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>>814181

Set a concrete objective.

My first success was January 2018. I was elated and, it was the first time I realised I had a problem.

Of course after January I decided to have a celebration fap and then try got 2 months.

That was a terrible idea, the following months I would not stop indulging. I finally managed to impose some order doing it only on the weekend.

But even that system began to degrade and I would slip, so on Oct 1 I decided 90 Day NoFap. I would not touch myself until Dec 31.

The first two weeks were incredibly difficult, it was constantly on mind. Then by the end of the first month I started feeling better, less anxious. By December I felt like a new man.

Actually the best way I can describe it is that I started feeling, acted and talked like a real man.

During those 90 days I had relapsed into watching porn and realised it would by my next challenge.

On the 31 of Dec I sinned with the flesh for the final time.

I look at it as Lent in a way.

As for the roseries and litanies, praying helps, but only to a certain degree.

If I may get a bit theological this reminds me

of a proverb in my country ",Dumnezeu îți dă, dar nu îți pune în traistă". Which roughly translates to God gives, but He doesn't put it your bag.

It's a distillation of the story of the Talents (Matthew 25:14-30)

God has given us the will to stop, but it is I who must choose to do so, I must choose to use this gift He's given me.

>TL;DR

>set a concrete objective

>the first two weeks are Hell

>short periods degrade quick

>it has to be cold turkey or you'll be in those first two weeks forever

>getting away from porn is more difficult than you think

>God helps those who help themselves

>>814181

Wow. Got any screencaps?

>>814181

For what reason, out of curiosity? Have they finally realized porn is detrimental to their mental well-being?

>>814235

>>814251

Pretty much a civil war, some anons hanging out to their idols, others trying to wake them up.

Test

I don't usually post here when I fall, but I would like to vent for a bit please bear with me.

I've been able to go a year without masturbation in the past. But since I gave in to masturbation once after that, I've only been about to get to 3 months or so. Typically giving into temptation every month or 6 weeks or so when the temptation gets too great.

I've been noticing the temptation growing these last couple of weeks as media and secularists bombard me with sexual crap every where I go and every site that I visit. To the point I knew it was going to get difficult very soon. So I prayed to the Lord and to my Guardian Angel to give me deliverance from my temptations. And I believe my Guardian Angel was pushing for me to pray the rosary, which I was going to. However I put the rosary off until later that day regrettably and I fell as a result. As I was going to do the deed God had given me many outs, my thoughts were screaming at me to flee from sin. I was stumbling as hesitating thinking on my actions and how wrong it was. God even had someone pull into my driveway and come into my house just as I sat down hardened heart to do the sin. Even with all these promptings I managed to ignore them all and gave into sin, taking my phone away with me into the bathroom.

Does anyone else have any consolation/advise/experience about denying these prompts? I guess the reason I'm posting this is because I can't deal with the fact that I rejected Christ so many times when I called for His help and He tried to save me so many times. Peter rejected Christ 3 times but I rejected Him about 12 times in a much lesser situation. I know the Lord forgives me and still loves me, but I'm so disgusted and disappointed in myself for rejecting Him so many times that I don't want to be forgiven.

I know that I can't give in to despair and with prayer I'll come around again. But this time is hitting me much greater then any other times. Which is good I guess because I know atleast I'm truly repentant for doing wrong against God. And I'm on the verge of tears as I type this, which I'm sure I'll break down when I start praying. Does anyone have any advice/words of wisdom/get a grip or something for me?

I'm going to go pray the rosary now, please pray for me anons.

lel

I've been doing pretty poorly at resisting temptation recently, and have fallen back into my sinful ways a ton over the past few weeks. It's not the worst it's ever been, but it hasn't been this bad in a long time.

>>814736

Please understand that becoming a saint is difficult. It's written the gate is narrow and this is true. I want to exhort you that Jesus loves you. You may have fallen, but your heart is contrite. Confess, pick up your cross, and go. Think of this struggle as spiritual warfare. Your soul is destined to be good. That's your natural state. You can tell from all these warnings your mind gave you. It's harder to decide to ignore and block out these things than to listen and obey. So: be simple and obey.

I'll recommend to you what I recommend to everyone else - while the rosary is great, I personally believe Mass is even stronger. If you go to mass three times a week you'll find it very hard to not obey the Lord who made you and loves you. What also works really well is to put a rosary in sight of your bed, or a crucifix. One in the bathroom, too. Very few can do the deed while they are so keenly aware God is watching. It's easy to tell ourselves this is not so when we hide in a room. But when we are looking at the rosary, an icon or a crucifix you'll find it next to impossible to give into this sin. Give it a try, friend.

>>814992

Only if you confess and repent

Day 38.

Lost all urge to masturbate, but now my body is almost screaming at me to fornicate.

How do I deal with this?

Went without masturbating for a few days, but failed again. It seems like I can avoid it on days I have work but I end up failing on my days off.

I've fallen hard since returning home from college. My work schedule had prevented me from getting to confession and I keep falling further and further. I feel like my heart is hardening more and more. It scares me how detached I feel. Please pray for me.

>>815094

Why would you prioritize your job over your salvation?

>>815098

I don't, honestly I've just had bad luck not being in time yesterday for pre mass confession and won't be free till Friday. The place I live also doesn't have any places open for confession except on Fridays Saturdays and Sundays.

In the state of mortal sin currently due to my short comings. It's the worst possible feeling to be disconnected from our Lord. I want to be reunited with Him again as soon as I can. But I can't tell if I want that for a selfish desire or out of love for Him. I know my life is meaningless without Him and my mood and attitude speaks this out when I'm in mortal sin, He's the only one that can make me feel alive and happy and free. But the fact I need to be in communion with Him again do I want this for my own selfish desire for the happiness He offers me? Or because I love Him and want to be with our Lord? I want to be able to the say the latter but I rejected Him when I sinned so it's not really true love for our Lord.

>>806470

>>806470

FOR THE WAGES OF SIN IS DEATH

But yeah, it fricked you up big time mate.

Now stay of your gf or go and marry her you degenerate.

On days that I have work I don't masturbate, I'm either too tired after, not interested, or it doesn't cross my mind.

I keep failing on days that I don't have work though. I failed twice yesterday and again today. Part of it might be boredom and me dwelling on lust as a result of that boredom, but in the end it was my decision to sin no matter what excuses I make.

>>815393

I feel like I'm repeating myself and people aren't really reading any of the advice in this thread.

If you hang up a crucifix by your bed and your computer you'll find it actually physically impossible to do this without removing them first, which should give you enough time to let the urge pass.

If you also do to daily mass or pray the rosary daily there's pretty much zero chance you can fall in this way. I can't even get hard on days I do that. Even if I purposefully try to disobey I'm protected and can not go through with it.

It's been countless years.

Please at least try my advice… It breaks my heart to read these messages in here when stopping is so terribly trivially easy. It costs to money. It takes almost no effort. Simply hang up a crucifix or rosary where you can see them were you to sin and go to daily mass or pray the rosary. You can do the rosary on your commute or while you walk or are in line in a store. It's literally the easiest thing to stop this. Once you love God you'll stop on your own because you'll feel the deep sorrow and disgust this flaw is in light of perfection.

Who knew I was so addicted I cam barely hold myself for 3 days before I get extreme urges and mild depression

>>815557

I refuse to take naps because of that shit.

>>815557

>felling confident about sexual purity

That's the worse one can do, whenever I think I won't fall ever again, that's when I winnie the pooh up. Be always on guard.

Sometimes I dream I'm looking for porn but usually immediately wake up since i tried to convince myself to do so.

And yes it's the demons, read Aquinas: http://www.newadvent.org/summa/3154.htm#article5

One priest told me not to worry at my young age for masturbating; the other told me to confess every time

What now?

>>815754

Confess everytime and confess your temptation

>>802373

God can bless any couple with a baby at any time. So no, its not a sin.

Plenty of examples in the bible

>>802527

How did Sara conceive of a child at her age?

You dont think God grants miracles?

>>803263

Its been about a year for me, but i am married so im not sex free.

It really does denigrate your soul, and leads people down the pathway to more depravity.

Ill pray for you anon, It get way easier after 30 days, but you'll have temptations. Pray, read, play a game, exercise, its hard but with God helping i know you can quit.

>>815557

Ever read, "Screwtape letters"?

>Read it if not.

Ive always felt an inner battle, and i do believe satan tempts us. But you arent alone.

Also the first 30 days are the hardest. Ill pray for you

>>815469

>Was easy for you

Not for everyone

I quit smoking, was hard but i did it. Some people dont have the strong will power you have. Encourage them, dont talk how easy it is.

Porn is pure evil and it holds sway on too many men. Quiting porn is a MUST.

>>815881

You're right, I should have been more charitable. But understand: I did those things and they worked. Daily mass, rosary, religious objects in rooms where you might be tempted. Because it worked I'm not attributing this success to myself but to God and these methods. That's why I felt it was easy: taking the 20 minutes it takes to say the rosary in Latin (maybe 30 in English) a day is not a big sacrifice if you commute, stand in shopping lines or what have you.

>no fap for 2 weeks

>failed last week

>inside of dick starts feeling itchy

>search up about it

>it's most likely an urethritis

so basically i hurt the inside tube of my dick (the urethra), this would probably be the one event that will make me never masturbate again

didn't go to the doctor but i think it's fine now, the feeling is almost gone

>>815926

I don't know if it was urethritis

>Mechanical manipulation of the penis or minor trauma may lead to urethritis. Medical procedures, rubbing on rough clothing, as well as vigorous sexual activity or masturbation can cause a temporary irritation of the urethra.

>Sometimes ejaculation can cause a temporary feeling similar to urethritis. This usually goes away in a brief period without any specific treatment.

https://www.emedicinehealth.com/urethritis_in_men/article_em.htm#what_causes_of_urethritis

It was likely temporary inflammation of the urethra from ejaculation or masturbating because urethritis is usually caused by an STD.

>>815925

Heh, last week priest told me to take it seriously (every 1 week or 2 weeks confession for 6 months straight) and I failed this week

This situation surely will make me reconsider

>>815989

My priests have often told me that the important part isn't that we failed or how often we fail, but that we come back and strive for more despite our failures. Christ is most present in our faults rather than our perfections anon.

>>815971

some other site said it was an urethritis too, but just the mild kind caused by either masturbating or allergy reaction to soap

I've come to God after years of sin lately. How do I into nofap? It's my oly real vice. Also, I shall apologize for shitposting here back when I was a fedora tipping faggot. Please pray for me.

>>816250

Don't masturbate, don't edge, don't watch porn, don't ERP, don't have premarital sex.

>>816250

http://www.chastitysf.com/litany_of_chastity.htm

Protip: It's probably not your only real vice

>>816440

Same. Sometimes I worry that I might be a reprobate and find it difficult to believe that God loves me since I am so undeserving of His love, only His hate.

>confessed yesterday

>feel confident, I can do this

>have dream where I'm watching porn and I feel like I'm DOING WRONG, failing God

>ejaculate, wake up

>feel devastated

I don't know anymore, it was my fault for my previous lifestyle but I couldn't control it. What now?

to anyone reading this: DON'T winnie the pooh WATCH PORN EVER AGAIN, it messes your brain up

>>816479

That's pride, anon. Stop it. So God, who is merciful enough to forgive murderers, lifelong sinners who come to God at the dusk of life, etc. - this God of perfect mercy and perfect justice - isn't merciful enough to forgive you?

Whatever you've done, whatever you've plotted, it's nothing in the face of God's mercy. Think for a second: who has an interest in making you feel like you don't deserve this mercy that was given to all humans? Who could these thoughts be coming from?

That's right. They're not coming from God. So pray, repent, confess, and go in peace.

Those in dispair and those who feel they are slipping remember. The Lord called our generation to chastity in reparation for the sins of previous generations.

Do not dispair. The Lord grants grace to those who ask. The Lord will pick up those who fall. You are not alone for we all bear this cross. Be brave for your denial of the flesh is a direct challenge to all of Hell, draw your line in the sand and tell those demons they will not cross it for the Lord is with you and he along with all the Saints, the Hosts of angels and all those who pray for chastity are behind you prepared to wage a war for your soul.

In the name of the Father

The Son

And the Holy Spirit

Blessed are you who pick up the cross and pay the reparations for the sinners of the world.

Say one “our father” with me the time does not matter only your willingness to surrender your soul to the Lord our God and Jesus Christ his only son.

Had a wet dream after a month of purity. I know it's not a sin but physically I feel like I broke my streak.

>>816655

The issue is the scars left on your soul are making you feel this way. Get to the bottom of why losing the “streak” makes you feel that way and correct it. It might have nothing to do with lust.

>>806470

>acting all horny because muh gf

>apologizing for not being able to fornicate

>hentai finish

>did porn winnie the pooh up my brain

>bros

Have you mistaken this with /nofap/ board or what? I am going to be rude here. There's no sign of regret that you nearly fornicated, the whole post seems to be bragging about it.

>Did this porn do to me?

probably. But the main problem is that you do not see a problem with a mortal sin that you've nearly committed. Not even mentioning that most things "over the top" of cuddling were a sin anyway.

Repent.

>>816533

This happens when your soul and body heals itself from porn addiction. It is not a sin if you did not do it. Dreams are not a sin.

Do not get discouraged

>>815469

I'm glad to hear stopping was easy for you; I wish it was as easy for me. It feels like inevitably I start thinking about it and end up masturbating. Sometimes I've gone for longer periods but lately I can't go a week without failing.

>>816783

All right, but have you tried these things? Have you been going to daily mass (when you can), praying the rosary when you can't, hung up rosaries / crucifixes around the area where you fap? Have you said a Hail Mary as you are about to sin? I sincerely believe nobody can say an entire prayer and keep sinning.

There's a friend that thinks no one can go without lust and masturbation. I refered him to mistics but he said it's all lies.

He's studying psychology and his books say masturbation good and as long it's not addiction, go do it (otherwise you'll end up as a degenerate and do worse things). I'm counting the days I'm without doing an impure act (I can fall heh, but this way I'm trying my best so good motivation). Any article or something to convince a very scientific guy?

>>816821

I missed

>I'm counting the days I'm without doing an impure act

To serve him as an example but I don't know if he'll believe me**

GUUUAAAGHH WHY DO I KEEP JERKING IT? God, please help me.

Once a day for the past three days

I've stopped doing all my prayers, haven't in what's coming close to a week. Went on vacation and it was all over from there. Why is it so hard? I got through weeks of nofap before, so why now? What changed?

>be me last night

>on day 6 of nofap/noporn

>doing great up until this point

>have homework to do online

>don't have the motivation to do it

>stare at a blank web page, bored

>pray every time a lustful thought comes to mind

>it helps for a while, but the lust comes creeping back in

>at this point, it's either pray constantly ("you can't pray and fap at the same time") and don't get any homework done or try pushing through boring homework, saying a prayer every so often, and hope i don't fall to porn out of boredom/anxiety

>i choose the latter

>can't focus at all, and start looking at girls' IG profiles

>my lust is even worse now that i've done this, and the only way not to step it up to porn/fapping would be to pray constantly

>but i've got homework to do, so i keep trying to focus on it

>eventually start looking up videos (i end up sort of in a tunnel-visioned "zone" when i do this, not noticing any of the crucifixes or Christian art placed around my home or otherwise thinking rationally) and relapse to both vices

>i realize my grave mistake and feel disgusting afterwards

If you ever find yourself bored, a friendly reminder to distance yourself from any computer devices and pray the Rosary until your boredom is alleviated, even if it feels like you're putting off important things in your life… I learned that lesson the hard way last night. Now, do you anons have any recommendations for ways I can better occupy my time? For extroverted activities, I walk trails and go to church events, but that's about it. What hobbies do you guys have?

>>816983

I was on day 13 and thanks to YouTube I winnie the poohed up I moved to heavier places after getting turned on… So yes, try to use internet for basic things and stop there, remove superfluous social media and webs which aren't directly related to your work or spiritual growth

As a recommendation if you're not doing it, read Saints lives or spiritual works, I often feel stronger after reading a virtuous story and motivated to keep following the path (St Benedict Joseph Labre always gets me)

I recommend the sayings of the desert fathers, I read one after waking up and feel greatly edified.

De imitatione christi too, best spiritual companion. I never got any funny thoughts when reading this material, demons flee from virtue

Pray for me I am being assailed by some nasty spirits and my own mind. I am winning but pray that my strength holds.

Day 47.

Had a dream I am quite sure was demonic. Lust was utterly burning to the point I thought I was awake. Almost masturbated in the dream but fought it off in the dream with the Jesus Prayer.

Had a bit more lust than usual when I woke up.

I suspect it's because I started mental prayer and yesterday's saying of the desert fathers was specifically about neither examining nor consenting to lust.

I'd really appreciate prayers.

3rd night in a row I had a nocturnal emission. The first night I can grant was do to a mindset I was fostering, but these last two nights were certainly involuntary. I've hardly even been aroused or lusting after girls lately, and though I don't keep count, I'm certain i've gone a longer amount of days without actively fapping, and I wasn't having wet dreams at this frequency. I feel like i'm cursed with something, I feel weak.

>>816997

I have to wear a Rosary near constantly it is so bad. Keep Holy Water on hand to bless yourself.

>>816994

It is scary how easily things that never used to phase you suddenly are able to damn you to hell.

>>816988

God will forgive you anon but you need to take stronger measures to fortify yourself.

If you feel like watching porn, give this a watch and think again :^)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BcbLyx4zkD0

>>816983

I am proud of you for trying very hard.Really! Most of the time people fail, they haven't tried the things you did. You worked very hard. Please remember that failure is not the end. Pray, confess, pick up your cross and try again. You did really well to struggle this hard - remember, the devil is very powerful. I think in your particular situation I would have decided not to do the homework because it's more important to love God than it is to miss an assignment once - but that's hindsight 20/20

And as for your question, my hobbies are video games and watching movies in the cinema. I also like to read books, but lately, because I am considering becoming Catholic, it's been mostly religious in nature. I also love to go to restaurants to try out different cuisines!

>>816988

While I don't know any Catholic women my age, I feel the same way every time I fail.

>>816994

I deleted FB and YT off my phone a week ago, which helps with temptation (I'm not constantly having attractive women shoved in my face now). Thanks for the book recommendations! I purchased a few recently; I just need to motivate myself to read them more.

>>817024

Thank you for the very kind words, anon! I indeed will try much harder this time. I've tried cutting back on vidya in recent years, but certainly playing it is preferable to committing mortal sins. Visiting the cinema and different restaurants are great ideas. I'm a recent convert to Catholicism, and my old (Protestant) friends don't really talk to me anymore, so I don't have anyone to hang out with really. Otherwise, I'd love to go to amusement parks or a theater or something, but it'd just seem strange to go by myself. I hope to meet a good woman in due time, but clearly I'm not ready for her yet.

>>803879

this is a mistake lots of people make, feeling depressed, down or otherwise negative when they slip up during no-fap.

If you react with negative, self-loathing feelings, that depressiveness will make you give up and feel that you are incapable of success.

instead, if you slip up, don't make a big deal about it. just start again and be glad that you made it for a few days/weeks, and that next time it will be for longer.

it doesn't matter if it takes you 20 attempts because in the end you will have self control. be positive about it.

>>817244

>don't make a big deal about it

But that's being dishonest to myself. If I consider myself a horrid abomination and failure before God that deserves endless misery, I'm just being honest, because it's the truth

>>817414

Not a productive truth if you let it paralyze you into living in sin and complacency. There are many different people. Some people, when confronted with guild or shame, double their efforts. But some people, especially those plagued by demons or by depression, just collapse under their own self-pity (which is also a sin because it is essentially sloth and pride) into a state where they just don't try anymore because 'I am worthless anyway, so I don't deserve God.'

>>817417

>their own self-pity

I don't have any self-pity, I only self-hate

>>817009

Sometimes it just happens anon.

I typically will have 2-3 nights of wet dreams or sometimes 3 wet dreams in the same night. Even if they are not sexual. I had one where I was just chilling in spa pool and thats what woke me up with emissions.

I recommend sleeping with a towel wrapped around you. That way your sheets and your clothes dont get messed up and its not quite as bad.

>>816996

I will pray for you anon.

Here's something for you all, from Imitation of Christ book three, chapter 57-3, translated from the German version into English by me:

"Be at ease and arm yourself with more patience. Not all is lost when you're often heavily tempted and lose your composure. You're a human, not good God, a bodily creature, and not an angel. How could you remain in a state of Grace at all times if even the angels in heaven and the first men in the garden of Eden failed to? God is the one who can restore those who grieve to salvation and raise those who see their own weakness into His Godhood."

>>817712

Hey, just FYI, it’s really jarring to have high-register constructions like “not all is lost” in the same sentence as low-register constructions like “you’re.” Simply using “you are” instead of “you’re” makes the text read much better. Maybe try to keep that in mind when you translate from now on.

>>817993

Yes, my apologies. I wrote it on my phone and it automatically put 'you're' and I didn't bother to re-read it because I wanted to comfort people. Your point is valid and I thank you for it. There's another phone error in there but nobody seems to have noticed.

>>816841

Great text, got reference for that? Our any more in depth reads?

>>816983

Exercise (bodyweight and/or lifting weights), running, biking, reading books, writing books, or at least coming up with ideas for stories - that's something I do, praying obv, going to Mass more than once weekly, cooking, meeting with friends.

These are all pretty good. Expend your energy and take your time, which leaves you little time to be idle and in danger of looking at pron out of boredom. Also they help you grow virtues in various ways. If I have spare time/need to rest I usually play video games, often with a podcast in the background.

>>816605

>The Lord called our generation to chastity in reparation for the sins of previous generations.

When and where? Not tipping here, just genuinely want to know.

>>816655

Wet dreams are not a sin. Thomas Aquinas even wrote a chapter on this in the Summa. Also you should worry about sinning/not sinning, not about breaking a "streak".

>>818204

>Wet dreams are not a sin. Thomas Aquinas even wrote a chapter on this in the Summa. Also you should worry about sinning/not sinning, not about breaking a "streak".

Yes, but let's be real, wet dreams are mostly caused by sinning interiorly and lusting in the mind while you are awake. Replaying pornographic images in your mind, ogling scantily-clad women in advertisements and on the street, etc. The majority of wet dreams would not have happened without your first committing some type of lust-related sin.

>>804426

you may have had contact with another entity, not judeochristian god.

>>818257

>judeochristian

Stop. There is no such thing. You're using a propaganda term invented by 20th century Jewish communists and freemasons. Jews worship a different god. He who has not the Son, has not the Father.

Day 182, last night I had a discharge. It was my first discharge in I don't his long. I

don't think I was dreaming of anything, it just happened.

My fast continues, although now I feel I have to be even more vigilant than I was in the past 6 months.

>>818360

Don't make vows you may have big trouble keeping. Better yet, don't make any vows ever

>But I say to you, do not swear at all: neither by heaven, for it is God’s throne; 35 nor by the earth, for it is His footstool; nor by Jerusalem, for it is the city of the great King. 36 Nor shall you swear by your head, because you cannot make one hair white or black. 37 But let [n]your ‘Yes’ be ‘Yes,’ and your ‘No,’ ‘No.’ For whatever is more than these is from the evil one.

I made the same mistake once, and it only increased my suffering.

I have no excuse. I'm terrified that I might be resigning myself to sin and being obstinate in it. Please pray for me.

>>818699

You are not alone brother…

>>804560

>>805609

Thought you meant that you hadn't started masturbating until you were 15

I swear I'm not lying

>swore and prayed for help that I would never ever ever do this again

>Be horny today

>Be at work

>Fall into temptation and browse porn incognito

>Get home and fap to porn so degenerate, I didn't even fap to when I was a non-believer

>power goes out for a second right as I was opening the video

>Pc restarts

>Literally God did this

>Continue through anyway with much sadness once pc restarts

>Now crying about it in the kitchen and begging for forgiveness

>Woman's laughter from outside startles me

HELP! I'm losing my life. I don't want to die bros.

>>819300

>>819305

Is it still /spoopy/ if God is doing it?

It's /holyghost/ for sure, but dang I'd be freaking out too.

You better go to confession ASAP.

>>819300

>>819305

Huh, I thought everyone with the Bible app gets the same verse each day. My verse today is a Psalm. Anyway, you should make a note of how miserable you've felt today, from looking at porn to the aftermath of the deed itself, and use that as motivation to sin no more.

>>819363

Stop counting the days and start praying the rosary

>hit day 8 doing well (keeping track for confession not no fap reasons)

>suddenly start receiving lewd images in my head

>well it is First Saturday Church will solve this suddenly women wearing form fitting dresses not really suited for Church come in for a baptism walking all around the baptimal pool near the altar focus a Jesus but still it was group Rosary and they were very disrespectful

>get home start to get bored probably my main issue since masturbating was basically a hobby go to 4chin without thinking about it lewd pics everywhere on blue board habitually clicking and closing images realize what I am doing after a minute and close screen

>pray Rosary but still very anxious

Pray for me brothers the Devil wants my soul today.

>>819419

Minus the form fitting dresses thing, that sounds exactly like me (Catholic on day 8 who's been plagued by lust today). I'm thankful that I've stayed strong this week and won't have to seek Penance prior to Sunday Mass (the last few weeks I've been going to Confession every Saturday), however this is a very difficult and anxiety-inducing battle indeed brother. I'll pray for you.

welp lads, confessed to a friend that through the use of porn my desires have only grown darker and darker. Told him some of the worst shit I've ever done sexually and that I was terrified by how quickly my arousal justifies my own depravity.

Brothers he held my hand, he looked at me as a human being and as a friend and told me that we've all done or thought terrible things. He isn't religious but I know God put him in my life to help me turn against the devil, to help me break this descent into the underworld.

God bless you all, We are warriors and servants of the Highest King, we are his host wielding the cudgel of the Word and the holiest rosary. FIGHT, WE ARE MORE THAN OUR LUSTS

I started wearing a St. Michael the Archangel medallion, and I have felt zero urge to fap or open up a porn tab in three days. Is this normal?

I'm doing pretty good these days (more than 2 weeks in). However, I think the only reason I made it this far is because I'm currently talking to a girl that seems to be interested in me. We've exchanged messages and are going on a date next week which is cool, but if it all goes wrong I fear I will fall back into my bad habits. When I have urges I just think "what would she think about me?" and it goes away. I don't want to rely on a girl to remain chaste, but I don't know how to do it. Every previous attempt at nofap has been very bad before this one, because I had no girl in my life.

What do desu senpai?

>>819566

sorry, replied to wrong thread

>>405648

>Suffered from pornography addiction since 2013

>Became Christian around 2016

>Became Roman around 2017

>Newbag to everything

>Be me last week

>Decide to try out the Rosary for the first time

>No more urge to masturbate

>No urge every single day I pray it

>Now that it has been a week my testosterone levels have recovered

IT WORKS

>>819578

God bless.

Don't take it for granted though, it's a constant, lifelong fight.

>Presume not on your own strength, if you are free, and have been for very many years free, from the temptations of the flesh ; for this cursed vice does in an hour what for years it has failed to do, often making its advances stealthily; and the more it comes in the garb of a friend without exciting suspicion, the more grievous are the injuries and the more fatal the wounds it inflicts.

(http://patrimoinechretien.com/Biblioth%C3%A8que/Oeuvres/ScupoliSpiritualCombat2016en.pdf pp. 63-70)

Please pray for me. I've recently realized just how disgusting and absolutely shameful this habit is. It's one that I've been fighting for a few years now, I can't even remember exactly when my struggle with it started.

>>819065

Who drew that pic? I need to know because i have a godly mission concerning art

When I failed this time I was going back and forth between the thought "this is wrong and I'm risking eternal life" and "I can repent later". Yet I still caved and masturbated.

What is wrong with me? It feels almost like I cannot stop. It felt so wrong; disgusting and almost painful.

Every time I come to this thread I feel embarrassed at how quickly I've sinned again. I'm trying to take my mind off the list when it occurs but I don't always succeed. The thought of being obstinate in sin, of hardening my heart, terrified me.

Not only have I failed, but the past couple of weeks I have sunken so far into sin that I can honestly call this the lowest point of my life. This is following a brief period of bliss, during which I was regularly praying the rosary and temptation was the furthest thing from my mind. I feel as if I have spit in the face of God after having received spiritual gifts. What's keeping me going is just how effective prayer was during that time, it gives me hope that God may raise up even a sinner such as me. Please pray for me.

>>819894

You can start now… rebound and show this is possible, too. You are not your sin if you decide not to - and show you care, show you'll try.

>>819894

As long as you feel shame and know it's wrong, you can bounce back. I've had an… "intense" period recently, but I managed to calm down. I'll pray for you, and please pray for me too.

>>819882

I've never prayed the rosary and fapped in the same day. You don't have to pray it in one go, split it up. Transit, waiting lines, mechanical tasks like cooking, cleaning or office work… all are good moments to pray the rosary. It's barely 20 minutes, and you can split it in roughly 5 min intervals. And if you can't, for whatever reason, pray it in one day, just continue the following day where you left it.

Personally the hardest thing for me is to get rid of the before-bed fap. During the day I'm aware and I can keep myself busy with other stuff. Once I'm sleepy and in bed, it can be hard to avoid touching myself, I'm basically in zombie mode. IDK what's the best way to avoid those situations.

I've knowingly and willingly sinned and rebelled, and every time I do so it feels like this time could doom me for eternity, yet I do it all the same. It's so easy for me to fail, just one moment of inactivity and a passing thought is enough for me to cave. I need help escaping this degeneracy.

How does one get rid of a lustful thought that is seeded its way into your mind?

To elaborate with a specific instance I was browsing facebook when I saw an add to a manga. Curious as to why the hell manga is being recommended I clicked on it, and it was a nice manga until all of a sudden it did a 180 degree turn and became full on hentai. I closed it, angrily told facebook not to share that crap with me again. But the damage is done and the thoughts of that hentai are taking root in my mind.

That is typically how I fall to temptation is that one image/thought/video that I came across just sticks in my mind as a seed and over the months it grows and grows until I fall.

I'm very angry about it this time atleast as it was about a month ago I last fell to temptation from a similar seed when ads on the side of the screen kept putting sexual shit in front of me.

Currently I'm praying the rosary, praying for intercession, praying to my Guardian Angel to protect me and help rid my mind of these memories, and of course asking our Lord to help me overcome and be free from these thoughts.

Does anybody know a good way to stop a bloody thought from recurring in my head?

>>820021

>facebook

>stallman.jpg

Delete it.

Stop browsing imageboards & avoid going to places fll of degeneracy. If you aren't tempted, you won't lust.

>>820021

Here is my strategy that works pretty well.

>set up binding prayers (I set a prayer for the binding of evil spirits to a slight head shake and it works pretty well)

>pray the Rosary daily

>Develop a devotion (mine is the Our Lady of Sorrows Rosary along with the regular Rosary)

>prayer regiment it doesn’t have to be crazy I just try to do the Angelus at 6, noon and 6 plus the 3 o clock prayer

>keep Sacramentals like Holy Water and Blessed Oil around the house and bless everything includin yourself (you should be doing his already)

>observe the Wednesday and Friday fasts (this is actually very effective in beating an addiction though do a bit of study and don’t go overboard)

>say a Novena to your Guardian Angel, Mary, Joseph, and any Saints you like they’ll help just be clear what you are fighting

>regular confession

>making sure to recieve Communion once a week at least more is better

First anxiety about sinning will make things worse. Don’t worry about every sin you may have committed you are a soldier in a spiritual war the wounds of battle are expected. Pray for forgiveness and pay reparations as needed if you feel you have many sins or may have committed a mortal sin then go to Confession and keep up the fight.

Second the demons use your knowledge and fear of sinning against you so that they might make you dispair and fail. I’ve had a couple temptations in the desert moments recently when those situations arrive remember who you are and who you were made in the likeness of then declare “Get Behind Me Satan!”

Third the Lord allows demons to tempt so that you will overcome the temptation and become stronger. Everytime you beat the temptations of the Devil the Lord grants you more strength to combat those temptations in the future.

Finally do a real Examination of Conscience and hammer out the sins you probably have neglected to confess or forgot since you’ve been focused on fighting this one so badly.

Remember this is war and you have to approach it like it is. Use everything at your disposal and show no remorse in using them to reclaim your soul for God.

>>819946

What helped me there (epsecially with the habitual zombie mode morning fap) was placing a crucifix or some other reverential reminder in plain view of where I wake up.

is there any point in blocking internet and browser access to sinful material?

i tried to make it as hard as possible.

Does anyone want help with blocking that?

>>820120

Personally I think it just avoids the issue of willpower. Plus it's so easy to bypass these sort of blockers, it really just serves as a reminder that you need to stop what you're doing. You can accomplish the same thing by moving the browser app on your phone to a different spot, hiding boards that are nsfw, and (most importantly) creating a new routine for yourself. Busy hands are the best way to keep them off yourself.

I've written this before but a friendly reminder: it's literally impossible to fap on a day you pray the rosary. So if you're serious about quitting, do that. It's pretty easy of a fix.

Also wear a rosary around your wrist when home alone. Good luck wanking like that. You won't manage even if you try.

>>820121

no anon, i mean a website filter, that doesnt let me even connect to the sites.

>>820123

Whatever you think will help. I'm just saying don't depend on it

>>820125

what would you say works everytime?

The rosary works every time guaranteed or your grace back.

>>820129

this

>>820129

then why are we all coming back because of sinning?

>>820133

I don't want to discount it entirely but with how strong the effect is for me it's almost unimaginable that you manage to fap on days you pray it. So either you come back because you didn't pray it on some days, or you come back because when you do pray it you're doing it too quickly. Personally I don't think it's that great if you pray it in a car or during commute. You'll want to pray it in a church, or at home on your knees.

If you're not seeing results, do all 3 sets of 5 mysteries in a single 15 decade rosary every day.

Jesus says that some things are conquered only by prayer and fasting, so so those two things. Either fast more (no meat on Friday or Wednesday, small meals) and consider fasting digitally or up your prayers.

>>820049

>set up binding prayers (I set a prayer for the binding of evil spirits to a slight head shake and it works pretty well)

That's one of the things I was trying to remember for spiritual warfare.

I will pick up on the others as well.

>Blessed Oil

How does one acquire this? I've got myself holy water and I'm regularly blessing myself now.

>Fasts

I tend to fast everyday for atleast 16 hours, but that's just how I prefer things so I'm not quite sure its really a sacrifice.

>Novena

Should I just start a new novena every time I finish one? I prayed one to my confirmation saint a week or so back.

>Finally do a real Examination of Conscience and hammer out the sins you probably have neglected to confess or forgot since you’ve been focused on fighting this one so badly.

I have difficulty on this one currently as most of the venial sins I frequent I've managed to overcome. Aside from listening in on gossip when my sisters around, and unjust anger at times/people. Arrogant I know given the saints would frequent confession every second day. But I'm having difficulty thinking of specifics sins I tend to fall into. I will pray to my guardian angel to bring more sins to the forefront of my mind.

>Remember this is war and you have to approach it like it is. Use everything at your disposal and show no remorse in using them to reclaim your soul for God.

Thank you for your time and your words anon, this is how I plan on treating it this time around.

17. How do i inhibit my sexual instincts and celibate? Last year, around this time i started to celibate and managed to do like 53days or something like that, then i did 30 days twice and thats when i started to fail my streaks leading to current days when i only manage to do week or two maximum. What can I do about it? Maybe there is some tricks/chapters in the bible related to this topic?

>>820174

Are you all too lazy to read the thread?

Go to daily mass, pray the rosary daily, get blessed water & bless yourself frequently, hang up some devotional items in places you are likely to sin in, avoid pornography and idle daydreaming, fast and pray.

>>820169

>fasting

No anon, it is not a sacrifice if you already abstain from food 16 hours a day. Try what the monks did: fast by eating the same way you are, but instead of stimulating food, consume only bread and water. It's boring and that's the point. Alternatively, consider not eating at all on one day of the week, in addition to abstaining from meat on Wednesday and Friday.

>>820169

>how to get Blessed oil

Buy Extra Virgin Olive Oil doesn’t matter what brand take it to your Priest and he will bless it pretty simple process.

>fasting

You need to fast to feast and you need to feast to fast. If you are always fasting then how can it be a sacrifice. Make sure you are abstaining from meat on Fridays.

>how often should I pray Novena’s

As often as you need to. Develop a relationship with a Saint sometimes just say hi and thanks for praying for me in heaven. St Jude Prayer Novena is especially powerful though can take a bit since he is busy with more important matters.

Go online find an examination of conscience and go down the check list. You’ll find more sins then you’ll know what to do with.

>>820184

>get blessed water & bless yourself frequently

how do i bless myself?

>>820200

“By this holy water and by Your Precious Blood, wash away all my sins, O Lord. Amen.”

There is no specific prayer to pray when using holy water, other than making the Sign of the Cross: "In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit." You can also pray an Our Father or even the St. Michael Prayer when using holy water.

>>820200

Get something to keep holy water in fill it up at church ask the priest if they don’t have a fount. Tell the priest it is for spiritual growth and protection and insist you need it. If you can find a church that uses the old right or find a more traditional minded church and leave the Priest some Water and Salt and ask him to bless it in the Old Rite because the Old Rite has two exorcisms put on it the salt and the water.

Remember sacramentals do not grant grace only belief in God and his power grants these items any power at all. Your faith that God is using these things as a conduit to bless and protect is what makes them work.

>>820201

>>820243

thanks brothers

19 months.

>2 weeks exactly since I last masturbated of course it would be Friday the day our Lord Suffered his passion

>unable to sleep well at all

>morning hits and I am suddenly assaulted by every lewd thought ever hundreds of images of porn that I had watched over the years begin bombarding my mind

>fighting them off as best as I can

>fall back to sleep for a bit extremely lewd dreams

>wake up extremely aroused

>resist urge to do anything

Lord God if these are the reparations necessary to heal my soul. Thank you for allowing me to pay these reparations as you see fit.

>>820459

Glory to God.

>>820505

You're doing alright, God loves you

>>820844

I prayed a Hail Mary for you, anon. However, it would be in your best interests to delete your facebook account and leave that website for good. I know it can seem harsh, but that place is bad, all it does is induce lust, envy and sloth in its users, besides all the degenerate propaganda, of course.

>>820856

I left most of my secular groups and unliked shitposting pages on FB except some hobbyist ones. I only use it 3-4 times a week to speak with friends I would otherwise have no contact to and also to pass some time on some occasions.

>>820862

Have you thought of asking those friends for their phone numbers and texting them off Facebook?

Day 66.

Urges are back with a vengeance.

My Id is shrieking at me to fornicate, and since there are no women around, to masturbate.

Please pray for me. I am trying not to consent or analyse my temptations but I am finding it warping my thoughts.

>>821093

The flesh's biggest problem is that it wishes to be stimulated. That's literally it, all there is to it. Fapping is just stimulant-seeking. So is eating for pleasure. So is listening to secular music. So is pretty much everything that's not prayer or worship. It's all bait specifically designed to get us to doom ourselves.

Stimulation is a primary wedge that the devil uses to pry us away from the Lord and to create separation. Time spent seeking stimulants is time not spent being mindful of the Lord. Prayer works to combat all this because prayer is the opposite of a stimulant. Prayer is calm, peaceful, contemplative, and reverent. Almost sedative. Prayer is the turning of one's attention toward the Lord and away from the flesh's desire for stimulation. When you pray, you don't even want the bait anymore.

And that's really the key. Stop wanting the bait. Just stop. Say "I don't even want this." Say "Take these thoughts away from me, Lord." Please remove this evil from my head, Lord. Get it out, please. GET IT OUT. OUT.

>>819300

Something similar happened to me

I was about to watch porn and my lights went out. Turns out my lightbulb blew out and why at that exact moment?

Now I'm 14 days in and feeling very strong, I asked God to make me hate all impure acts

I think I am out of danger of fapping.

But last days have been hell for me. For month or so I did not care about women much. Now something changed again and I literally look at every above average girl…sometimes with lust. There is no end to it. I need to go to confession again but so far nothing helps. It is a complete thirst after women. The weather and dresses do not help me.

I guess I need to pray more. But the thing is….there is no end to this thirst. It may appear all of sudden any time. It's with you for the whole life….it's all so tiresome anons. I just already want to commit to the wife and be done with it. I know the thirst will stay and one will have to fight it. But now I look at women also because I search for the wife.

As I ahve said there is no end to this thirst

>>821321

Welcome to the desert friend. It’s also the name I am giving it if it is not already used. The Devil is literally attacking your mind, your body, even your senses to cause you to sin. He won out last Friday night, I have since confessed and re-evaluated my battle strategy (adding a devotion to St. Joseph he is really Good for this issue more of you should pray to him, St Ann for help finding a wife and such).

I am currently having the same issue as you women who before I wouldn’t have even considered looking at now fill my head with sinful thoughts. It is the devils work but it is also necessary as the Lord fixes your mind.

When the demons lash out is when you know you are doing something right. Remember temptation is not a sin, accepting the temptations is.

>>821051

I hope you are doing well anon.

As for me I failed again today that is the second time in a week compared to the previous 2 weeks. However in this failure I have found divine revelation if you will. Remember the Lord uses all evils to create a greater good. He understands we will probably fail but will forgive us as many times as necessary through the Sacrafice of his son.

Failing is not inherently a bad thing. Yes the Sin committed is a rejection of our Lord however it is all a part of the purification process. The Temptations and demonic attacks are all apart of the process of purifying and fortification.

Repent all you sinners. I stand before you a guilty man I have masturbated today. I failed in the test the Lord had layer out for me. The Lord is merciful and knows me before I know myself. The Lord knew full well I would try to use this time as an excuse to leave him. The Lord knows all of us better then we do. Glory to God, Glory to you my Lord you used my own pride against me, when I thought I could run from you like the disobedient child I am you grabbed me by he arm and embraced me for you still love me. My God I accept the forgiveness you will provide me today. Though I am not worthy of being provided such unconditional love. How can I who has sinned so boldly deserve such love? Only you could ever Love so perfectly my God.

Brothers we are tasked with temptations constantly. In choosing to turn away from lust we send the demons into a frenzy. They attack us every second with lustful images and previous experience. The Lord has allowed this because it is necessary for the purification of your mind. Like a seldom used muscle our minds are weak. Our minds are sick and the Lord Our Doctor has deemed the temptations a life saving medication to save you from death.

Take every failure and use it as a learning experience we are like novice chefs working with fire for the first time, we are burned easily, however with time you will develop resistance to the flame and they will burn you less. This is true for all temptations they may be strong now but remember these things are necessary to strengthen your mind.

winnie the poohed up at 13 days. winnie the pooh my life. winnie the pooh winnie the pooh.

Over half a year now fighting but…

>>821430

What caused it?

>>820470

Two weeks is progress. Keep going man. It's going to be hard to undo a lifetime of gathering those images.

I suffer the same stuff. The dreams, the attack of mental images. I'm close to breaking at 2 weeks and 2 days. I've gone two months though and so I know we can both do better and that we will do better.

Still, congrats on two weeks. Even one week is hard in 2019 Western civilization.

>>821432

I saw an erotic picture browsing /lit/ board heh… I should avoid other places than this I know… pray for me brethren, this Sunday I'll go to confession to heal my wound but my priest will get sad for I failed again and again

>>820459

EPIC!!!!!!!

>>821436

>my priest will get sad

I had this same thought. It is dangerous and should never be entertained.

>>821435

It was only because of the consolations of the Lord I made it that far l. The Second he removes them I fail. The Lord is teaching me a lesson that only true grace and love of Jesus can sin be conquered. Repent offer up every action of the day as reparations.

>>821436

Literally the same happened to me. Do not blame the lewd pictures. Blame your weak and undisciplined mind. True Grace will allow you to see such images and feel no lust. True grace will be the armor that protects you from Satan’s arrows. The Lord is purifying your soul so that he may bestow these gifts upon you. Journey forward for faith in the Lord will be our food and drink in this desert. Love of the Lord will shade us from the brutal heat. Endure the heat of temptation and ignore the mirages of sin for the Oasis of the Lord is in front of you.

Pray, fast, repent, confess, and bathe yourself in the Sacraments of our Lord. He is the water that will extinguish the flames of lust.

God has not abandoned us. God has seen our failings before time and has set out a plan for our redemption and the redemption of others because of those failings.

>>821344

>Joseph/Ann

I already ask st. Raphael. as a part of my prayer time. Perhaps I shall try to include those too.

The woman seems to be in my life already. The issue is not that I would be tempted by fapping. It;s just that now all of sudden after months of calm living the desire is there. I may not even have the lustful thoughts but I literally check out every girl above average. Everywhere. Work. bus station. shop. park. street. everywhere. Sometimes it goes to fantasies unfortunately. I really like this girl and we go out, not dating yet. But the desire is burning me. If it was not for her I would probably even start getting numbers on the street.

You are right the devil is getting desperate. I know I need to confess badly….it will help now I can pray as long as I want to, listen to chants but when I get out there I am back to the gutter.I have to find time to get to confession or else I will go mad.

>>821476

Confess regularly even if you have no sins to confess, confess previous sins and you will be granted more grace and power to fight them. You should be going to confession at least every 2 weeks more if necessary like I am committing myself to. Let no one tell you you are confessing to much when your soul is so scared and wounded.

I've gone longer in the past, but this summer I haven't been able to go a week without failing until now. I finally managed to go a week without failing, though that was mainly because I worked seven days in a row. I did manage not to fail on my first day off though, making it eight days without failing.

But then I immediately screwed it up today. I really hoped the desire would just not show up after going without for a few days, but it did and that "streak" is over as soon as it began.

>>821585

Have you tried adding silent prayer to your prayer regiment? If not I strongly recommend you add at least 15 minutes of silence meditating on bible versus is the easiest to start.

Hey anons, I’m just struggling a lot. I always like I break the cycle then I fall back into it. Recently I felt I was doing good but I messed it up literally several minutes ago. Just say a simple prayer for me.

I've gone 17 days straight without masturbating now, this day was hard, my gaze lingered for a few seconds on lewd images while I was browsing a non-porn imageboard.

>>821826

That is always the hardest. I’ll tell you if spending at least 15 minutes in silence with God (Archbishop Fulton Sheen spent every day for an hour in front of the Blessed Sacrament in silence) helps me in a significant way. Though you should be doing it anyway as a part of your prayer life.

At this point I am halfway to praying as much as some monks do in a day just to fight impure thoughts, porn and masturbation.

I have had terrible dreams, horrible dreams that I wish I had never had. I get the dreams when I can sleep, but some nights I cannot because literally my whole body has decided to push a painful amount of blood into my groin and I'm so warm it feels like I'm on fire.

Brothers, how can I protect myself when I'm sleeping? I've been praying the Jesus prayer when I have the 'fever' nights, but I don't know how I can orientate myself in my dreams or even become aware that I am dreaming.

I'm scared brothers, because this habit has been with me for 11 years.

>>821911

More prayer. Pray so much you dream of praying.

Pray for me brothers, I have sinned yet again.

I was doing much better since the beginning of the year, made about 40 days during lent. But since a couple of months back its been getting harder, specially since I've started working as a Uber driver, been getting into a rut and losing good habits, like frequently going to church, reading, eating clean, smoking. Its making it all too hard to find balance.

So pray for me brothers, I still pray daily for guidance, trying to find the time to rest and go to mass, but instead ended getting back to this degenerate hell that is pornography.

>>820120

If you know what a good software blocker would be, I'm all ears. I've been looking all over and I just can't find one that is both free (I'm currently unemployed) and watertight. All I need is something that allows blacklisting/whitelisting, doesn't use easily edited things like DNS IP or host file settings, and is password protected. I keep coming up with nothing no matter how much I search. Closest thing I saw was called Kuripura, seemed like exactly what I needed, but of course when I download it, it doesn't run on my computer.

I'm tired of this. I just want to leave it behind me, seal off the internet so I can't even think about p*rn. It'll be easy after that.

>>822006

Here is my question. Have you tried anything different? Or do you just do the same thing and hope to just grind it out?

Is this a lifetime struggle, or will the desire eventually fade?

>>822294

Depends on the graces God wishes to give you. Some Saints fought these types of desires their whole life, some were immediately cured and some never had to deal with them at all.

Find joy in the struggle anon. Find joy in knowing every rejection of lust no matter how small is a victory. Find joy even when you fall knowing that Satan will have his hour but the Lord will have his day.

Embrace the spiritual war.

>>822094

I use one called "block site" for firefox, I had another similar one that went missing after some update, but basically its just a domain blocker.

The problem with these though, is that all you need to do is temporarily disable the add-on on a bad day and you can fall into the trap again.

On the other hand I use massive encrypted archive for my "collection" and the password and time to decrypt is enough for me to turn around.

Though I never had much of a habit of browsing tube sites, as opposed to hoarding this shit.

>>822114

I did try several things, here is the thing, my country is undergoing a massive economic crisis. I'm even graduated in a technical area, which I haven't been able to start working still.

Before that I tried to get back to bartending, but the degeneracy, work hours and bad income were the worst. I also tried my hand as jewelry artisan, but again haven't found a reliable income there.

To be honest, driving isn't at all that bad, I think it suits me well, the problem is the overworking and hours, considering as well I have to rent the car, so I need to make the hours for it to be worth it.

>>822481

Pray more I know this might come across as annoying but actually pray more. Develop a strong prayer life my friend and the rest will sort itself out.

I know how sinful this is, and I want to be saved, so why won't I stop? I keep failing, knowing full well how bad it is.

>>822602

Repentance is hard work, it shows that your faith is alive. Praying the rosary saved me from my shackles of sin. I know it can help you too.

>>822613

I can attest to praying the rosary. If you're tryna quit a sinful habit without praying the rosary… good luck

>>822602

The scars of sin can lead you to commit the same sins Also say an act of contrition every night as good practice. You need to get to the root of your sin as well just because you are committing a sin if lust does not mean Lust is causing you to sin. Work out the things in life that made you turn away from God in the first place. The healing process is not easy you need to understand you are rehabilitating your soul from injuries that nearly killed you.

Finally I’ll be honest if you are not praying for at least 1 hour and doing at least 15 minutes of silent meditation a day you are not trying hard enough. 1 Complete Rosary would accomplish this and is the easiest way since it requires little effort.

>>822481

Yeah, I don't even bother with add-ons, every single one is extremely easy to disable simply by starting the browser in safe mode.

>collection

Just erase it all, anon. I assume you pirated it all. And piracy is a crime. And committing crimes is a sin

I have failed today, pray for us all anons.

May the Lord bless you all and give you strength to overcome this.

>>822700

>God decides it is time to test his flock

>pulls away the Grace preventing us from Masturbating

>Devil has the whole thread fapping by midnight

It’s not the act that disgusts it’s the fact that I failed the test God gave me.

I failed today too, I will have to confess again after two weeks without nofap, I inmmediatly recited the Chaplet of Divine Mercy, I hope I can go to confession today, its the feast of Jacob the Apostol tomorrow, its the patron saint of my nation

I just wanted to say, thanks for this thread. I've taken to praying the rosary every morning now, and it's done a great deal to resolve the constant temptation.

My urge for men is basically gone, and the nautral urges are now controllable, combined with staying away from the more degenerate places I used to hang out in (certain discord servers and chanboards), and perhaps most importantly, going to mass regularly.

>"Some people are so foolish that they think they can go through life without the help of the Blessed Mother. Love the Madonna and pray the Rosary, for her Rosary is the weapon against the evils of the world today. All graces given by God pass through the Blessed Mother." —Saint Padre Pio

Good news brothers, sad panda is being permanently shut down!

>>822481

One head of a thousand headed hydra being chopped off won't have much of an impact, I'm afraid. But I will not turn down a small blessing. With any luck, this starts a trend.

>>823253

>pray Novena the Saint Joseph to protect me and keep keep me from masturbating

>Sadpanda being taken down a weak later

I should be happy but a part of me that was still connected to that sinful life aches just a bit

The scars of sin run deep.

Glory to God for you will protect your children.

>>823253

It pretty funny how so many anons are getting genuinely triggered by this.

>>823311

So what even is sadpanda? Just another porn site?

>>823272

Praise be to God

>>823321

Ground zero for all pornographic doujinshi being uploaded in the english speaking world. Almost every other site that hosts them is just a panda mirror and doesn't even allow new uploads.

>>823325

Today or maybe it was yesterday lol truly is a blessed day. All glory to God. That satanic filth has been put to rest pray that it doesn't resurface.

>>823365

>I think Satan is responsible for shutting down exhentai

Now talk about a hot take.

Pure legalistically speaking, hentai is less worse than actual porn because the latter involves real people and thus you kind of involve the actress into the sin and are actually lusting after another person.

Hentai are just drawings and no real person is thus involved in your sin, but then again you're still fapping and lusting after man-made objects could be argued as idolatry.

I'm afraid that it's not much better than actual porn in the end.

>>821093

>And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.

>

>Galatians 5;16-24

This is essentially what I am stating above. You must crucify your temptations by "knowing" them enough to reach the necessary equalibrium.

>>823367

>>823367

Hentai is actually worse then normal porn because it takes pornography and combines it with idolatry. Looking at a nude woman and have feelings for her is less disordered then looking at an image and having feelings for it.

Mortal sin is mortal sin either way. This is also why all porn and hentai can not be tolerated. Because it disorders the mind and body and disposes it to causing even more sin.

>>810594

Mark 4:21-23

And he said unto them, Is a candle brought to be put under a bushel, or under a bed? and not to be set on a candlestick?

For there is nothing hid, which shall not be manifested; neither was any thing kept secret, but that it should come abroad.

If any man have ears to hear, let him hear.

>>823409

That's not scriptural proof for already forgiven sins.

>>823411

People really like to use the word "idolatry" to mean things that it doesn't around here. If you're not worshipping it, it's not an eidolon, end of story.

That doesn't make hentai any less sinful, but I wish people would choose their terminology a bit carefully. God recognizes different sins, and those definitions exist for a reason.

>>820172

have you submitted to the Lord? Completely? I submitted to the Lord and I have control. I get tempted, but can regain control thanks to Christ,

>>823514

>My only fear is that the images that are engraved somewhere in the shadows of my mind will one day disappear.

Well, of course this is not what I meant to write at all. I changed the phrasing mid sentence. I meant to say that I fear the images will NOT disappear.

Is my foot fetish a disordered passion I need to overcome (I don't watch porn or masturbate) or is it something I can act on in marriage?

>>823650

From what I understand the general policy is it's good/fine to touch/kiss the spouse externally but you can't be putting things where they don't belong (i.e. benis in mouth, etc.)

Consider reading into chastity within marriage. I will say that it's not worth even thinking about this stuff unless you are married or about to be married. I read into it whilst single and my thoughts became less chaste because of the imagery that comes from learning. If you feel you are too sensitive to sexual topics then don't bother. Rest assured the church has answers and you can know it when the time is right. I was surprised by the amount of liberties that actually exist considering the stereotypes that christians are prudent.

>>823672

liberties? like what? What kind of liberties would the church allow?

>>823759

What the HELL kind of liberties would the Church allow?

>>823759

>>823764

Look it up yourself. Literally what is the point of posts like this? "Liberties" is my own term. It's obviously nothing immoral or disordered when it's coming from the church fathers.

https://www.catholicwarriors.com/pages/warfare_prayers.htm

Anyone having extreme trouble needs to pray these deliverance prayers ASAP. Pray the ones that apply to you and any others you think might be useful. Cast the demons out.

Also pray for me because they will be assaulting me heavily for the next week.

Eli, Eli, Lamma Sabacthani?

>>812574

The temptations and opportunities are much fewer, but when they come they're a hell of a lot stronger, trust me.

>>812471

Separate yourself with women who are willing to have sex with you out of wedlock. If you can't, make sure they know you intend to remain a virgin because you wish to marry a virgin. If she thinks that's weird she's a thot and should fair dinkum f**k right off.

109 days

>>815143

The happiness, peace, and contentment that results as we live in unity with the Lord is SUPPOSED to draw us to Him. Loving the gift of His presence is a good thing because it is loving Him. Granted, we are called to love the Lord our God even when things get tough, but that doesn't diminish the goodness of experiencing His joy

>>824383

>The happiness, peace, and contentment that results as we live in unity with the Lord is SUPPOSED to draw us to Him. Loving the gift of His presence is a good thing because it is loving Him

Thank you anon, its much appreciated. God bless you.

Romans 1:25-32

/Thread

My priest was saying, two weeks ago during a sermon, that demons want us to suffer in the same way that they do. They seek to destroy us since we're made in God's image. Something that's helped me is to see giving in to temptation as prolonging my suffering. I'm single, so if I keep this addiction up, I'll likely never escape because I'll be too caught up in porn to continue self improvement and keep good habits…

>>824451

>>824686

I am glad I am not the only one struggling to get past a week. Couldn’t make Confession today either so I guess I am sitting like a bum during Communion which I deserve honestly for so willingly offending God. I really need to get this in order.

>>824739

This might be useful to me thanks.

>7 days

>winnie the poohed Saturday night, day before church

>2 weeks in a row

Very good. I've been almost 1 year like this. I feel there's no escape

>>825101

Anon, having sex with someone who is not your wife is a grave sin. You should leave your "gf" before attempting any conversion.

>>825148

Who knows, maybe two souls will be saved at once. Maybe it's better for them to rely on each other and improve together. Maybe not. Anon should be the judge of that.

The most beautiful flowers often rise where there was manure. Maybe anon and his gf will become a happy, married and wholesome couple. Maybe not. Only God knows.

>>825172

>maybe if they keep sinning everything will be alright

You couldn't be further from the truth anon.

>>811903

When I started grad school my student loan check was lost. I had just enough to cover student housing. Bought a 10 pound bag of potatoes with the money my mother gave me for beer. I lost 30 pounds in 30 days. The potatoes ran out quickly. I should have bought rice.

You can survive a month. After a week its not so bad, as you're in starvation mode.

Whenever you start to think about sex, think about Polar Bears. My problem comes when I'm reading 4chan /pol/ and I run across pictures and don't "hide" the thread fast enough.

I'm thrilled to see this board back online. This seems like the only place Christians can discuss these particular addictions without being mocked, attacked, or otherwise rejected. I struggled terribly after the board went offline, and have developed a more rigorous prayer routine since then (which has helped significantly… so long as I stay faithful in praying), but the combination of prayer and community should help me tremendously now.

>>825239

>I struggled terribly after the board went offline, and have developed a more rigorous prayer routine since then

lol same. I made crazy chastity progress since last time we were online. What worked was prayer, not browsing image boards (even sfw ones), and being productive.

Also, something I discovered: just because you don't fap doesn't mean you're chaste. Before I understood this I would get over confident because of my success at nofap, which ultimately resulted in me failing again. When I understood I still had room for progress even while succeeding at nofap, I stopped failing. My point is you can never be chaste enough, so don't stop making efforts to improve.

What is the best pron blocker on PC?

Not K9, something else.

Tghe problem with porn blockers is that they don't deal with "hybrid" website such as reddit or 4chan/8kunts, because while they are not porn websites per say, they allow hardcore porn in their websites, so you can go to hardcore porn subreddit or hardcore porn boads and watch it wihout any problem even with a porn blocker on your computer.

So porn blockers are useless as soon as you know those hybrid SFW/NSFW websites.

>>825278

Personally, I'd be interesting in any browser extension that just blocks access to porn sites. Even just a "are you sure about this?" would be fine.

>nofap for three weeks now

>this occasionally happens a couple times a year, I just decide not to do it and can maintain that for a few weeks

>after a while it's mostly "well i've made it this far and it would be wasteful to throw all this away so i'll just keep going I guess"

>made sure to hide any questionable images that came up on /v/ and not open spoilered ones

>can feel the repressed sexual energy building up in me like a pressure cooker

>women I wouldn't look twice at beforehand now look totally fine

but here's the problem

>can't get a gf because I can't think of anywhere to look for ones that would be decent

>can't bring myself to just talk with random women I meet because I'm not with them long enough to start any meaningful conversation and it just feels awkward to ask someone like a cashier on a date

>anons say to find one at church but I go back to school in January so there's no point in that, tried long-distance before and it's just tiresome

>my church nearby school has exactly one unmarried woman and she was with a guy last time I saw, everyone else is just seniors

>asked out 6 girls at college last semester, none of it led anywhere

>tried martin luther's advice several times of praying for God to provide a wife to end sexual temptation, still nothing

help

>>825278

a porn blocker would never work for me since I'd just disable it, uninstall it, or find some other way around it. your brain will always find a way to get what it wants so you should focus on tackling the problem at the source. just don't think about anything erotic or try to kill your libido by imagining something that is completely non-erotic.

>>825438

Why are you going on /v/? I used to do this, then I realized I was too weak to not get tempted. Just stop going there completely, you don't need it in your life. Also, it sounds like you're looking for a gf, when you should be looking for a wife. That's not the same thing, are you ready to marry yet? You say you're going back to school, so will you afford having a wife and kids while you're studying?

>tried martin luther's advice several times of praying for God to provide a wife to end sexual temptation, still nothing

Yeah no wonder, that's a sh*t advice. The purpose of a wife is not to calm your sexual urges.

I know life without sex seems impossible at times, but trust me it is not. There are so many more things to life than seeking a sexual partner. I'm not saying you should stop worrying about it completely, but finding someone takes time, and life in the meantime should be enjoyable still. What do you think?

>>825452

>Why are you going on /v/?

Because I enjoy talking about vidya with fellow anons. Lewd/tempting images aren't unavoidably common and I have enough willpower to hide them or not look at them.

>Also, it sounds like you're looking for a gf, when you should be looking for a wife. That's not the same thing, are you ready to marry yet? You say you're going back to school, so will you afford having a wife and kids while you're studying?

I'm not planning to marry while I'm still in college, but it's probably the best opportunity I'm going to have to find women that are actually looking for a real marriage. My parents told me that she's the right girl if you can't see yourself living life without her and if she loves you more than you love her, so I'm not going to rush through things just to get a wife, that's stupid. If I do find the right one, I'd be fine with staying together until we've both finished school then marrying.

>The purpose of a wife is not to calm your sexual urges.

I'm aware of that, but even just having a gf would help somewhat, including a non-sexual relationship. If I do fall back into porn, the thought of doing something like whacking it to some random woman online would be so shameful I'd snap out of it (I know because it's happened before with my last gf). It's some way to let off steam without resorting to sin.

>What do you think?

if i wasn't full /tor/ now i'd images describing exactly what i think but i don't trust jimbo so here i am

I've been thinking about the last two times I got a gf, they were both completely unexpected and just happened with little of my own conscious doing. I keep thinking that once I stop looking I'll find the right one, but then the thought of never being approached by women makes me worried. I think back to Elliot Rodger and how he had everything (looks money, etc. which I know are vanity but keep reading) yet he was never even approached by a single woman. There are plenty of other factors in his downfall but that's still enough to scare me. I'm just worried I guess since I'm introverted and even though I'm working on my physical appearance and talking more with people that I don't get out enough to meet many new people. Am I just supposed to go to a coffee shop and just sit around by myself like an idiot?

it's all so tiresome

>>825455

>it's all so tiresome

Iktf anon.

>I have enough willpower to hide them or not look at them.

Then why do you fap?

>it's probably the best opportunity I'm going to have to find women

True, but don't put too much pressure on yourself, nor on the girls you hang out with. And DON'T FORNICATE.

>Elliot Rodger

Dude you obviously spent too much time on chans. Elliot is a freaking meme, he was autistic. He thought women owed him sex, but they don't. You won't end up like him because you're not after hook ups like he was.

>Am I just supposed to go to a coffee shop and just sit around by myself like an idiot?

Kek no, that's some PUA bullsh*t. The best way to meet good women is through groups of christian friends. Look up the chaplaincy if there is one, Bible study groups, etc. There are many thirsty women there, trust me. However, what you should be looking for at first is friends. Eventually you'll find a girl this way.

>>825464

>Then why do you fap?

I haven't done it in three weeks so I'm doing fine. Feels like the cravings come every other week or so and last a couple days, then they go into remission. I can deal with that.

>True, but don't put too much pressure on yourself, nor on the girls you hang out with.

Yeah that's one of my problems, I keep trying to move too fast and it blows up in my face. There was one girl earlier in the semester that I really liked and we went on a date together, but in my quest to not be the weird creepy virgin to her I went TurboChad way too fast and it didn't work (I didn't try to get in her pants, just other dumb mistakes). Such is life though.

>And DON'T FORNICATE

I'M TRYING

>Dude you obviously spent too much time on chans.

>chans

leave my site

I'm here forever, there's nowhere else for me to go because I hate forum culture and discuck is unbearable in degeneracy. I have a close group of friends and we meet up once a week usually so I'm fine there.

>Elliot is a freaking meme, he was autistic. He thought women owed him sex, but they don't. You won't end up like him because you're not after hook ups like he was.

I know, I shouldn't be freaking out over him too much, but it's the little things that chip away at your sanity.

>The best way to meet good women is through groups of christian friends. Look up the chaplaincy if there is one, Bible study groups, etc. There are many thirsty women there, trust me. However, what you should be looking for at first is friends. Eventually you'll find a girl this way.

Every Bible study I've been to has been either old women or women that are already married or have a boyfriend, and my local church is incredibly small and doesn't have too many people in my age range. I've tried being friends with girls in the past and it just doesn't work for me, we never have common interests and there's never anything between us so it just ends up becoming awkward.

>>825465

>my local church is incredibly small

Unironically move to a bigger town. It changed my life.

>>825468

I'm going to school right now so that's not really an option

I've not fapped since I came back to the church over a year ago.

I discovered that the Church doesn't even consider me married in the eyes of God, because my wife, who I married in a civil ceremony, has refused sex for over four years now. I can't even think about the sex I had with her when we were first married.

The bad thing is if I don't think about sex, then it gets worse, particularly after dreams and when I take my middle school daughter to school and see all the more mature middle school girls dressing immodestly.

I don't think just thoughts hurt anyone, but I need to get obedient to God.

>>825541

>I don't think just thoughts hurt anyone

It hurts you, and it hurts God.

About your wife: she's committing a grave sin by refusing to have sex with you. Is she religious? Is she having sex with someone else? Is there any reason why she's doing this ?I can't imagine going 4 years without having sex with your wife. It is very good that you came back to the Church, but maybe now you could plan to marry before God and to convert your family.

>>825656

No, she's a proud atheist. She cut off sex at the 10 year mark: that's when I owe her lifetime alimony if we divorce. Also, we have a 13 year old child so I'll be paying child support since men only get custody 10% of the time when the fight it (and 0% when they don't, cuz gender equality laws).

I'm never going to marry again. That's pretty much over. The argument that I'm hurting my wife is not an argument. The porn is virtual - no real people.

But you're right, it's disobedient to God so a moral sin. If I keep confessing it, Father's gonna throw me out.

>>825681

>marrying an atheist

why did you think this would go well

>>825713

I was baptized Catholic but was not raised in the church or even confirmed. I realize now that marriage outside of the church is a sin because God wants good things for us. I now see how sin leads to more sin and unhappiness.

I thought it would "go well" because I was ignorant and I married out of lust and pity. Again, my bad.

>>825722

Very informative, thanks

I've failed to resist today in those small daily temptations, so I can only hope that God allows it so I will trust and hope in Him in great troubles. I've also come to realize that these failures of mine come from my inability to focus and work consistently.

I'm so mad what I did yesterday. Before going to bed I watched a youtube video, and I looked up a chick in the vid on instagram, where I could see very lewd pics, which of course led to very unpure thoughts. I ended up fantasizing about it for a good 20 min in my bed, very close to masturbating, before finally falling asleep. Now I feel like shit. This can be so easily avoided, yet I keep going to these forsaken websites.

>>825900

Exodus 90 sounds right up your alley

I tried and failed a couple of months ago to stop masturbating. Currently I'm procrastinating on trying again, rationalizing that once I start RCIA in a few months, I'll definitely stop for good for sure. Given my actions, they sound like hollow words.

I've been getting off to drawings of various sorts basically since I hit puberty; I've probably done more damage to myself that I can even realize. My behavior has been one of a full-blown addict and it's had a very demonstrable negative impact on my life, given that it keeps me from pursing even my beloved video games.

Sins can generally be avoided by channeling one's desires into proper, good paths, and there are only two ways to deal with lust: chastity or marriage. Neither seem like easy fixes, and that's part of what keeps me mired. I crave affection and I want to have a family, but it feels like an impossibility most of the time given that I do not yet have a means to support a family, and I've never even attempted to woo a woman before. I suppose the only thing to do is to pray and endure temptation. It will be difficult, though. I wasn't even two weeks in and my sleep was disturbed every night by lewd images in my dreams, and on the day I fell the temptation was so bad I almost felt physically ill.

>>814736

you have no idea how jealous I am of you - you could be doing a lot worse, you could be like me - and fight despair semi-weekly…

https://youtu.be/f4Vhlp2krBk

remember the next life over this one my bros, and weigh in your mind the eternity of it a little heavier, against the temptations of this world!

>>815143

Cringe asf. Just go to confession if you’re that distraught.

>>815894

>the rosary in Latin

Why Latin?

>>815999

Ugh. This board is so cringey sometimes.

>>825902

>on the day I fell the temptation was so bad I almost felt physically ill

Sounds like a case of blue balls. Or maybe it’s terror over the consequences that you perceive in your mind. I mean, I don’t blame ya if you think that god will roast you like a turkey forever if you play with your wiener.

Alright lads I'm really gonna need some advice here.

Last night I had a dream where my sister was involved and I felt a strong desire to have sex with her. The dream was nothing special, but it went like a wet-dream usually goes. I remember toward the end of my dream seeing my sister come into my room. I was seeing her with over developed feminine traits, and was about to jump on her for sex. Just before anything happened, I felt disgust and a strong feeling of awkwardness. It was so strong that I woke up. I really felt like breaking nofap at this point. Does anyone else experienced this? I'd rather masturbate than have another dream of that sort. I'll pray the Lord that it doesn't happen again, but still. I can't control what happens in my dreams…

I realize this sounds like a bad larp but it isn't.

I did nofap with practically no urges for almost a year, but I relapsed a couple times recently. I think it's from my loss of hope in women, or people in general due to no interest in anything social. Some form of Nihilism? How do I cope with this?

>>825999

What is your actual relationship with your sister like? Do you share private thoughts and feelings with each other?

You may be looking for a more genuine, intimate relationship with her, but our modern pop-culture (deliberately) confuses sex and intimacy so your brain processes a desire for intimacy as a desire for sex when you sleep. Not every sex dream is actually indicative of lust, in fact, most are not, they are indicative of all of the stimulus you get during the day while living in our oversexed culture.

Try talking to her more, open up to her, talk to her about hopes and fears and goals and beliefs and experiences and dreams (not this particularndream obviously). Build a genuine adult brother-sister relationship and those kinds of dreams will evaporate.

Speaking from experience, anon.

>>826180

I thought I had quite a strong bond with my sister already. Now that I think about it though, I've been living abroad for years and don't actually see her that often. I'm relieved to hear I'm not the only one though. I'll try to follow your advice. I also prayed the Lord that it doesn't happen again. I've had other sexual dreams since but I don't care as long as there's no family involved, lol.

>>826007

>How do I cope with this?

Pray, and unironically chase women, until you find one worthy of your time.

>no interest in anything social

Can you elaborate? Don't you have friends that you care for and want to meet sometime?

>>826210

Wholesome post

>>825994

Have you ever read a single phrase from a saint or Church father?

>>813297

You... you realize that you don't /have/ to be sexually attracted to every pretty girl out there, right?

>university was doing some special talk about remaining pure in today's society filled with porn

>had some time to burn so figured it couldn't be too terrible, knew I wasn't going to learn anything new that I already got from this site

>panel is made up of a former porn star, guy who married said porn star, former woman porn addict, a psychologist, and some black guy (literally called him an influencer)

>barely did any talk about how porn is bad for you, 90% of it was just sharing personal stories and "jebus saves"

>there was a Q&A afterwards but any question I asked would've just been answered with a complete lie so I left

now I want to do my own event talking about how truly bad porn is for people (the effects on the brain, how it can lead to depravity/homosexuality/depression, and how others can actually quit it instead of just praying and expecting immediate results. I'm trying to expand my folder with porn infographs and other effects, does anyone have any? some general advice for organizing the event would be nice too.

>>825999

There are some teachings about lust that talk about the sort of thing that you are experiencing. Lust is a demon. If it is happening during dreaming, it is easier to recognize it as occurring on the spiritual plane, which is where the attack is occurring in the first place. The demon is wrestling over control over your thoughts, and somewhere along the line you wrestled free from it's grasp. It might be helpful to see what just happened as sort of spiritual progress, in the sense that it is so obviously demonic in origin. It's not christ in you that is pushing you off into those "demented" (← see, there is even a word about it) "fantasies". That is not /you/ – that is the demon-realm. Even your response smacks of you sort of agreeing with satan about the lie that it is YOU that is doing these things and having these thoughts. No, you have repented, you are facing toward God, and you are here on this forum, talking about how to better arm yourself for the next attack. So, okay then. Anyway, fighting the fight in the spiritual realm (i.e., in your dreams) is seriously a good sign of progress. Expect attacks, you just have to learn how to fight a bit differently when it's in your dreams.

Guys i need prayers my longest streak is about half a year but now cant get a month. Just realapsed and i feel like dirt. Please just a little prayer would help. God bless

>>826641

Reflect on why you fail. There is always a reason. Once you understand it it you avoid the situations that lead you to sin. It worked very well for me. Most of the time the temptation comes from browsing image boards (even the supposedly SFW ones).

"If your right eye causes you to stumble, pluck it

out and throw it away from you. For it is more

profitable for you that one of your members should

perish, than for your whole body to be cast into Gehenna."

You don't need to cut your d*ck off, but do what's necessary to stop sinning.

>>826601

I get that it's a demon, but I'm not having lucid dreams, so I can't really fight it per say. That being said, I sometimes remember having a lewd dream and struggling to not "give in", even if I'm not conscious, so I think I get the idea. Perhaps these dreams just stop when you get rid of the coomer brain.

>>826720

I prayed for you, Matthias. Specifically, I prayed that the Lord would comfort you and help you, just like your post comforted and helped me. You are not alone, and it encouraged me very greatly to read your post and to know that you exist and that you are fighting. Thank you for sharing some of your story. Our Father is amazingly great and very wise. You could not know, but your post has helped myself in my own spiritual journey. Even more, it caused me to write this post just now, and it caused me also to pray. Be strong and very courageous! Never give up! The Lord Lives!

>>826735

Peace be with you my brother, thank you for the kind words. I'll be praying for you as well. Together we will overcome!

“The fact that a man slips into accidental sins demonstrates the weakness of his nature; for to our profit God has permitted our nature to be susceptible to sinful occurrences. For He has not thought it good to make the soul superior to these occurrences before the second regeneration. It is profitable for the soul to be susceptible to accidental sins because this pricks the conscience. To persist in them is, however, audacious and shameful.”

+ St. Isaac the Syrian, “Homily 6: That to Our Profit God Has Permitted the Soul to Be Susceptible to Accidents, and on Ascetical Activities,” The Ascetical Homilies of St. Isaac the Syrian

“If you have sinned, acknowledge the sin and repent. God will forgive the sin and once again give you a new heart…and a new spirit (Ez. 36:26). There is no other way: Either do not sin, or repent.”

+ St. Theophan the Recluse, The Path to Salvation: A Manual of Spiritual Transformation

“Are you fighting against your passions? Fight, fight, and be good soldiers of Christ! Do not give in to evil and do not be carried away by the weakness of the flesh. During the time of temptation, flee to the Physician, crying out with the Holy Church, our mother: “O God, number me with the thief, the harlot, and the publican (i.e., with the repentant), and save me!”

>+ St. Anatoly of Optina, quoted from Living Without Hypocrisy: Spiritual Counsels of the Holy Elders of Optina

“Do not fall into despair because of stumbling. I do not mean that you should not feel contrition for them, but that you should not think them incurable. For it is more expedient to be bruised than dead. There is, indeed, a Healer for the man who has stumbled, even He Who on the Cross asked that mercy be shown to His crucifiers, He Who pardoned His murders while He hung on the Cross. ‘All manner of sin,’ He said, ‘and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men,’ that is, through repentance.”

+ St. Isaac the Syrian, The Ascetical Homilies of St. Isaac the Syrian, Homily 64, “On Prayer, Prostrations, Tears, Reading, Silence, and Hymnody”

Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.

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