Hello /nofap/, this is my first post here,
Since the beginning of the year, I'm currently stuck in a loop addiction for Porn.
Before 2019, I was fapping every week end, so just one time in a week.
But things started to change, now everytime I wake up and when I don't have to go to the University in the morning, (Which is 4, or sometimes 5 days in the week) I have sexual toughts, and I don't get out of my bed, and I'm trying to masturbate.
All of this began when I've bought a second phone, more recent, and that I've put some porn videos on it, so I could jerk off on it.
Since then, I've put the videos on a external hard-drive, and left it in an unreachable spot, to forget all of this.
But the urge is still there, and when I wake up with sexual toughts and I masturbate in my bed before getting up, I can't work properly during the whole day, and I can't concentrate and focus. (This phenoma doesn't occur when I have to go to the university in the morning, since I have to wake up immediately at 5:45 AM, and It's was present before 2019, but it occured only during the weekend, and even if I fapped, it wasn't until ejaculation for sometimes.)
Any advice on how I could break this loop, /nofap/ ?
Also, I know that the concept of watching porn is bad, but is fapping really necessary to distance myself with ?
I remember one time 2 years ago when I didn't masturbate during an whole month, and another half of the previous month, my ball were so full, that I've had a wet dream, I've considered this as a failure, and went again on my normal routine. (One relapse each week-end)