>spank it to e621 daily
>extremely shy/insecure about sex IRL to the point where I cringe at "I <3 hentai" type joke shirts
>don't have a fursona
>not involved in any fur community whatsoever
>I like animals but don't unreasonably romanticize them and barely have access to any irl
>mentally ill fiend from the depths of 4chan
>actually sort of old in terms of age
Is there still a place for me to get involved in-depth in /fur/? Kinda autistic question I suppose, but I've been admittedly looking for a gf that I could have a mutual understanding with, and I've come across an online furry community in my country, expecting full-blown neckbeard cheeto chin autism overload but instead it's full of energetic, idealistic teens and a lot of shy qt grills that I think I'd have a lot in common... many of them underageb& but also a plenty of 20+s. I understand it's a shallow reason to want to be a furry, and thus I'd like to know whether there's a reason for me to stick around the fandom otherwise.
Personal blog bit: Back in my teens I've contemplated making a fursona, FA profile and everything, but I decided against it because a) insecurity, b) I had bullies treat me badly for much more mundane shit, c) my brother is a closet-fur and I was ashamed to present it around him because he knew about all of the yiff implications of the fandom, d) internet told me it's bad, e) I associated it with otherkin-like escapism and tbh I kinda grew out of that. I'm wondering what could've been if I actually went through with it. Membership on the aforementioned site has "what kind of character(species) are you, tell us more about it" as a mandatory field and it caught me by surprise since it's so long since I've been toying with ideas like those.