/x/ - Need some help /x/>10 years ago>Be 15, autistic>prone to bouts of hyperawareness>be afraid of hyperawareness because afraid I'll stop breathing if I stop focusing on breathing if I become hyperaware if breathing>Prone to visions in dreams

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Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 21:38:53 No.42600

Need some help /x/

>10 years ago

>Be 15, autistic

>prone to bouts of hyperawareness

>be afraid of hyperawareness because afraid I'll stop breathing if I stop focusing on breathing if I become hyperaware if breathing

>Prone to visions in dreams - either prophetic messages or glimpses of actual scenes that played out perfectly years later

>Dreams are always hypervivid whether or not they mean anything

>Joining the marine corps

Now

>Be 25

>out of corps

>Trying to learn lucid dreams

>Want to have old dreams again

>Can't become hyperaware

>Can't become even fully aware

>Sensation of wonder and joy gone

>Rarely have prophetic dreams, always something negative, never get future glimpses

>Have to rely on runes for divination

What can I do to undo the damage the military did to my mins /x/, I want to see shit again.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 22:09:49 No.42602

>>42600

Is there any specific reason why you think it was the military that did this to you?

Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 22:23:44 No.42603

Post dreams, maybe the key is in them.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 22:43:47 No.42605

>>42600

It was the fluoride

now you're just another schmuck with a calcified Pineal Gland.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 22:49:15 No.42606

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>>42605

Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 22:57:23 No.42607

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>>42606

Your powers were robbed from you through the systematic poisoning of your body.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 23:05:00 No.42608

>>42606

Good thing I'm not a burger then. Phew! You had me worried there for a moment.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 23:14:34 No.42609

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>>42602

A lot of truama occurred, plus they pumped me with gods know what for vaccines. Lots of paranormal shit occurred when I was in, and stopped after I got out.

>>42603

I'll start posting a dream diary in tandem with my actual diary.

>>42605

>>42607

That's spoopy af. My buddy was just talking about it.

How to into decalcification???

Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 23:19:11 No.42610

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>>42609

you have to become a vegan, but avoid any oils or salts; basically a raw vegan then, but there are recipes online. CBD Oil. DMT…

Basically forget about modern society and become a hippy. Do drugs for Jesus.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 23:34:03 No.42611

>>42610

Sauce????

Cryptoterrestrial 10/29/18 (Mon) 23:42:32 No.42612

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>>42611

https://youtu.be/EIgGfn5wdgM

https://youtu.be/5RtRil2ND-E

https://youtu.be/d5dI4o3cSW4

http://csglobe.com/ayahuasca-can-effectively-treat-cancer/

Also check out Terrence McKenna and Alan Watts for additional epistemological guidence.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/30/18 (Tue) 01:25:32 No.42617

>>42610

Bad idea, enjoy your xenostrogens and dying younger with retardation.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/30/18 (Tue) 01:59:07 No.42618

>>42617

We all die, it's the journey that counts.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/30/18 (Tue) 02:23:01 No.42620

>>42618

Is being a soyboy worth it though?

Cryptoterrestrial 10/30/18 (Tue) 02:27:29 No.42621

>>42620

yes

also I recommended raw veganism, which doesn't include shit like soy or tofu, it is pure fruit and vegetables and doesn't require cooking since that removes nutrients. Many raw vegans also promote against GMOs.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/30/18 (Tue) 03:31:06 No.42625

>>42617

Vegans actually have higher levels of testosterone on average. If you're worried about excess estrogen in your diet, you should start by avoiding meat and dairy.

Cryptoterrestrial 10/30/18 (Tue) 19:13:30 No.42630

>>42625

This is a fucking joke.

>>42618

Ok, so menorah or fedora?

Cryptoterrestrial 10/30/18 (Tue) 19:36:58 No.42631

>>42630

<we all die

<life is all we have, so we should treat it well

two truths you can't get into your thick skull

Cryptoterrestrial 10/30/18 (Tue) 19:50:21 No.42632

>>42631

>Something that my ideology logically implies is totally meaningless and without purpose is what really counts

It's not so much that our skulls are thick, but that yours is thin and you were dropped on it as a child