>>22339
Hi. I'm not sure if you're the fellow into perennialism but incase you are I'm asking you to focus on the foundations of Islam.
I strongly suggest you focus on Quran, Tafsir, Seerah, and worshipping/submitting to Allah. I don't even think you should look at ahadith now unless some ahadith have been problematized for you by islamophobes - inwhich case we can explain them.
I've seen people become muslim and within 2 years they have memorized the entire Quran and they've become talib ul ilm. I've also seen people embrace and then start drinking from the firehose with no structure and they become overwhelmed. Alhamdulillah - I've seen those who were once overwhelmed & burnt out, get on track too; but there's no need to go through that.
Pace yourself, start slowly with the fundamentals. This deen is a rushing torrent of truth that can overwhelm you or be harnessed. How do you harness it? By having a pure intention, love and fear of Allah, and begging Allah swt for guidance. What does it mean to beg for guidance? It means begging Allah to give you the strength to consistently make the right decisions. Decisions to not only cultivate yourself in the religion but to avoid sins that harden your heart and will ruin you here and hereafter. But you will sin, and when you do turn quickly to Allah and beg forgiveness and hate your sin and promise Allah and yourself you'll never do it again. And if you are sincere you will be forgiven by Allah and He'll even turn your sin into a good deed.