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>>598832
>but despite trying to logically whittle down this dread, it remains
Good, intellectually honesty isn't a trait you find all that often.
Don't follow down the path of those that delude themselves into claiming that cessation of existence is nothing to be feared because [you won't be around to notice] or think that they can somehow avoid death through technological means. If nothing else, the heat death of the universe will get you.
Now, I can't prove God to you; the best thing I can do is tell you that I was more or less in the same position you are, and that God started to intervene in my life in ways and with a frequency, that it would have been foolish to dismiss the evidence as a string of coincidences.
It probably doesn't sound very helpful right now, but God promises that he would reveal himself to everyone that would earnestly seek him (and I believe you are already doing so, since God embodies the ideals of Truth and Life, which you sound like you are after,) so keep on keeping on. Patience is a virtue. (remember that, it's important)