I was coming to the boards to ask someone to make a thread like this. Now I can just post.
I have been following q for a bit now, and reading and dipping a big toe here and there into the boards but it did not hit me until yesterday what a huge shift they have to create. I mean, intellectually I grasped it, but it sank into my bones the other day and now I KNOW.
A few days ago some had started posting about Justice Scalia and the ranch where he died and the likelihood he was raping boys. My first reaction was a horrified "oh absolutely not, not HIM". And that is the moment my world slid out from under me a bit.
Multiply that by 300 million citizens, by 1000's of respected, beloved and cherished figureheads being proven to be lying, raping, vicious satan worshipping things. No one would believe, and would either turn away or actively fight the people trying to bring this to light and the people to justice.
I almost did that and I have followed this, and I have seen various scandals come and go over the years, and I understood all men are fallen and put not your faith in the princes of the world and yada yadda yadda but that response still automatically overrode EVERYTHING I knew before q, and all that I have learned since q.
Now, on the other hand I cannot say I KNOW scalia was doing that, I have not researched it myself blah blah, but I stopped myself from turning away and said to myself but I cannot say with certainty that he did not. This is just one person with one authority figure. sigh.
At this time there are things in life I have to take care of for my family but as time allows I have made a vow to pray for discernment as I research about my church and any links to the foundations, missions and evilness. I have promised god to not turn away from the truth about any one or to retreat to the bubbleworld of lies and complacency in order to avoid the pain of seeing, knowing, and fixing.
Sorry for the babble. It really really hit me hard that I was doing that and I needed to vent and the main board was not the place with all the drops going on.
As I find information and links I will post here. God bless