>>636002
Not OP but,
>the absolute horror of hell
>the Bible keeps seems to say that Jews are great and goys are shit.
>I keep seeing people who sin succeeding, and seeming to suffer no consequences from it
>so many times in the bible, esp the old testament I think, "How could God do that? That's horrible. Smashing infants on rocks?"
>There also seems to be a general bloodlust in the Bible that worries me
I wish I could think right now, there's so many more things that make me think, "This just sounds like a story. This sounds like every other religious book I've read."
Plus I like looking at women's bodies, dammit. I feel like a eunuch when I can't. I feel like I'm castrating myself. Like a winnie the pooh frail stick man.
I don't even repent for most of my sins (usually just a slightly dirty joke, saying the lord's name in vain if I hurt myself), I do it out of fear of Hell. Even now I worry God might afflict me for writing this. I love Jesus, and I believe Jesus is good. But God sounds evil, Lord forgive me.