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i hate myself Anonymous 02/22/19 (Fri) 07:33:58 No.14995

Frens :( tonight I went on a date with a woman and we had sex; however, I did not have a full orgasm, I only emitted I'd say around one shot and some precum. I'm currently on nofap day six and I feel terrible amounts of shame for having sex. It was unprotected as well. My mind is filled with doubts about pregnancy, STDs, and breaking God's laws on sex. I feel like a horrible person. I took a hot shower and washed well. I have prayed twice for forgiveness after I cleaned my body. I feel so fucking worthless. I did nofap to be pure but the urge drove me to have sex with a stranger and I don't feel fucking pure at all. I'm hoping God will forgive me and I'm asking you all to pray for me. :(( I'm fucking sad, anons

I also feel like my streak is broken since I had emissions. I know that it technically doesn't count but still :(

Am I morally despicable? How can I make this right? Should I inflict some punishment on myself or keep praying? :((

help me frens :((

no fap no root 02/22/19 (Fri) 13:12:49 No.14997

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that's pretty degen bro, your story is a good warning tale to us all .

Anonymous 02/22/19 (Fri) 14:15:13 No.14999

>>14997

yes, i would say that i should've waited to meet a girl that i really like and start a loving relationship with her instead of having this hookup.

i feel like this ends my streak. :( not technically, but still. i wonder if i should start it over or just note this event

Anonymous 02/22/19 (Fri) 18:40:28 No.15005

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Learn from your mistake and consider celibacy. Many geniuses, like Newton, Nietzche, Pythagoras, and spiritual leaders, like Buddha and Jesus, have abstained from all forms of sex because our semen is our life energy. The one and only purpose of sex should be to create a child. Don't give it away to sluts who want to rob you of your GOD-given intellect and power.

Anonymous 02/22/19 (Fri) 21:21:33 No.15006

>>15005

I think that you're right. I should consider complete celibacy instead of just nofap alone. I also felt tired this morning, my meditation session was less calm and focused and on the whole I feel down. I am somewhat proud of the resolve that I showed last night though because I didn't allow myself to have a complete orgasm and I only emitted one shot (w/o orgasm), so I didn't lose as much seed as I would have if I had had a complete orgasm. I think I pretty much got rid of whatever excess was starting to build up there. So the only white pill for me was that I had enough self-control not to have a complete orgasm.

Anonymous 02/26/19 (Tue) 19:07:53 No.15043

How did you find/get someone to have sex with you?

Anonymous 02/28/19 (Thu) 04:14:17 No.15062

Stop being such as autist, you didn't do anything wrong.