I need help…
I keep draining my energy on arguing with infidels.
Today I spent hours arguing against abortion with a non-believer girl online, and then with my non-believer friend.
I made the mistake of posting against sexual immorality & abortion into an 'unpopular opinion' group on a stupid app to see if I get at least one positive reply and I received so much hatred it's not even funny anymore. It literally got to me and I got very angry with the world.
I know I keep bringing this stuff on myself, and I'm trying not to hang out on shitty apps and stuff like that anymore… but then even your close friends spit in your face and make fun of your Lord…
When I think about the fact that I'm gonna get a job soon and I'll have to deal with people who don't believe on a daily basis and with the same people, I'm getting very freaked out.
I just wanna retreat to a monastery honestly. I absolutely hate this world and I hate myself so much for being like those people in the past…
Does anyone else understand how I feel? Is it a sin that I feel like this?
Any verses/words of encouragement and advice on my situation, brothers?