/doomer/ - Doomers Club★

Hated HS and hated everyone there, I regret not shooting the place up. At the same time its hard to make friends in real life outside of school, haven't made a new one since I left and lost my only friend to his marriage and child.

>>13813 (OP)

Highschool was alright for the most part, in retrospect. It’s not like life was any less the miserable slog it is today, but at least I could still bear up against it back then. Mostly because my self-esteem was still intact due to my massive god complex and, more importantly, because I still had a goal in life pushing me onward, namely getting in university. Foolish teenager me thought that Uni would solve all of my problems, that I would finally find like-minded people and friends, gain intellectual enlightenment and freedom, and so forth… Needless to say, all my hopes were shattered when I entered Uni since it was nothing like I imagined. Not only did I remain an outcast, I was even more isolated than in HS, because even though I had never had friends in HS either, I had still felt some sense of belonging to my classmates. On top of my growing alienation with society, the realization that I wasn’t nearly as smart as I thought myself to be began to slowly creep up on me as I started falling behind my peers. While I could ace or at least pass all of my classes with ease in HS, I had to put serious effort into maintaining just mediocre grades in Uni. And so, after just a few weeks, I was engulfed in self-hatred and embitterment, lost all my hope in life, and started skipping classes and lectures, resulting in me failing all of my courses (except Programming, that shit was comically easy), compounding my depression even further. And yeah, that’s where I am right now ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ >>13813 (OP)

>What was school like for you, /doomer/?

Outcast even amongst the weirdos

never felt like I belong anywhere, even when I got along with people

was bullied by normalshits in junior high and only spent free time with my cousin and people he knew or was friends with.

at trade school I just tried to stay on okayish terms with everyone and it worked but still no people to feel connected with

>college sucked

sure. especially that team assignments and boring project work.

And that is why I decided to drop out in 5th semester and never.

>it fucks me up to this day

this is common sense

if you missed important development stages in your life, the damage will most likely not be undone. it will haunt you forever

>miss

I miss nothing from that time and I just wanted to get away

>done differently

asked Reaper-san to stop wasting time and come for me

>>13901

I remember you anon and I hope you find a better life or should I say, a reason to live

>highschool

Lonely, that's the only way to describe it. You know how people say they're too autistic for normal people but too normal for autists? That's how I thought of myself too, until highschool ended and I realized I was too autistic for both. Even the weirdos who LARPed as anime characters had someone. Even the kids who smelled like they showered once a month at best. Even the walking blobs with pizzafaces. Just not me.

>college

More of the same, except with an illusion of freedom because I had a car and money and a not-shit PC. But the damage from highschool had already been done, I was already socially stunted and there was no way in hell I was going to improve. Then 2014 and all its political horseshit happened. Towards the end I thought about joining a club, but I knew I'd stick out like a sore thumb, plus college was almost over anyhow so it's not like I would have been there for long.

>what I'd do differently

Take better care of my health, especially my teeth since fixing those later on is expensive as fuck. Join a club in highschool, try to make friends in any way I can. Find some way to earn money, which will be hard since the economy went to shit right as I became old enough to apply for jobs. Practice skills like music and programming, and not only that but also show my skills to other people. Share works I've made, perform in front of others, basically do like all the showoff kids did back then. From there I can get feedback for my skills, improve them while I'm still young, and potentially form connections with others who do what I do. What I would like to be is one of those people who were doing things before they were even old enough to drink.

Tons of dagos. The teachers were tight with the jocks which is like the perfect storm for a school shooting. Mind you this was around the time of Columbine and I was too nerdy for the burnouts and too burned out for the nerds. I also was a virgin until after hs, which wasnt fun. Never went to college. Too poor.

I also never learned to drive. Not even to this day

>>13813 (OP)

High School was absolutely shit for the first two years. I constantly got bullied even by people I considered my friends. My school basically had two groups whites could belong to. Group 1 were the preppy, fair weather Christians, who also did a lot of drugs and partied all the time. Group 2 could get fucked.

In the last 2 years I transferred to a semi-private academy and had a lot of fun. Close / large group of friends who I'll remember forever.

University was an absolute shit show. All my plans, expectations, and hopes went to hell in a hand basket day fucking 1 and I never recovered. The worst part is, I got a degree that's only viable for academia but I no longer wish to deal with academia so now I'm having to go back for something less meme worthy.

I'm starting to question the doomer authenticity of OPs who make these kind of posts. If you believe life is futile and happiness is an illusion, why do you keep beckoning to your "younger days"?

Most people born after 1985 are indifferent about their high school days. I'm one of those folks. Childhood is a gilded cage of false hope and eternal boredom waiting to grow up so we can do what we want on offtime.

Not to say there are no good times during childhood but to relive childhood exactly as is with no alternative events is a big no-no.

>wake up

>Take shower

>get dressed

>go to school

>do class work

>ignore everyone

>eat lunch

>do classwork

>go home

>do homework

>pop a burrito or pizza in the microwave

>watch some anime tiddies or shitpost

>go to sleep

Repeat for 4 years. It was entirely devoid of anything worth remembering. I had such little presence that i could go weeks without saying a word. I wasn't even bullied, just supremely disinterested.

>Regrets?

Existing

well i have always been shy and sad since i have memory, but i managed to get friends and a few girls (however i lost my virginity after highschool).

in the latest years of highschool i had less friends, uncool normies you could say, but really good people that to this day i still have contact.

god i fucking hated sports

Failed my last final today because I didn't start studying until 6 hours before the test and didn't go to classes or keep up. I applied for another uni which is in a city much closer to home, and three separate women I talked to all told me I would be considered a high school applicant since at the time of applying I didn't have enough uni courses to be considered a transfer student. Today I called again to see why my application was taking so long and a guy told me I wasn't a high school applicant because they factor in all uni courses I have taken and not just the ones I completed prior to applying (all the women told me the exact opposite). So now I am going to get kicked out of this uni for having low grades and even though I am completely changing my degree at the new uni they probably won't accept me because they will see my marks. I did so well in high school, I got honours and was top 10 in my grad class but I haven't even tried in Uni and now I won't be able to keep going. My only options, if the new uni turns me down, is to go and beg someone to reconsider and tell them I will try my hardest or buy a one way ticket to Europe and leave without telling my family. I have disappointed my dad by not taking over the farm, and I have disappointed my mom by failing nearly every course I have taken in uni. Even if it does work out I may just drop out after another year or two and join the army.

>>15594

>I have disappointed my dad by not taking over the farm

God how happy I'd be if I'd be given a farm and a father to teach me how to work on it. What did you learn in uni? I'm thinking about leaving it, I don't have the nerve to teach the future generation about the holohoax and ebil nahzees…

>>15650

Basically this. All I'm looking for now is some cheap land I could use as farm and shelter. I would probably say no to this lifestyle maybe 10 years ago but things changed, I changed. If you have this opportunity just try to take it. I know it's not for everyone but God if this isn't the best gift boomer can give you then I don't know what is.

>>15650

>>15680

If it's anything like in Western Europe where you live, don't become a farmer. It's been ruined with Imports from Africa. You get paid like shit for actual produce, way below what makes a profit, and have to rely on government handouts for that.

Also, big debt due to having to buy the newest machinery and more property to use it on since that's more efficient and prices are going down because efficiency is going up.

It's a trap.

>>15727

Who said I want to sell that stuff? I'm not rockefeller who can buy giant field next day, I meant something way smaller, where you can have both vegetables, trees (apples etc.) and if possible few animals because I'm damn sure I'm not vegan. Modern agriculture is one of the problems, there retards get a lot money (and are still not profitable) from EU just to destroy fertility of our land. The quality of these products from third countries is usually way lower + you can actually grow things right without destroying soil and everything alive in radius of 10km. I don't know how Canadian meant it but I assume it's not like he has to build the farm from ground up because his father already did it and I don't know the situation around agriculture there as well.

Side note: Big problem are actually the EU regulations. You have poor quality products so you have to have insane regulations regarding expiration date. Still, the amount of good stuff shops throw out every day is insane. Total waste.

never went to college. high school was hell. did go to trade school. that was hell too.

life sucks still but its better than being around a bunch of NPC talking heads all day.

I was a geeky kid with a crustache and a mohawk and wore punk shirts (I had a Black Flag shirt, Rollins Band shirt and Helmet shirts). I loved noisy music back then even.

most kids around me were into Slipknot and ICP. didn't get what punk rock was nor did they care. I did dig Sepultura and Obituary back then though for metal. oh and Eyehategod too.

lots of goths and ska kids too and emo fucks (and not true emo but scene emo) tried to get this blonde emo girl to fuck me but she was straight edge like me and that just made things awkward.

as far as general school atmosphere, lots of bullying in both places. I was a scrawny tiny fuck. never could afford college. now I just read philosophy, make music on my own and in bands (usually internet based "we can't play live" bands, as always been the case) make vids, play vidya, wagecuck, etc. BOOOORING. gonna be 37 this June. no wife, no kids, just slow moving misery.