>>13727
NP lad, just don't be afraid of doing some self analysis, even if you don't like what you find. If a certain activity/behavior triggers you, even if you really like the activity/behavior or feel like it's necessary, it may be wise to stop doing the trigger activity.
Nofap isn't easy, it isn't fun, it's a struggle, every waking hour of your life will be made harder by nofap. It's a good test of your willpower, because there is no stronger desire than those of a sexual nature, especially if you've made a habit of giving in. I wish you luck, and hope you find something in nofap after a month. But it may not do anything for you, and that's fine, I'm just glad you're giving it a try.