To begin with, having someone else dictate your life is a bad idea, so take what I say with a grain of salt.
However, my friend, the world is a big place, and you could find yourself a big part of it, or simply a part in the shadows, it is your choice to make, since I hope we all have free will on this earth. It is important in life to have an ideal or goal in mind, even if it is minuscule, such as seeing some place or location, or having a family or other such things.
No matter what, do not give into despair, if things look grim, always remember, each step is another step forward, and that's progress, fight tooth and nail to the next step, until your free of your affliction or cause for despair.
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