>>31496
For all I know my entire vision could just be a psychological projection, I know the whole Descartes argument, episodes of the twilight zone etc, I was really just trying to describe the feeling.
Not all the phenomenon started at the same timebut I was being visited at night, the first time was a shadow-man, he only came once and he stared me down then started feeling up my friend who was staying over in the bunk below, never saw him again and ever since then it has always been an enitity which I call "Night Hag" I have seen others talk of her on /x/ before, classic sleep paralysis vision, followed me around ever since then, probably was about 10 years old. Clocks, eletrical equipment I have noticed since as long as I can remember, feeling an indefinite presence when I see dubs and trips on a clock etc. The other stuff I mentioned has also happened before but never so quickly in succession to each other, started when I was around 13 and continued now for over 10 years on and off. I have had many intense spiritual experiences and I wouldn't say I have practiced the occult but I have done a lot of research into it, my living room is kinda piled from the floor with books on it all because I have been trying to find out what the fuck is going on for so long. I have had my body taken over by an entity known as Assarax, he used to communicate with me in my head and would try to tell me what to do, to be disciplined, when he took over my body I was the voice inside the head, he is a really aggressive spirit and I decided to banish him after he started trying to take control over my body. I was saved from the depths of madness when I found my faith in Christ, negative phenomenon virtually came to a full halt, but I am still doing something that is enabling some things to still latch on to me. I have lived in about 12 different homes I was homeless and sleeping around a lot, it followed me everywhere.
I remember one time, must of been only about 14, and I was going through some really edgy phase and I practiced satanic meditation, or at least thats what it was told to me as. I meditated visualising my spirit descending down a ladder as inhaled for six seconds, hold for six, then let out for six. I kept doing this and feeling a kind of rush up my spine until I heard a massive smash. Jumping awake the mirror which had hung up on the wall infront of me was shattered, I had no way of explaining it other than what I had just done and I never practiced that shit again.
A lot of things have happened to me, an almost unbelievable amount of paranormal experiences, though not all of them are malevolent like I said. When I get down to it it seems there is just something terribly off with my existence itself and not just these singular instances. I am trying to confront this, I know I am not supposed to be ignoring these things in general, I know I must have some gift or curse, but I need to find how I can manage this.