>>638065
Our paths are very similar my friend. In a world of apathy and tolerance of evil, we are very few in number. I will pray for you as well.
As for what afflicts me currently. It is the fact that 25% of all females in my country (USA) are legal murderers, walking around uncaring that they've killed their own children. And even worse, the apathy of which many who would proclaim themselves Christians seem to react with.
Spiritually I am torn between following the Bible, and surviving in this world. Comedy is my profession, and every day I am forced to choose between what is right, or putting food on my table. I am torn, knowing that my father and my mother will both likely end up in Hell for their many sins of which they are unrepentant, and even after all my attempts they will not budge in apathy.
I am told that I need to relax, to loosen up and care less about the world around me. I am told that the passion which burns everyday in my soul is wrong. I am told to ignore it, and be happy with the current state of sin. I cannot remain in this lack of ignorance and be happy as I watch the world quickly fade around me. And I have dreamed dreams, dreams of prophecy. I have spoken to Enoch in a dream, who told me to be kind. And I have seen the sun go down at mid day, and I have seen the end of many lives be destroyed by nuclear weapons.
Every day I live with these things. Every day I bear the burden of knowing many souls will be damned to Hell, and that each of them has hardened their hearts. Every day I bear the burden of knowing that many souls will be damned to Hell, and that each of them has been lied to by false prophets within our churches.
I am torn every day, because I know that following Christ is a lot more than faith. And I am torn every day because I know that the Law of Moses still stands. And that heaven and earth pass, one jot or one. tittle shall in no wise pass from. the law, till all be fulfilled.