I'll keep it vague.
I committed social suicide a few years back when I was an athiest (I lived a degenerate lifestyle) and in the mean time I converted to catholicism. I have a terrible reputation that makes everyone around me hate me and treat me badly. So much so, that I inspire so much venom that they go so far as to want me to commit suicide. A few years ago I started the rumour about myself and now I am accepting the consequences of my actions.
God has blessed me since then with my strong faith and three close friends who are like a second family to me. They stuck by me all the way through and are loyal friends. I do deserve what has and is and will be coming for me. I have trusted and prayed to the Lord night and day to get me through. It makes me laugh that I am the source of my own problems.
I didn't know at the time that I would ever want to get to know a girl genuinenly. Or ever want to start a family. Or ever want to socialise at all. I matured. I was a late bloomer.
Can you anon's pray for me? That I may be blessed with humility. Due to financial reasons I cannot leave the country or move. And when I do go, I will leave and live the life of a hermit. I own a plot of land somewhere abroad and my dream is to park a trailer on it and live there for good. It will follow me wherever I go.