I'm starting college to become a barber and I won't make any friends because my reputation is that I am a creep, grim and a weirdo. I want to take down my pc and not use social media or imageboards and live a solitudal life. I want to become educated since I can't go Uni and I like reading. It seems that once I stop using 4chan I start reading books. It's just that 4chan, although most of its content is shallow, is instant gratification while books aren't. I am a practicing catholic. Like I said, I don't plan on making any friends so I don't need to be in touch with popular culture, but I still want to keep my critical thinking skills sharp so i don't get taken advantage of. This lifestyle won't be permanent. I'm not looking to cut sources of dopamine because then my starved starved brain starts taking pleasure in socialising and just trust me on this I am a weirdo. I know I sound special snowflake but for instance I begged my friend to introduce me to his cousin when she is 18 because i wanted a future wife to procreate as God intended and I wouldn't shut up about it. Yet I have no skills, no income, no job, working class and ugly black while she is white blond middle class attractive. I guess my goal is to overcome need for a wife and increased social status and live the religious life.
>I have a film rental subscription to be able to watch the classics and get patrician taste.
>I have a videogame rental service to be able to play a game on my ps4 like spiderman and god of war
>I am thinking of resubbing to economist magazine to stay ontop of future events.
>I have spotify to listen to christian music
>Will have time and focus to meditate on scripture and pray the rosary
>Already go to the gym.
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Anyone have experience of this? Any catholic books to reccommend?