So a couple years back I left Islam, it was when I learned about the concept of abrogation (nakash), also seeing how countries turn out based on Islam vs. Christianity, and also seeing how refugees and the muslim world has treated the European people.
Now that I left religion. I wanted nothing to do with God or religion I honestly felt back stabbed by religion (since I thought it was the last and final and true religion) and God.
I feel like an idiot getting myself back stabbed(since it was hammered into my head, without me thinking about what was being hammered into my head).
But you see I can't really live without the idea of God or an all mighty being.
I tried reading stoicism but that felt a little empty for me.
I felt frustrated ever since I left Islam cause not only was my belief in God based on Islamic scripture ( i.e oh Allah must be the true God since Jesus was human and died on cross and the trinity doesn't make sense and Allah is simplier), but also my culture.
If culture, religion and family weren't so intricately intertwined I would guess it would be easy for every muslim to just simply leave the religion and join another.
I feel really intimidated even approaching the thought of Christianity since it is completely different culture, philosphy then what I grew up with, a complete change of your way of life.
Not only that but the things that my muslim friends and family told me about Christianity come back to haunt me (i.e oh christianity creates atheists, it makes the country gay and immoral, just look at the west! Christians are untraditional, you will be happier and have a stable life in Islam )
And to be honest I see the fruits of Christianity in the West, it has degraded and been changed by humans and I do not know whether it is the fault of the Catholics and Protestants or the way Jesus teaches his word that creates and allows this degeneracy that otherwise I wouldn't see in Islamic countries (maybe I am wrong about this, I don't know).
I could be wrong though and I am just following the tree and its fruits. I see Catholic and Protestant countries degenerating and supporting Islam, whereas Orthodox countries (like Russia), understand the dangers of it and even Orthodox priests speaking against it. But again I could be wrong.
So I need some advice on what to do, I am interesting in learning about Christianity but don't want to waste my time learning the endless number of denominations and their Bibles.
Nor do I feel like getting stabbed in the back again by the following the wrong the denomination/religion.
Also after learning which sort of denomination to follow, I will go to that church and hopefully create and make new family/friends/community/culture for myself so I don't get too depressed.
If their is anyone that shares my sort experience with being in Islam and leaving it for Christianity I would love to hear your experience too!!! :)