I feel guilty like if I wasted so many years. I started lifting again at 24 and I'm finally seeing steady gains after years of failure.
I lifted on and off since I was 18. Struggled with starting at 19, to the point where I quit the gym multiple times because I began using 24/7, so I could never go to the gym steadily for more than a month.
I finally manage to stay clean and I see all these years behind me and I feel like I wasted so much potential. At my peak I was 190 pounds at 5'7, a football linebacker and could easily deadlift 2.5x my BW for 5 reps.
Is this how fat people feel?