I want to move - and i am entirely afraid.
i grew up in this smallish town for all my life, and sparing 20-or-so years of reasoning, i truly feel that it is time for me to leave and seek a place where I feel whole.
they are only theories, but i believe that i seek a stronger sense of community and belonging. i want to grow closer to others, and the Earth. i want to actively pursue a different way of living, and in all these years, i have never felt more alive and passionate - i truly wish to use this flame before it leaves me again. I want to seek music and art and creation. I want to swim naked in the lakes of Oregon again, speaking playfully with cute hippy boys as we bobbed around in the mud and waves
I know it sounds ridiculous, but I have tasted this life one too many times and now the flavor is all that compels me.
I am a scared little boy,
and a determined one.
Sorry for the rant bros..
if no advice to lend, Ill take a hug instead~