>start to read the bible every day for 10-20 minutes before high school

>keep this up for one and a half year, read through most of it

>discover a most beautiful Book filled with wisdom

That was about 8 years ago. I'm still deciding on what Church to join. My country is largely atheist and has a Catholic past but almost no one (especially the youth) is trying to live by Christian values. There's some protestantism and maybe three little orthodox churches in the entire country. Still, orthodoxy is now probably what I consider the right path. I've got to admit I'm struggling with the idea of venerating icons, but the youtube channel Y2AM's "Be the Bee" series has so far been of great help.

>>535909 No, just theism.

>>537588

Meant *it revived my faith

I was a deist for several years because I could never deny that creation requires a first cause and that might as well be called lower-case G god. Around the birth of my neice and nephew I started having a feeling that God was personal and wanted me to know him so I began attending mass again.

>>534465

Same here. I was always Christian.

I was never an atheist per say. When I was a child, I believed whole heartedly in God, but didn't know own anything about Christianity, though I called myself a Christian. When I grew up as a teen, I embraced the culture up to homosexual celebration, but not to the extent of accepting abortion. In order to accept the degeneracy, I figured that, surely, God must be okay with it, I mean, come on, the creator of the universe being worried about people doing it outside of marriage? Come on! I was afraid to read the Bible in case it was true. I was the type to hold on to any seemingly good argument for the Bible not really saying that, because old testament! Plus, new testament is just bad translation, maaaan!

So I was not an atheist technically, but more of a faux Christian, though I was an atheist in spirit. I grew out of it once o grew up and became a bit more conservative, more skeptical of the world, and when a friend who is an elder at a church, decided to disciple me, wherein I learned about my faith and pushed me to make the decision of rejecting what is clearly stated in scripture or accepting God. So, I accepted God and have been growing in my faith and understanding ever since.

>>534709

this is pretty much what happened to me, I was just an edgy rebellious retard.

Sorry for the unrelated blog post.

This thread made me remember something. I feel bad for God for how much I disappoint him while he helps me so much. So many things go well all the time, I can't help but feel in debt with him. I do have an effort to be better. I wish he would punish me sometimes for my wrongdoings(at the same time I don't want to suffer much). I wonder if what happens means I have a big purpose in life. If that is true I don't want to waste it. Still, I don't use my free time for productive things such as studying harder. I still get between 7.5 and 9.5 easily in hard subjects most people get around 3 and 6(6 cut) and what I really want to do(aside of having a good career as a mechanical engineer) is to design guns, which I really like. I don't see how that would be "good" for the world. I don't think guns are bad but as a field where advancement gets us nothing but more fun.

I was raised in a Christian household by strict parents. When I was fourteen I read the Bible. However, later In my adolescence I questioned everything and had even “dated” numerous philosophies from Nihilism to Jungism. In this time I had come to be redpilled on the JQ. I questioned it at first but years later would come to laud this knowledge as objective truth. So I started reading books. The book “synagogue of Satan” in particular struck a chord with me.

It was then I realized that the Antichrist was real—and he is supported by the Jewish machine. And so I had recalled the readings of the Bible that I partook in my infancy and I remembered the words of Jesus—“the devil is the lord of this world.” Right then, something ticked. The widespread commonplace degeneracy that I had witnessed throughout my life finally had an explanation. And like the Prodigal Son, I made my return. I thank our Heavenly Father for his unconditional love and boundless blessings—for his Grace—had saved a wretch like me.

Thank you for asking, OP. I've been wanting to share this story as I have outgrown my fedora quite recently, I think.

I have been in a state of misery for a few years, as my wife and I saw our marriage spiralling towards divorce due to our combined stresses and being unable to support each other. I won't bore you with all the details, but all through my Masters studies we were both completely emotionally drained from our respective professional lives, and our stresses from work ended up piling up at home. We could barely talk to each other.

Upon graduation, things started to get a bit better as a big weight was lifted off of me. But still, our goal of a happy little marriage seemed very far off. I couldn't find any decent work related to the degree I had worked so hard for and I began to lose hope. But this past summer I decided to read the bible, simply because I had missed out on so much reading during my education, as I was solely focused on my studies, and wanted to educate myself on the world.

After I read the bible and pondered it, two life changing events occurred in short order. We found out that my wife is pregnant despite our stringent use of contraceptives, and two days later I was offered a relatively high paying job in my chosen field of study, despite my giving up and exploring a career change into something else. My misery has melted away completely, as though a fog that has been shrouding me for years has just dissipated.

I can't shake the feeling that by my reading the bible and giving it serious thought, I was in some way reaching out to God, and He reached out to touch my life in return.

I grew up in an atheist household, so this is my first encounter with these kinds of thoughts. It feels good though. Feels more right, I think. I'm exploring my faith now, and trying to figure out what that means exactly.

God bless you, anon.

>>538818

Get the baby tested anonkun

I've always been religious. When I started to think I watched a lot of videos on youtube. People like Craig, Lennox, Plantinga, Aquinas, and others helped my shape myself. Needless to say, I watched a ton of videos too from people like Russel, Hume, Hitchens, Bananaman and his fellow atheists. In the end, I decided to stay being /christian/ but now I'm not so sure if I should stay as my denomination. That's a different story so I won't go into details.

When I remembered all the things the Lord did for me and how I was only failing without him.

roughly a decade of therapy

I was an abortion advocate and held my niece for the first time.

Progress from there

>>538818

Although

>>538892

has legitimate worries about the child's parentage, you may be better off just trusting her. The out in Matthew (pornea) for divorce isn't present in Mark and I think Mark is the more accurate representation of Christ's teachings. Christ taught hard lessons and a lot had to do with forgiveness.

I think Matthew was a reaction to:

"Yeah, but what if my wife fucks a horse in an idol temple?"

"Well, I mean, Jesus obviously didn't mean that," or, even more likely, it was assumed that was a gentile thing and gentile marriages counted a little less - as Paul points out in an epistle, cause' they weren't made before God.

But, I kinda think Jesus didn't mean for exceptions. We mate for life, let no man separate what God has joined. Forgive or live celibate but no remarriage.

So, maybe it's just best to raise the child as your own, following God's will, and to not ask questions.

>From a time before I can even remember to 24 I was in a deep depression and sorrow.

>thought about killing myself every day.

>was so real and painful that by 10 I had anthropomorphized it

>was my ultimate enemy/friend/family.

>This pain and eventually living mostly in my head with it had left me a friendless social retard, which fed right back into my depression

>by 13 and on I dove straight into atheism/occult/satanism to have the consolation that I was some kind of misunderstood intellectual outsider

>By my 20's my mental state was unraveling and I wasn't able to keep up my mask all the time

>was spending most of my days cooped up in bed seething about how unfair that Christians were happy and had a life.

>decided to look into Christianity just to be able to mock it even more.

>Started to read the bible and my depression and everything went to 11

>This was my final despair I thought and the idea of killing myself wasn't just an idle threat in my head

>In my desperation I truly asked Christ if he took this away that I would do anything he wanted

>And a week passed, and another, and another. When is this going to work?

>Then I realized it was gone, the darkness, the depression, everything. The pain was there for so long that I couldn't understand it when it was gone.

>I was happy, and in a frantic rush that it would come back I burned everything that I had accumulated for the darkness.

>Realized that it wasn't a mental problem but a spiritual malady.

After that I went to RCIA, got a girlfriend, and now I'm happily married. I am scared sometimes that it will come back. Sometimes I even miss the darkness because it was easier to wallow in it then to be healthy and do the right things.