Somehow, I always end up falling for a straight guy. How is this even possible? Does anybody have a similar problem?
It is always the same pattern. I have a friend, then we become best friends, then I realize I'm in love with him and completely obsessed and there's no chance of him feeling the same way. I get depressed and anxious.
After a year or so I get back to normal. Everytime I leaves me more and more exhausted.
Maybe a year ago I decided to end this cycle and finally got grindr but yet I cannot overcome this imaginary wall of shame about being gay. It is so difficult to put myself out there and start to emotionally engage with other people.
Sorry, just wanted to let the world know how I feel. I'm a narcissistic jerk.
Is there anyone who share this tragic gay glitch? Share your story please.