I'm sure we al here hate our lives. I sure do. I'm stuck living in a basement of my friends apartment building and the lease is going to end soon. Luckily I found another place right across the street or have the option of keeping this place and having friend move in with me when my roommates leave here.
>better then most anons situations
I just can't seem to care about myself or what happens to me tho I only live to care about my friends (hence the making sure I don't live by myself and let other friends room with me).
They know I wrote a suicide note. They know I want to kill myself since they have seen it with a live 9mm round sitting on my night stand.
Everyday it gets worse but I stay around for them because I don't want to let them down. I want to see them succeed where I failed. I'm friends with people who seem to be somewhat happy with life. Why can't I? What makes me want to die? I have a roof over my head. I have friends who care. I have a job. I can't seem to get out of this doomer mindset at all. I just want to vent but I feel like it's gonna blow up and cause me to become more depressed.
This thread is really just a vent thread. Idk what I'm doing anymore and I just want to end it all at this point. Obviously there's more to my situation that I haven't put into words, much more. I just don't want to shit up this board.
>"you just did faggot"
Any advice from other anon doomers or join in this thread if you want to vent.