man, i dont even know you, but i can already jedi mind that all of that bullshit is an illusion mate. whatever cookies the network has you eating, clean those fuckers out. realize:
your subconscious is blocking out many of the regular hallucinations that you are experiencing already. you have the power to manipulate alternate parallel dimensions in timespace with your mind. act like it. kill the demons. speak with the angels. hold your sword firmly all along.