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>1) Re-examine your whole faith. Why do you believe?
Not OP but to pick up on this as it seems an appropriate place to post, it's an interesting quesiton.
Re: your other questions, I understand the arguments for the existence of God, the reliability of the new testament and the ressurection. I can attempt to expound on them to people in what is probably a noob way compared to many with more years of experience of reading and engaging in these matters.
But underlying all that, why I believe, the answer to your first question, is that I have a desparate need to affirm the existence of objective morality and good and evil, true immutable goodness and objective right and wrong, and cannot fathom the idea of moral relativism and it's horrendous consequences. That's truely the real, deep psychological (if you will) reason I believe. Arguments for God, the bible and the ressurection thankfully means that objective morality is real and the reasons for believing it are sound, but truely it's out of desparation to avoid the consequences of the alternative that I believe. I'm not sure if it's a sound approach or base to start from, although I'm sure it's not an unusual one, nor one that is necessarily bad (indeed I suspect that there would be passages relating to this, i.e. the law written on our hearts? What we can see and know of God in the beauty, depth and breadth of creation? Our concience and conciousness as a pointing to our very being being made in His image, inc. and so having a natural inherent inbuilt inclination to the good, which we find in and from Him? depsite the fall..) but it's one that I know is true for me and probably (must) be for many others.
I'm a really bad Christian too, who's been starting to think about taking this all seriously for idk maybe over a year now and looking into it as an outsider and then a half out half in for a few before that, and coming to understand who God is, at least what he is like, his attributes (goodness, justice, mercy, love, almight, everywhere, all knowing, sovereign, in essence, perfection etc. etc) is just so insane and is the thing that keeps me going. I can't believe that such a being exists (I can, I just meant that in a colloquial way) and although I'm a terrible sinner (yes porn that I am trying to quit and too much internet and slothfulness in general, let alone all the other things I need to sort out in my life) I can't help but marval at him and just feel so blessed to know that he does indeed exist, because, well like I say the consequences of him not existing are just too terrible to bare.
It's like discovering innocence and being taken back to being a child again. I remember at some point, I really don't know how old I was, maybe 11, 12 or younger or older idk (I was bought up a Christian I guess a bit lukewarm but not like cultural Christian) and at some point I realise, "wait, the world isn't ever going to be fixed is it? We're never going to sort ourselves out are we? Look at us. We're terrible. Christ isn't coming back to sort this. Nothing will change and we'll be in conflict with each other for aeons to come." (Strange if I thought this before I was 16 when I had my lukewarm Christianity 'reasoned' out of me by my atheist friends, but there you go).
But no! He will be back! There is such a thing Goodness! Real goodness itself! And it is He! And He Is! Praise the Lord! thnx for reading my ramble