>pretend to party with ponies again
>fap to ponies again
>watch campfire stories episode
>ponies have degenerated in character
>imagine they've actually been partying in the same vein as I have i.e. alcohol and "orgy"
>heroes of Equestria are better than they are
>"I look up to them because they help remind me to be my awesome self/they're just like me!"
>feel like killing myself again