its leddit but he nailed it
The reson is FEAR.
You fear that if u delete it, it will not be there when u need it. Because in ur heart u know that u will fail, and u will Need it when u fail. Is'nt it?
Format HDD's and sell those, because if u'll keep those after formatting u'll eventually recover that shit.
Its like keeping a box of corpses which will pollute surroundings no matter how creatively u collected and how novel ur collection is.
Each video is like owning a piece of the porn stars soul. Seeing her at her most intimate and having that captured on my HDD forever makes me happy
Those intimate moments that she didnt had with u. Its downright shameful and feels like being a peeping tom, and u know what I am saying even if u try to ignore it.
I was born in a country where porn is illegal. In the event I find myself living under a totalitarian goverment that criminalizes porn, life would become unlivable so I better stockpile
Its made illegal since it is wrong. The problem here is 'life would become unlivable' this is the problem. The dependency like drugs. Fix it and then u wont need it!
Access to really good internet at work and home coupled with too much free time.
U could have learnt a lot online, could have completed some degree online. Could have created some project to help the world,but u DECIDED to spend those resources on porn. Atleast realise this now and making something good out of what uve got. Many people dont have such resources and still struggle to do something good
What I am saying to u is what I am saying to myself as I have been in ur shoes and it was really difficult and still is , for me to stay away from this demonic curse. But I keep on trying an so should you.