I feel as though Christ is reaching out to me after years of debauchery. I grew up wanting to be a priest, my parents told me I could be the pope. As a teenager I just assumed that I would enter a seminary after High School. Sadly, once I got to 17, I lost my faith and started interest in nihilism and a hedonistic lifestyle. Instead of seminary, I went to a liberal arts school. The summer before I drove across country with friends and did drugs and had my first experiences with women. In college I was known for various interactions with the opposite sex, and always had different women in connection with me at one time. I met my current girlfriend, and she dragged me back to reality. I grew to love her quickly, and as a result I stopped hanging out with my old friend groups filled with drug and sex addicts, and moved back to my small hometown with her, both of us completely sober. The thing is, we both are intensely sexually active. I would say it is an addiction. It is most certainly a vice. I didn't think much of it, but slowly as I've had more distance between the present and my more overtly degenerate past, even though I am not living in "as much sin" as I was, I find myself more disgusted by my current condition than I was before. I have also had an urge to pray every night once again, and I've been having episodes of intense fear that are only lightened through prayer. I feel as though I am being drawn back into the faith by God, but I don't know if I can bring my girlfriend with me. I love her, I love her so much, but she is the main object of my lust, and I feel as though I can't control myself when she is near me. I give in. Any advice lads?