>>357336
i can't have sex either (i presume you mean bottoming) and have a fantastic relationship with a dominant older man. He's wealthy too. I lost my ability to bottom around age 22 and thought I would never love again. I pretended to top for a few years.
The power dynamic lives in conversation and service, not in being a passive object that gets used without inputting any effort. This is something that took me a long time to learn (I'm close to 30). Until that time, I thought like you and wanted to kill myself. Now sir can bring me to tears just talking to me on the phone. It's better than anything I had when I could bottom by exponents. I've ascended to getting fucked and coming without any fluid exchange – just from being squished under his intellect.
Focus on being a good girl and bettering yourself and keep searching. You'll require someone in the top 1% intelligence bracket, but once found you will be happier than any of the gape-holed retards you envy now.