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A WARNING TO ALL NEW USERS IF YOU ARE NOT A HIKIKOMORI I WILL BAN YOU!! People who are going to work or school are not Hikikomori There are many people on here who can not leave their home Please choose your topic with consideration IF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN AT HOME INSIDE YOUR ROOM FOR AT LEAST 6 MONTHS OR MORE THEN DON'T POST HERE!

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c9c039 No.6229 [Open thread]

This question is mainly for hikikomori who still live with their parents or another family member.

Have your parents or the other family member you live with ever tried to force you outside?

If yes what happened? and how did the situation end?

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dc9df0 No.7730

my mom used to come into my room and shove me and get into my face yelling at me to get out and i usually just stood there ignoring her until she pushed my door open and i slammed the door back on her and she landed on her ass and looked scared

i also started throwing things at her, she is much nicer to me now than ever before.

she also locked me out before by letting my cat out and then telling me to go get him and locking the door behind me so i broke in through the basement and hid in a closet while she drove around for half an hour looking for me because i disappeared lol

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326061 No.7766

I try not to cause problems, clean a room once in a while at night, don't make loud noises, etc. just so there's the idea of "there's no problem, just an introvert". I don't understand the hikkis who break walls and scream, obviously you'll be thrown outside if you do that.

Just keep your head down and prepare if the worst happens.

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07d67b No.7793

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>>6229

Theres an ATM literally at the corner of my street, no more than 2 minutes walking there, but its right infront the park, were all the cattle always comes together

>Anon can you please go to the ATM for some money?

>Why?

>Because I need it go

>I dont want to

>Ok then give 200$, oh right you dont have a job, then you can do at least this much cant you?

I hate when my sister treats me like that.

(yes I had to go for the money)

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3ada67 No.7819

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Kek, my father going to made away from my smell of shit room, he had a 80 years and fougth in vietnam war, he said it

>For you all ancestors, we are a PIJAOS AND SPANIARDS you should be proud about IT, in my life NEVER HAD A FUCKING VAGUE, all my family are BRAVE MACHOS, YOU PICE OF LANGARUTO TOOK YOUR SHITTING LIFE WELL AND NO MORE FOR A FUCKING BASTARD JOKE, ILL DID A ONLY THREE MINUTES REMAINING FOR YOU WAKE UP TO THE BED TAKE A SHOWER AND YOU GO TO LEARN MATHEMATICS OR OTHER THING VALUABLE FOR YOUR LIFE, IF YOU DONT TRY IT I SUICIDE AS A FORM FOR ME PUNISH ME FOR A FUCKING RETARD FAGGOT FOR I DONT USE CONDOM

And i wake up learn english and return a 8chan, and now 8kun kek, when the coronavirus close up, i going to a college.

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3ada67 No.7820

>>7819

or join to legion etrangere france

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3a948b No.7312 [Open thread]

What was your life like before you became a hikikomori /hikki/?

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efeee8 No.7666

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>>7665

>I think I probably would have addiction problems and its worse with alcohol than with weed.

I have no experience at all with weed, never even seen it in person, but I doubt that it's very different. Actually, I think alcohol is a lot more dangerous, just because alcoholism has destroyed so many lives, while weed is relatively harmless. Every drug will become a problem if you don't use it correctly, though, so if you can't control yourself, it's definitely risky and maybe you should avoid it. I don't have that problem, because I just do everything efficiently. I know how much I can handle, from experience, and I drink a lot of water and wait a long time before going to sleep, so I never had any issues with alcohol. Well, except a couple of times that weren't because of the alcohol, it's just that the cheap beer/wine that I drank was so disgusting that it made me sick, even though it was a below average amount for me.

I tend to drink some really atrocious shit, just because it's what I have, and it's dirt cheap, but very occasionally my body just decided to reject it, because it's that awful. If you mixed my beer with piss, I can't imagine that it would get that much worse. I would rather drink a small amount of something stronger, like whiskey, or vodka, or rum, or brandy, but I don't have an infinite, free supply of that, because my family doesn't drink any of that, at least not more than once a year. I can't say that whiskey tastes good exactly. It's kinda like a really strong espresso with no sugar in a way, because you have to be kind of a masochist to like it, and I happen to like both. It's great if you like to drink distilled death, like me. I also like how it warms me up inside. It's strong, and it's not disgusting, so it's way better than the shit that I drink.

Don't drink, though. I do recommend drinking, but only if you learn how to drink properly. If there is a risk, I think you shouldn't take it. If you have a weed problem, you should deal with that first. Getting addicted to weed is possible, and it can really fuck you up. Very unpleasant, from what I know. You just have to think rationally about drugs. If you use something too often, you Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

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e582d0 No.7794

>>7312

Background, small body 1.60, girly looks since I was a child, molested twice by a family member and a classmate, bullyed all life until HC.

19 years old about to graduate as an accountant in one more year in therapy and meds actually feeling good, despite being an outcast at college I dont get bullyed thanks to the work amount and not being ugly, managed to get a job in a small building as an auxilary acc, my boss is a nice guy in his 30s Im making money and theres this qt3.14 18 yo whos also working there as a phone operator I end up being good friends wiith her, my life couldnt be any better, FF i graduate, Became a full time accountant qt is now in college and planing to quit and she asks me to go for a drink after work, sure thing, were drinking shes carring the conversation all the time (I suck at talking) she starts telling me how shes been really happy this past year, and how she didnt even want to work here in the first place, but having someone thats dumb and awkward like me around, but tries so hard made it so much easier and funny. Im not really angry nor surprised shes usually like that, kinda insulting me but also complementing me at the same time, then she drops the bomb, "hey anon I really like you, what about you? do you want me to stay here with you?" all of this while she was leaning against me.

I honestly dont know what to do or say, no one had ever done something like this to me before, I can only say sorry Im not interested in a relationship right now, stuttering the whole time…

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e582d0 No.7795

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>>7794

Then follows around 6 minutes of full silence, shes still leaning against me and im hot, not in a sexual way literally H O T im sweating profusely im red and I can tell im emanating warm, she gets up and calls the waiter im still sitting there in silence, the waiter comes and I snap out of it and also get up pull out my wallet and gave her a big bill, she just walks out while the waiter is counting the change, no words just walks away, the waiter knows somethings up and starts to count as hard and fast as she can, I receive the change and run to the entrance looking for her I can see her shes already walking away and its at least 1 minute of running away from me, shes just walking and i freeze, I dont know if i should go or not I dont know what to do, Im sweating, Im afraid, and somehow i feel humiliated, on the way back from home I had a panic attack, the shadows were big and moving around me, I felt like someone was chasing me and had to look behind me constantly, and scream at one point, Ended up calling my boss to tell him I was sick and he gave me the week free since we didnt have that much work, all the while I felt like an asshole, and a piece of shit, thinking why I didnt accept her, maybe Im gay, probably that was my excuse I always thought i was weird for not feeling attraction towards females, when i came back at the office she was gone, turns out she had put her 2 weeks notice the week before going out with me, I felt relief and sadness, keep working thinking I was probably gay for another year until I move to a bigger firm, my therapist told me that it was ok for me to try new things and that maybe I was gay, and that its normal for people with my history to turn to the same sex for comfort, so I started thinking im gay even bought a dildo and was able to cum without hands and for 3 years My life was waking up working for about 9 hours sometimes more for tax filing season, and coming back home to stick something in my ass just to go to bed afterward, too tired to do anything, too tired to even use my 3000$ PC, or to play one of the many games I bought just to never play them, didnt need money i had a lot and 2 credit cards one without limit, even bought my current apartment, but there was no point in it, I didnt "like" my job I mean I was good at it really good, but it was just another task and a Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

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5c31d8 No.7797

>>7795

That's brutal. The main problem is that you don't seem to know what you actually want to get out of life. Take the time to figure that out. It's not uncommon to be completely lost and confused when you're young. Progress should happen naturally over time as you do things and have more time to think, and to know yourself. In your current state, you can't possibly handle a relationship, so even though the way that you handled that situation was disastrous, it wasn't the worst possible outcome. You probably won't be ready for that anyway until your late 20s or early 30s, so that should not even be an option until you are stable and developed enough, and comfortable with who you are.

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7581a5 No.7818

Worst, i was a very stupid person that im now, the faggot scream time go pass and once again a felt as i wanted someday in spent 3 years feel like one more time in my fucking life .

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61717d No.7637 [Open thread]

I am surprised we haven't had a thread about this topic yet and didn't have one earlier when the board was first created. What are your guys thoughts on the people on other imageboards and social media who self identify as hikikomori or proudly call themselves hikikomori despite the fact that they don't fit the Japanese definition leave their homes to go to school and a job and have social interactions outside the home willingly on a regular bases? Personally i think these people are just attention seeking and are not actually suffering with an actual mental disorder caused by social factors which is what hikikomori actually is there is a huge difference between someone who is an actual hikikomori and someone who watched Welcome To The NHk or Hikikomori Loveless and thought it was a cool lifestyle choice.

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61717d No.7785

>>7780

>Basically, discussing words is inherently pretty pointless, but as far as the board owner is concerned, this is important because of the rules. I say just go with the most useful definition, which would be a definition that excludes the people that he doesn't want to come here.

It matters because otherwise you have a bunch of LARPers and edgy meme kids and autisit showing up here calling themselves hikikomori when in reality they're not the definition is not watered-down and has not been completely bastardized it is just very complex and hard to explain when we are talking about the medical side of it also i rarely talk in threads anymore but keep in mind i made this board only for people who are and have been real hikis by the Japanese definition to keep certain people out not some unofficial definition where someone puts their own spin on it

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61717d No.7786

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>>7783

>This doesn't exclude everyone that has a psychological problem, so it's not too specific. I guess it's a fine definition. Specific enough to be useful, but not too specific for its own good, to the point that it only applies to one or two people.

The main cause of hikikomori is usually extreme social pressure and stress and being unable to maintain a public face while out in public in Japanese society honne (本音) and tatemae (建前) which in Japanese society are your inside face and outside mask most people when talking about the subject of hikikomori ignore this part of the topic and the mental health side of it as many hikikomori also have mental health problems that contribute to the isolation in the original definition created by Tamaki Saito he is mostly only excluding people with schizophrenia and basically what he means is that if you are in a state of isolation because another psychological problem put you there and that is the cause and there are no social factors involved then its not hikikomori also in his book he says he chose 6 months instead of 3 months because many people go on 3 month short vacations to take a break or some time off and then they go right back to work or school so he doesn't really consider 3 months to be long enough for a state of withdrawal.

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d6c4e7 No.7800

>and thought it was a cool lifestyle choice.

Don`t think thats the case most of the time, a lot of people would be more reclused if they could afford it but they are equally full of issues even though they somehow muscle through to at least have a job or study. Being a full hikkki is not the only one be all end all required condition to be considered mentally ill, a lot of people self isolate and project their alienation in their own ways. The guy who goes to the convencience store every night and does odd jobs online to pay for it might not be technically a hikki but doesn`t actually mean he is that well adjusted in society. see Someone like Henry Dagger, not technically a hikki, he had a job but was still quite the case.

The usual couch surfer dudeweed mooching on his/her relatives money jfor periods of time just for being lazy is a fag though, you see a lot of those on some boards and reddit, its obviously kids who grew up normiecore and think now they are beyond the pale for taking a semester off. Some of them have the material realities of hikkis , as in they never go out but are just coasting along until their finish their vidya backlog, i think most normies would be faux hikkis if they could afford it, thats why wellfare breaks fucking society, they would still spend a lot of time social signaling and going to dudeweed with other faux hikkis. At the end of the day work is not something enjoyable for most people, even people who like being occupied and have projects would rather do them on their own free time for their own sake and no to make mr goldberg more money while getting whipped in an office jail. Formal education is also a piece of shit for most of the population, even the smartest more well adjusted people get sick eventually of a cattle like approach to learning that you have to do just to get some faggot piece of toilet paper that unlocks Mr Shekelebers hiring dialog three .

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f5f037 No.7804

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>>7637

Call it retarded, but it's my take:

They look for attention or "titles" to put under their name as if being themselves is not enough.

They feel like misery is great, because they have never experienced it in their lifes, or they simply downplay others' problems to the point where they are in the same level as someone that hasn't left their house in years.

Scum of the earth, in my opinion. If you call yourself X, I immidiately go into "This fucker is lying for pity/attention" mode. It's a world of self-importance and since many can't do anything note worthy with their lives they simple resort to self-titleing themselves even if that means pretendending or adopting mannerism which can lead to problems in their normal, non-important lives.

That is not to say hikkis or neets or any other loser with defining characteristics are important, but what is important is the communities they create for people like themselves to connect with each other - from IRC to forums - they have a community. A community which is aimed at themselves and is considered by the outside view as something "niche" or "dark and depressing" and that's also a reason as to why normal people, with average lives tend to fake it to try to fit in. Because somehow in their head they get a feeling of superiority, as if they just joined a secret club with unknown knowledge, and usually brag about it to their friends or online groups in discord or reddit without fully understanding why communities like those exist in the first place

I don't feel like this is ever going to end, as people get more and more interested in "niche" things such as anime or the "urr am depress :(" actitude they'll be more and more people that dig deeper into these topics eventually leading to things such as imageboards.

This whole "self-title" thing is not uncommon outside of these groups, people do it with everything. From mental illnesses to political groups. Everything is a title to these people and nothing more than that.

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682478 No.7815

Its all fake hikki if you ARENT a JAPANESE. Why? The japanese is hermetic society, meritocratic and VERY COMPETITIVE, THEM have reasons for this SOCIAL phenomenon, but the all FAGGOTS the west country i belive that NOT.

>UR UR ALL HIKKIKOMRY OF WORLD UNITES

ALL go away from JAPAN and concidered HIKKI are truly faggots that pretend be a JAPANESE.

I SAID, BECOSE I WAS A OTHER FAGGOT THAT THINK WENT HIKKI.

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73e1b4 No.7810 [Open thread]

I've always had anxiety growing up. When I got a job, is when I realized it wasn't normal like other people and was severe enough for me to need to self medicate. So I did that for a looong time. in 2012-13, I lost my aunt and then my mother a few months later. It's what finally prompted me to seek medical help. I was fine till about 2016 when I realized that I was set up. All of a sudden, strangers were following me, saying things that no one else would know. I learned after looking for answers that I what people called a Targeted Individual.

I've since tried working, but the harassment from people is on every aspect of my life. At first you think you just have bad luck, but when you realize what is happening they make it more obvious to you. I've since developed agoraphobia from the ptsd. A year after 2016, I was suddenly hit with artificial voices, shocks to my body, artificial rape, dream manipulation. Literally everything enough to make someone go insane. I mention this because I just wanted to let some people here realize that schizophrenia may not even exist. There is a program gov contractors are putting people in to make their lives a living hell. To all of you living this life, I am sorry for what you've suffered through, this shit is quite literally hell on earth.

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f6ca75 No.7689 [Open thread]

I wish I was a psychopath. Then I would feel no emotion. I wouldn't feel it when people look at me with contempt. I wouldn't feel it when everyone around me has a girlfriend and I'm still single. I wouldn't feel it when they look down on me as if I were a child that needed to be sheltered. I wouldn't feel it when my phone rings. I wouldn't feel it when it hits me and I realize how many years have passed since I've done anything of substance. I wouldn't care that I have no money. I wouldn't physically cringe at things I've done in the past 3x a day.

If I were a psychopath, I could probably get back into life and work my way up. I could be happy, but at the price of what? Chemical reactions? I think I'd like the idea of being happy, over actually feeling happy. Besides, it's much better than the almost constant numbing pain I get now. But this is just wishful thinking. In real life, I feel too much. I feel far too much.

I've tried to kill my emotions. Drug dependence ends up hurting you more in the long run. I wonder if there's a way to train your mind to feel no emotions. My mind is my own worst enemy.

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f6ca75 No.7717

>>7704

I always think I'm not gonna be nervous, but then my voice comes out shaky and I can't act the way I want. It's futile at this point. What, I'm going to suddenly change in my mid 20's? Nah, life is over for me. I've made far too big a mess to clean up

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56813b No.7719

>>7717

If former junkies and ex-cons can carve out a life there is always hope for us. As a fellow hikki I know I'm know I'm not one to talk but I have an optimistic bone in my body

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bdb111 No.7720

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>>7717

The very fact that you believe that way fuels your inability. What you believe about yourself has a huge impact on what you can do.

Nothing is over, start small and build from there.

Im trying and it's hard but Iv seen progress in myself and at least I only have anxiety rather than depression and anxiety

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388d40 No.7724

I enjoy having emotions, even though they fuck me up pretty bad. Not sure that I would get rid of them if I could. It sure would be nice to get rid of the ones that I don't like having, though I can enjoy even emotions that are mostly negative sometimes, it just depends on the situation. If I couldn't feel sad, that would ruin a lot of scenes in a lot of things, and I can't say that I don't enjoy being angry sometimes, to the point that I just start laughing, because I'm so ridiculously enraged that it just becomes hilarious somehow. Fear is the only thing that I absolutely never enjoy. Even pain can be nice like the pain of being bullied by your waifu, though that's not very common, and it's not really an emotion if it's physical pain.

Drinking tends to get rid of everything that I don't like, to the point that I hurt myself sometimes because I feel too invincible for my own good, and move around a lot, but I don't feel pain that easily, so I only feel it later. It feels like it actually makes me considerably stronger, so I do things that my body can't handle that well. It's unfortunate that I can't do it all the time. It would be nice if the human body had an organ that just constantly made and released alcohol. And maybe more livers. I bet that would solve a lot of problems in the world. Even if it created new problems, I think everyone is just about sick of the same old problems, so it would be pretty refreshing, at least.

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64b357 No.7791

>>7724

I understand what you mean about drinking but I haven't drank in at least a year now because it just makes me so nauseous and dizzy that it's not even worth it. I hate that feeling of feeling like you have to throw up, or being dizzy. I finally gave up trying to get into alcohol because I just hate that feeling so much.

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40d042 No.5260 [Open thread][Last50 Posts]

I am wonder how many hikkis on this board are 30+

The media attention on us hikikomori has escalated dramatically in the last 20 or so years, but a lot of the people who talk about it or research say that there have been hikkis since the 1980s.

I have seen one elder hikki, who is supposedly over 60 years old. I am wondering if there are more hikkis here over 30. The statistics say that a lot of hikkis are older, like 30-45. So what is it like for you?. Do you get used to it after awhile? I always imagine that a hikikomori is someone who uses the internet constantly. I can't imagine what it was like to be a hikki before internet existed.

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ec3ddc No.5990

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>>5989

>humans are assholes by nature

Exactly, so getting rid of them is the only real, guaranteed, permanent solution, so you don't have to care. Or just having a very small population of weird possibly autistic geniuses that don't even need a government in the first place, but I doubt that will ever happen unless reality suddenly turns into the Universal Century timeline of Mobile Suit Gundam and the Newtypes wipe out all of the old humans. But that's literally reality becoming anime, so it's more likely that it will continue to be bloated. Conveniently, humanity happens to be capable of destroying itself, so the problem could end up solving itself. Overall, all a moral individual has to do in order to avoid making things worse is not reproduce. You are living in a world that is objectively shitty, so don't bring more lives into it for no reason. Other than that, just ride the tiger. It's not like you are contractually obligated to care about your species' survival, and they have clearly doomed themselves to begin with. Not having to care is very convenient, actually. It can keep you from going insane from watching everything not go your way and everything that you support eventually end up turning against you. In politics, you can't succeed without popularity, and popularity can only be achieved if your ideas are stupid to begin with, or just the lies that people want to hear. Basically I just want to be allowed to live in my own world. Just the freedom to be a hermit.

>The best cult leaders domesticate people to make the people's lives better

The problem with doing anything that way is that every institution is eventually degraded as well, and back to misery we go. The fact that something appeals to the masses is generally a pretty bad sign to begin with. I definitely don't want anything to do with politics anymore. I just want to be able to stay away from humanity's problems, and ideally save people from suffering, specifically people that are different and I think can't be blamed for this, the people being attacked. Burning the hive would be productive, but it's not something that I can personally do, so it doesn't matter. Personal freedom and privacy, that's all I care about, pPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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5b073a No.5991

>>5990

>I definitely don't want anything to do with politics anymore. I just want to be able to stay away from humanity's problems.

I gave up on politics too long ago I remember four years ago I was still interested in reading about humanity's problems thinking that the more I read about them the more intellectual I will be. Actually politics is one of the most normalfag activity and only normalfags can be highly interested in it. because it deals with their problems. It has nothing to do with our problems and how we live our life.

>and ideally save people from suffering, specifically people that are different and I think can't be blamed for this

I had this idea in my mind for quite a while but eventually I gave up on it too, I realized that I can't save anyone I can hardly save myself and live in pace. I don't want anyone to disturb my lifestyle so I gave up on humanity and on breeding.

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ec3ddc No.5993

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>>5991

I am actually not that pessimistic when it comes to that. Well, I know I have helped people in the past, and that a few times people even responded saying that something I said gave them an epiphany that allowed them to suddenly understand something that they didn't understand before, that very few people actually do, and even fewer even attempt to give an explanation for, and only some even succeed in doing that well, so it's not completely wasted effort if you can even call it that, since I just help people by doing what I want to do anyway, which is being insane and testing uncommon ideas and ways of looking at reality.

Being like that is kinda inherently helpful since it allows people to hear new things, and answers for questions that everyone else seems to refuse to answer. I'm the guy that tells you that the egg did indeed come before the chicken, because chickens weren't the first animals to lay eggs, which is obvious as hell, but the adults in my family always insisted (and still do) that answering this question is impossible, even after hearing my answer, and that is a good example of how limited most people actually are, and why you can't expect them to say anything that requires even a tiny amount of thought, and making any argument that isn't completely generic and given to them by someone else. Just being willing to say something different is inherently productive since someone out there may be willing to take that idea into consideration, or to use it somehow, but will never have the opportunity to do so if you don't share it. I suppose even looking stupid in a completely new way is productive, since someone else can learn something new from that, and not repeat your mistake.

I can't make someone stop feeling miserable, but I can tell them how they could do it, and how I do it, and maybe things that I say will eventually lead to some change. If something that I say positively influences someone, then that's a good thing even if I am never informed that it did indeed help. I just assume that occasionally it does, and I also believe that they are similar to me in one way or another or it wouldn't have worked in the first place. It's always safe to assume that something did indeePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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cb88a5 No.7743

32 yo, soon to be 33. Been a hikki on and off for the past 10 years (it began when I was trying my hand at uni, I couldn't stomach to ask a professor to be my advisor. quit soon after without a degree) packed my books, went to my parents's house and spent 2 years without leaving the house. Then they moved a couple of times to smaller and smaller quarters each time. All my belongings excluding a mattress literally fit inside a small hardshell suitcase, which is where I keep my clothing. For electronics I have a Nintendo DSi, and old smartphone my mom gave it to me when she got a new one, a 2005 Dell laptop with Linux Ubuntu (it wouldn't run Windows anymore, too much of a toaster for that), maybe 8 or 9 pieces of clothing, all included, from jacket to socks and the mentioned mattress which I guess I can consider to be my property, maybe. The suitcase is not actually mine but since I use it to keep my stuff for the last many years, I guess that's kind of mine too.

You won't find many older people on ibs, it's a generational thing I guess, many people my age have no idea IBs exist. I have 2 brothers close to my age and they don't even know 4chan exist, which must be strange for younger people but that's how it is.

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1cdd28 No.7752

>>7743

In my point of view knowledge of imageboards was very rare among westerners. Most internet dwelling westerners knew about 4chan but not the others. I was in university from 2005-2009 and all the nerds knew about it but the normies didn't. Even then was viewed as something for the edgelord kids who were into extreme nerd culture like weird Japanese cartoons. It was also associated with extremist internet filth like /b/.

I've been a hikki since graduating so 2019 is my 10th year. I didn't know about imageboards other than 4chan until a few years ago. The phpBB and Invision based forums were my main sites until 2011-2013. When those were dying off, I went to reddit for while. Then I discovered what hikikomori is and found my people.

I'm sure many of us older hikki must have heard of other imageboards by now though. Even mainstream audiences have heard of 4chan thanks to this recent incel bullshit making the news. Maybe some of us are deterred from visiting due to the negative press.

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872f9f No.7701 [Open thread]

i've been a hikki so long that my mind feels so hollow.

been hikki since after highschool in 2011, still a hikki in 2019, became "normal" for about 9 months, 2 years ago, basically just went out to walmart and alcohol stores to buy shit, few restaurants, couldn't handle being around people, from simple things as that, went straight back to my room.

i'm a shell of my former self from this extreme isolation. Can't even communicate with people, unless its on a pc. completely fucked my self. the personality that was formed from this, makes it impossible to ever have a long term job.

after about 4 years of watching anime and tv shows, it becomes boring, and you lose almost all interest in all the things you've once loved to do. in this stage of being a hikki, you can't help but reflect on this shithole we call a life, making you 100x more depressed then what you were already.

i never thought i'd be a hikki for this long. feels bad

what year are you guys at?

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20fd96 No.7735

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>>7734

(cont…)

Anyway, ever since then, I've gotten much more depressed & miserable. My mind also feels a lot more fractured & unhinged. I lost a ton of weight last year when I finally began eating healthy food and exercising on a regular basis, but, outside of the obvious improvement to my physical health, I can't say it's really made much of a difference to my mental health. My mind feels like a shattered piece of glass and emotionally I get intense waves of loneliness at times and am constantly wrapped in morbid self-loathing towards myself & the world at large. Everything sucks, I hate myself, and I want to die. Boiled down, that's literally all I think about, or have thought about, for many years now. Every agonizingly slow hour, of every agonizingly slow day. And, worse yet, it's never going to get any better. The pain of my degeneration will only increase and I'm doomed to continually wake up to it, for whatever of my life remains. Eventually, after I've suffered/waited long enough, it will be over. Death. The only consolation I can cling to. It doesn't stop my head from hurting most days, but it's nice to keep in mind, nonetheless. In the end, I don't sleep because I'm tired, but because I can't contemplate the thought of doing anything else and want to escape from myself. I don't play video games for entertainment, but in a desperate, pitifully weak attempt to, once again, escape from my own restlessness. Which itself, is becoming ever more infrequent, as I instead just nap, stare at the wall, or shuffle around listlessly. I can't seem to do anything anymore. I'm just stuck in a stinking bog of my own thoughts & feelings unable to move. Trapped sitting in stationary idleness, with no respite or relief. At this point, I don't want to change or do anything, but idleness still torments me. The ceaseless boredom & anhedonia. I'm like one of those skeletons from PotC. Everything turns to ash in my mouth. I can certainly see myself becoming schizophrenic once my parents die, assuming it is I live that long. My grip on reality feels tenuous enough as it is and there are times where I almost think I can hear voices, or imagine noises where there are none. My sense of continuity is also quite distorPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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6242cb No.7742

cont-san ganbare!!

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5fc970 No.7745

>>7701

This is my third year. I was a NEET for a few years before that, but I still tried to go back to college once or twice after dropping out, but just dropped out again. Briefly tried trade school as well, but even that wasn't for me, because it wasn't quite what I wanted, and that's where my life basically stopped. Not sure that I mentioned that before, because it didn't last that long, but it's way better than college. After that, I just kinda gave up, because they wouldn't let me get a job that I want, and I can't go anywhere or do anything unless I tell them. Basically a prisoner. Just decided to not do anything anymore until they die, but it's taking way too long. I have a bunch of hobbies and interests, so I do get tired of anime occasionally, but I get back into it later. It's kinda cyclical, but I'm almost always into something. Getting tired of this, though. I feel like I waste way more time than I ever did, because I have too much free time.

Having so much time to figure things out made me feel more confident than before. I didn't feel like trying at all until more recently, but I feel kinda good now, though it may not last very long. At this point, the main reason why I'm a hikikomori is that my family is shit and always gets in the way. They are still against anything that I want to do, like getting a job that I can handle, which is what I wanted to do to begin with, but if it doesn't involve school, then I can't do it because it's not good enough for them. It's just middle class arrogance, really. I just want a comfy job, even if it's for minimal wage, but that will bring shame to the family, or something. They were really against that three years ago. They were even against trade school, because anything that doesn't require college education is beneath them, in their minds, even though they are just retarded boomers that never actually did anything in their lives. I have a hard time dealing with the world outside, and I have no assistance at all, just people that get in the way. All I want is to work late night security in a relatively safe place with no people around (like an office, or a factory, or whatever, a few different options), and use that time to develop my skills, and same money as well so I can move out of this shithole. It'Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

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fffad5 No.7747

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>>7745

>You have very little that you like, so loss hurts you quite a lot.

Hmm, yes & no. Like I said, when our cat died I barely felt anything at all, except confusion, and later spergy anger, at how inert I was. If anything, that whole experience taught me how little I seem to care about losing what little I have, despite always fearing the opposite and the pain that'd bring. These days, the only things I fear losing are my parents. Mostly my mother and, to a lesser extent, my father. Not too long ago it was actually a bit unclear, and still is to some extent, whether my father had/has throat cancer. I remember my mother knocked on my door in a panic one night and, at first, I assumed it was because the test results had come back with a terminal diagnosis for him. In the end, it turned out to be something else, but, even still, before I opened the door, that thought that my father may literally be dying & gone forever soon, hit me like a ton of bricks. I was quite startled at how much it was spiking my anxiety levels & making me panic, despite the fact that I barely even interact with him these days, nor hold him in much concern 99.9% of the time. Either way, I really seem to have underestimated how well I'd handle that kind of situation. If, and when, my mother is in that situation, I'll probably end up going mad with grief/anxiety/dread before even the first day is out. A sneak preview of the anguish that's to come, I guess.

>Even the things that I own and like, I feel like losing sometimes, just so I can be free. I feel suffocated by my own stuff.

I can heavily relate to that, actually. Both in a basic materiel sense & a more figurative one. Was thinking of buying a VR headset with my NEETbux just the other day, but what would be the point? Just one more glorified paper weight that I'll never use, becoming yet another empty possession hanging off my neck that I chastise myself for buying. Hell, I have a whole entertainment system in here, (tower speakers, with an ST60 mounted on the wall & everything), and I haven't even turned it on or used it in well over a year, Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

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6242cb No.7749

>>7747

>I'm sorta tripfagging here, aren't I? Sorry about that.

Not really and I don't care. Now that the board slowed down we probably are back at the same few 10+ years recluses so it's easy to tell who's posting by the content of the post.

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a9800b No.7737 [Open thread]

I had ECT (electric compulsive therapy) a year ago, and when I was constantly having to go under anesthesia twice a week during treatment, I began to develop a fear of experiencing death or unconsciousness later on. I have panic attacks during night thinking about it and its unnerving and torturous.

The thing that scares me about being unconscious forever or dying itself is the thought of losing your memories and experiences you had in life. It sounds gay because everyone here has had their own traumatizing experiences as well as depression throughout their life, and I'm no different- but I'm scared of losing the experiences I had with the 'good' parts of life, even if they're really small. I treasure these things more than anything in the fucking world; like anime. I don't have a waifu because I can't commit to one character, but I never ever want to forget my favorite characters, or forget my favorite anime series. I don't know how to properly express my love of my favorite series into words properly, I hope people who also love anime can understand what I'm saying (also sorry if I sounded like a faggot).

Also I know that anime is this corporate money-making bullshit and maybe I'm being too attached to this- I don't really know with the garbage I see around the world.

And everyone dies alone- only once in a blue moon can some married couple properly die together. I gave up on making friends decades ago or try to interact with society. And to be honest, I want to die after my parents die because being a wrinkling vegetable in bed all day, or being in a nursing home where everything abuses you is frightening and I would rather die while I can still lift a gun up my head.

It doesn't help that I've never been religious in my life either, and its hard for me to be optimistic in general.

Do other hikkis feel the same about this? I know suicide comes up often here and some seem to be comfortable with dying- but as living creatures that try to avoid death, I doubt that there's no strong sense of fear that everyone experiences seconds before they die.

Also are there ways to reduce this anxiety? Sorry for begging, but do anons know any books/resources to help deal with this?

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e7e477 No.7739

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>>7738

In my case however, picking up from my last post, I literally couldn't give a rat's ass about losing "who I am", or my "experiences". Sorry that I can't really relate to you there, but I see that sort of stuff as beyond useless & not worth preserving, especially when compared against seizing the potentially overwhelming bliss of nonexistence. The part you touched on about being afraid to fall unconscious is something that strikes a chord with me, though. Every so often, I get that with simply trying to sleep, with me panicking at the threshold beyond consciousness & unconsciousness to the point where I just lay there awake with palpable anxiety until however long passes that I somehow manage to drift off once enough fatigue has accumulated for me to finally do so. Besides that, I also have a lot of death anxiety for my parents. The thought that there will come a day where they'll be gone forever and I'll never be able to see them again really, really gets to me. The fact that they aren't getting any younger makes me dread the inevitably fatal swing of the ax that much more.

Reducing death anxiety, though? Well, unfortunately, there's not much I can offer there. Personally, I just try not to think about it. It's certainly a blessing that the mind itself has evolved to do just that. Sheldon Solomon's "Terror Management Theory" & Ernest Becker's "Denial of Death", both explore this sort of thing. I haven't read their books, since I don't have the wherewithal to read books, but that's just what I've heard. Sheldon has some good videos on YouTube, though. At this point, as unlikely as it is, I just pray I die suddenly & unexpectedly somehow. Couldn't imagine getting a terminal diagnosis and knowing my imminent death is on the horizon. Copious amounts of mind-numbing drugs or amnesiacs would be the only answer.

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e7e477 No.7740

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Nice scene from "Jacob's Ladder" about death & dying. It doesn't have much to say that would truly help, but I've always enjoyed it.

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a9800b No.7744

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>>7740

It was hard to listen and acknowledge what he is saying at first. Mostly because through out my life, I trusted what adults told me or would say on TV etc. before I became an adult myself. I really believed in the "just push through it because it gets better" meme, but eventually that optimistic hope after the troubling depression never happened, and there was no sense of karma in the world. The 'bullies' in school that were manipulative and cruel towards both kids and adults grew up with working decent careers and got their own spouse and children. The world feels upside down- overall I feel like I can only rely on pessimism for the truth. When the time comes, I'll probably resist at first and struggle, but hopefully I can let it all go- but that's easier said than done.

>>7738

>thought of being conscious, or somehow remaining aware of myself throughout eternity

I agree on this; I cried about pissing myself if I died/let go in this thread, but at the same time I don't want to be in an eternal hell with no way out. I think what I want is to just be in some temporary afterlife that I can enjoy myself in before I let go into a new one.

The tranhumanism, putting your brain into computers, that's being brought up recently is frightening. Its nothing new but I can never feel numb whenever I hear an update or progress report on their technology. I don't want anything put inside my brain at all.

It's a dumb greedy contradiction I have where I want the best thing instead of dealing with what I have.

>I also have a lot of death anxiety for my parents. The thought that there will come a day where they'll be gone forever and I'll never be able to see them again really, really gets to me. The fact that they aren't getting any younger makes me dread the inevitably fatal swing of the ax that much more.

I feel you. Everytime I hear them talk about retirement, it fucks with me. I'm doing my best to give them the best times befoPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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6bf7ab No.7746

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>>7737

Immediately changing your mind about death is impossible, but it can happen over time if you change how you think about it. You were dead before you were born. It's not going to be anything new. Avoiding death is perfectly rational, because you can do things and have experiences while you are alive, and being alive is not a very common thing. Fearing it on the other hand isn't very good, especially since life can legitimately become undesirable, but that's what nature wants us to do, so this fear is difficult to defeat, even though like most fears, it is absolutely useless, just something that gets in the way. That fear completely goes away when I think about dying for something. Personally, I mostly fear dying for nothing, unfulfilled (and of course, in severe pain for a very long time, unable to kill myself). As long as I end up having a good enough life, then it will hopefully be easier to accept. That would be a lot better than the average death. Most people live terrible or mediocre lives and die completely unhappy with how their lives went, and full of regret, not even knowing what went wrong because they never figured things out (or only did so when it was already too late). Other people, on the other hand, I don't have to worry about, because I don't really like most people that I know. Even people that I kinda like are people that I never even see. Cool old people die, and that sucks, but at least people that you hate die as well, so you can at least feel good about that.

>only once in a blue moon can some married couple properly die together

Not interested in that. If I have a relationship later on, I kinda want to be considerably older if I have a choice, so I would be the first one to die. If I still live longer and I don't appreciate that, suicide is always an option. This is what I want because youth is more important for women to have than it is for men, and it's kinda good to have someone that can be young for you while you are starting to lose your own youth. And I will be wiser, more knowledgeable, and generally more interesting (and also able to take care of myself and make some money, hopefully, if I can escape my prison), so it would be mutually beneficial. Of course, you have to be cool for tPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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1356b9 No.7748

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>>7744

>I really believed in the "just push through it because it gets better" meme, but eventually that optimistic hope after the troubling depression never happened, and there was no sense of karma in the world.

Yeah. I don't really have much to say because, honestly, what else can be said or done, except to silently rue & mourn what a tragic, maddeningly lopsided absurdity it all is? Still, I'm reminded of an amazingly insightful post I saw recently, by one guy making s series of reply chains to himself. It's a long read, but it's worth it. Very hard hitting summation of what it's like to truly be estranged from this rotten world, whether that's as a hikikomori or as some otherwise bungled & botched individual, as Nietzsche once put it. The meaningless platitudes, the hopelessness, the feigned concern, the injustice, the sneering contempt, the overwhelming self-loathing, grief & sadness for a doomed existence that was over before it even began. It's all there and it cuts right to the bone. There was never any way out and all one can do is grit their teeth & endure, with no consolation or reason to do so, but for the fear of death chaining us to the proverbial radiator of this planet, making us all suffer as long as possible. Another lost & lonely victim thrown like a ragdoll to the howling whims of genetic determinism & the tyrannical demiurgic rule of DNA, the universe & life in general.

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cab51e No.3847 [Open thread][Last50 Posts]

Question for current Hikikomoris who are also Neets (Hikkineets). How many of you are on SSI?? and how much do you receive each month?? i receive about $100 a month.

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28f614 No.7105

>>7100

Funny story and thanks for sharing. I'm a bit worried about the Chrono Trigger part because it's a detail that could give your identity away and put your autism bux in peril.

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6c8ca6 No.7583

>>7100

Ct? That's fucking hilarious, you shoulda picked a game from your generation. Maybe I'll do the same on my ssi assessment your in the USA right

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1f2360 No.7731

can someone please help me, how do you actually get in the process of getting a diagnosis, i forced myself to go outside and to a psych but all he did was give me a prescription for anxiety medication because i seemed anxious and sent me away and now i feel horrible and stupid because it was a complete waste of money and time

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8f55ad No.7736

>>7731

I just told the therapist the symptoms, what was going on with me, because I went there specifically to get diagnosed, so that my family would leave me alone. Maybe it will help, but there is a lot of luck involved. Depends on the person that you talk to.

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197bb6 No.7741

>>7736

thanks anon

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b3b3a1 No.652 [Open thread][Last50 Posts]

do any other hikkis wish you were girls? i do. i wouldn't be a hikki then.

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2baf22 No.7383

>>2174

I'd like to add

[Sapolsky on neurological trauma](https://youtu.be/XvMQQsyPirM)

Due to Estrogen, women seem to be a lot better at tolerating the sort of psychological kettling that you see in groups of female friends where they will dis each-other and aggro on anything taboo relentlessly. In contrast to men, physical aggression seems to be a simpler and more complete solution to this sort of environment. If a man is having a choice of a prolonged conflict that does not challenge their body (physical harm) or take a physical risk and avoid psychological harm, the risk of physical harm will be taken every time.

When you look at sex differences more generally coupled with the hikikomori problem, you observe a complete abuse of male sex differences. The psychological needs of males are completely neglected systemically over the course of childhood and adolescences. In Hikikomori Adolescence Without End it is stated, Hikikomori are more likely to come from middle class, wealthier, educated homes. This trend started in the Boom Economy in Japan and the trend has carried since. This is relevant because you are seeing older parents this model. Parents instinctively have to over-natalize (excessively care for and shelter) because they don't have the option to procreate again and therefore will see the child as made of glass and want to rap it in bubble-rap. Metaphor aside, Hikikomori can be frighteningly summarised as men not being able to develop their

Peterson on bravery (I don't mean to moralise, but these too clips build on each-other very nicely. They're not very long, if you watch then both in order I would recommend that.):

[1] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHkKVMCgXLk

[2] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u427uO_4mw0

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bddb82 No.7622

Eh, being/become a girl isn't some guarantee to getting a typical girl personality type. Unless you're absolutely sure all your issues are mainly because of your looks, confirmed by whether you'd also do well in life if only you looked like a chad or whatever, then sure perhaps.

But if it's your personality, trauma, PD's that cause your issues.. You'll just be a female hiki instead then. You won't gain social skills or a personality that takes human interaction any better or is more confident.

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d817f1 No.7623

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>>7622

I think about this kind of thing a lot, because I want to understand the most confusing thing of all, which is everything. I think magically turning into a woman would make some issues even worse. If you want to avoid attention, it's much easier to do so if you're a man. And women have their own unique reasons to be paranoid and insecure. Female bodies also come with their own issues. Grass is greener on the other side because people tend to expose the advantages of being in their own situations, but hide the real downsides, or completely misunderstand them. Women are also glorified way too much, though this doesn't really help them in the end. Their lives will only become more miserable, thanks to this. No one is a winner here. The biggest real advantage is that abnormal women have a lot more value in a way, because they are so uncommon, and scarcity always makes something seem more valuable. Women tend to be average. Men tend to be more experimental, so you get a wider range of results. In general, there is a lot more demand for weird women, just because normalfag men are so thirsty for female attention that they have pretty much no standards beyond appearance (and even those standards are very artificial, in my mind), so it doesn't make a difference, and weird men are considerably more common, and a lot of them want compatible women, so the demand is higher than the supply. A lot of traits that are considered negative by society (because they are associated with men), are actually things that some men want in women, even if they don't realize that, and those traits become valuable just because they are not as common. Also women are benefited financially, since anything that they do is more likely to be successful just because men are so thirsty, that is the biggest real advantage.

Honestly, being human is just shit in general, so maybe there isn't that much of a difference. Trannies are definitely in a worse position than either of them, though. That is just a huge mistake, a result of masculinity being demonized (and femininity in men being demonized as well, leading to certain men wanting to actually become women, so they can actually accept those traits), and men being unable to find what they want externally, and resorting to trying to becomePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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c9a36d No.7629

>>7623

Well luckily I don't think as many people are buying into the delusion as shitholes like twitter would like you to believe. The mass censorship blanket that get's thrown over any critical discussion of tranny shit pretty much says it all.

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63fdbb No.7727

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I stopped thinking about transitioning when I realized it only affects how you present yourself to other people and why put yourself through all this shit if you don't wanna be around people in the first place. I'm incapable of picturing myself as male when I daydream though and I have an elaborate idealized female self that i've been cultivating since I was about 14. It's not a sex thing or anything, it's just that female gender roles feel a lot more natural and comfortable for me to slip into. Being male is like a self-actualization dead-end because I know right from the start that I can never become the person I truly want to be

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54c9ed No.2813 [Open thread][Last50 Posts]

If you suddenly had all the skills and personal development needed to function normally, would you reintegrate into society?

Is society worth living in?

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92c9a4 No.4019

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>>3955

>I have held two jobs in my life, both dealing heavily with customer service. There were some nice people, but the combination of shitty people, shitty work, and little pay, was more than enough to make me hate society more than I already did.

I know how you feel bud the cycle of going from point A. to point B. from point B. and back to point A. everyday until you ether retire or die honestly really gets tiring after awhile it slowly kills you to the point where you could eventually have a mental breakdown and that is why we have withdrawn from society it's because most of us hikkis are simply just not compatible with social and societal norms tbh.

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58adf9 No.4042

>>2813

If I were given a face like Brad Pitt, a body like The Rock, and billion dollars in my bank account then yes, I would rejoin society and live my life to the fullest despite having poor social skills. The main reason I'm a hikki is that I lack self confident and ashamed of my loser self. I rather live a recluse life than showing the world my pathetic being.

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92c9a4 No.4044

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>>4042

>I rather live a recluse life than showing the world my pathetic being.

I know that feel bro and it's like even if i try to get back on my feet i will still be treated like shit and i know that because that's happened to me before and that's why at this point i basically have just given up completely.

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3c798e No.7680

File: e04d2aa28a052f5⋯.jpg (34.84 KB,500x375,4:3,hlhb0nb1.jpg)

>>4044

>I know that feel bro and it's like even if i try to get back on my feet i will still be treated like shit and i know that because that's happened to me before and that's why at this point i basically have just given up completely.

All there is, is life and nobody owns it. So all we can actually do it to live out our time the best that we can. :^)

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ad0646 No.7726

>>2813

no and no, what i see every day is completely lacking anything resembling a legitimate 'society'…

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bb3b85 No.7695 [Open thread]

Has any hikki here attempted to make one of these tulpa things? I'm wondering what your thoughts are on these. Can you really make a sentient being inside of your mind?

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8ecaac No.7708

>>7703

What does she look like, and also a bit curious about this tulpa's persona

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61c334 No.7715

>>7695

I've been an occult practitioner for many years now, and I can tell you that Tulpas tend to be a bad idea.

At the end of the day, they share a mind with you, and they tend to be intelligent enough to know you can unmake them just as you've made them. If you fuck up (and you will, eventually, because they know what makes you relax your guard because you share a mind) they will take over.

Keep in mind the practice comes from Buddhist monasteries, where the people practicing it are constantly surrounded by a multitude of people that are watching out for strange behavior and can help in a pinch.

>Can you really make a sentient being inside of your mind?

Certainly. After all, everything your senses recognize is created inside your mind.

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e76681 No.7716

There's absolutely no way we could create

another consciousness inside of our minds. If the brightest individuals on earth have yet to concieve of a way to observe, model or recreate the inner workings of human consciousness I sincerely doubt us layabout neets are any closer. This is why mental health is such a highly contentious field, because the vast majority of "disorders" or "illnesses" can only be pathologised through behavior. Our brains might as well be regarded as a black box when spectulating about this shit

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0a95ae No.7721

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>>7716

>everything can be replicated and reproduced via the scientific method. Even though that same method was developed by fallible humans who fuck up constantly and have fucked up to such a degree that we live in a world such as the one we have.

>>7695

Dont do it. It's a very bad idea.

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4e9d42 No.7725

It doesn't sound completely ridiculous to me. If going insane is possible, then going insane on purpose and controlling the result might be possible as well, to some extent. Not something that I would personally try. Too risky, and I don't think it would be all that fulfilling. And I'm way too stubborn to just abandon reality like that. Still, I wouldn't say that it's necessarily an irrational choice. Reality is bad enough that it makes complete sense to try to run away from it sometimes.

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04929f No.343 [Open thread][Last50 Posts]

What video games do you play /hikki/??.

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e56fca No.7699

Moemon emerald and Deus Ex mankind divided have been my jamz this week

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1fa710 No.7700

I guess I don't have the problem of communicating to people over a game like some of you guys seem to. Sure, some experiences talking to others devolve into awkwardness at times but for the most part I don't think I'm bad at it. So multiplayer games work great for me. I've been playing Destiny 2, CS:GO, Insurgency: Sandstorm, Halo MCC, and Monster Hunter World and Freedom Unite and have made a decent amount of online gaming buddies.

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1fa710 No.7705

>>7507

yeah i love my vita. although i mostly play psp games on mine with adrenaline.

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ae9d86 No.7718

>>343

I play Heroes of might and magic, doom, quake, visual novels, strategy games, mmorpg, and so on

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918be4 No.7723

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Played Asteroids Deluxe for 2 hours after being drunk for 6 hours. Now I'm going to continue to play Morrowind again, because I'm a procrastination master, so I do everything except what I should be doing, even though I have no actual obligations. Today was a good day anyway, I guess.

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daf4c2 No.3913 [Open thread][Last50 Posts]

Since the majority of us on here are currently living as hikikomoris and most hikkis spend most of their time online i thought we could have a thread where we share any interesting links we have come across recently.

ITT Share any interesting links you have came across recently books movies music whatever Rules 3. and 8. still apply as well as all 8chan global rules.

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f9df8a No.7658

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f9df8a No.7659

>>7658

Some music I found recently that I really enjoyed

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ec000f No.7684

Not really an interesting link, but the Bromite browser for Android is fast as hell and has built-in Adblock. It's noticeably faster than Firefox + Adblock plugin. Free and open source.

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d7a30d No.7688

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

New documentary.

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f5042e No.7722

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f45b2d No.784 [Open thread][Last50 Posts]

Any anon here figure out a way to make some money without going out to your house? I tried looking for a job but I'm only qualified for a service industry which required a lot of interacting with peoples (I did worked for 3 months but I quit because I couldn't get along with my co-workers and having trouble talking to customer). I'm not asking much in term of payment, just enough to pay the bills and food. I live with my parents, I dont have any student debt or car's loan, I'm happy if I could make $500 a month just from the comfort of my bedroom.

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937e3f No.7694

>>7692

I deliberately stick to very popular subjects/fandoms so that I'm able to get away with my mediocre skills. We could discuss this in more detail if you want (discord or wherever), because I feel I should spare everyone the pain of reading about the intricacies of some of these cringey fandoms. Either way, interacting with people who want commissions was scary at first I'll admit, but after a little while I realized that they all basically act either very nice/polite, or like fucking spazoid autists that can barely form a coherent sentence, so I just look at them as such.

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f52a2d No.7710

>>7694

I have many, but I want to know this important question in this hikki understanding environment- is it necessary to be "social" on twitter like interacting and befriending other artists in order to get commissions? The end goal is to bring people to your commissions page, whoever that maybe. I don't want to befriend or talk to someone on the internet regularly; its true that I don't trust people (especially failed normalfags on twitter/youtube who are all sociopaths, pursuing their goals to live in Hollywood for fame, like a bucket of degenerate crabs) but its also mentally straining for me to talk to someone regularly. Even posting to craft the best message here that I can without over-explaining, or being too vague etc. eats up a lot of time (and a bit of anxiety) so I rarely post and enjoy being anonymous.

tl;dr having decent online presence or an identity to maintain tires me enough but I can't handle having to 'make connections' or talk to people regularly.

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937e3f No.7712

>>7710

Okay, so the most I ever do is 'follow' other nsfw artists, and OCCASIONALLY comment positive things like "the shading here is so well done etc etc". The reason I do this is to establish a presence among the community. I never have actual conversations with anyone, and the closest I ever come to conversations are when people ask me for commissions, but those are usually very brief and require only 'yes/no' answers.

Hope that helps. I very much understand wanting to avoid conversation at all costs, but if you've got any questions feel free to ask.

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f52a2d No.7713

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>>7712

Okay, then that sounds reassuring. I feel a bit optimistic now, I hope I can make something, even if its just pennies. Thank you for taking the time to help another hikki anon; I hope you continue doing well on your commissions.

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c3adb1 No.7714

>>7713

I totally understand wanting to remain anonymous, but would it be possible for me to see some of your work? I'm curious as to what type of content another hikki produces.

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