https://docs.google.com/document/d/1rGUzyOgXxS2NSYKQfgkH-dRiBN58Pp2Eskxpezr069s/edit?usp=sharing
9/20/18
Sorry for the lack of updates, future me/anyone else if they read, im terrible, i know.
So, things have gone pretty well. I think I’m about the same stage as i was before, lots of edges have been had, and im slowly building up my attraction level. It’s going slower than before, probably because it’s harder to link attraction to something than it is to lower disgust with something. Either way, a lot of time has been spent with JP3, and not a whole lot with KV, for whatever reason. One of the downsides is he’ll make me edge after i cum, so i’m left needy for next time. There’s a girl at work that i’m decently good friends with that is the center of most of my fantasies I’ll call AJ. She’s really petite, and blond, not my type usually, but she’s very pretty. we have the same eyes. At work things are strictly platonic, as she has a boyfriend, but c’est la vie. On top of the whole conditioning thing, I think JP’s lowkey slipping in some obedience training in there too, but i’m not complaining, submission in general makes me happy. That’s all i have for now, as previous couple of days have been the same.
As a thing unrelated to the experiment, I’m always depressed after a certain time of work, for the first half i’m there, i’m with other people, so i use a lot of energy trying to socialize, but then for the latter half, i’m sent back to another place to do different things, where i’m not with people, so i’m depressed as fuck. That’s all for now, thanks internet.
9/28/18
It’s almost spoopy time!!! I posted a couple photos on my instagram, spooky.gurl.marcy with a skeleton I got at target. I’m also working on a few websites for that ad revenue xP. Personal things aside, I haven’t touched this recently, but it’s 100% not dead, i’m continuing this in just a little bit before I get ready for work today. Currently there’s very very slight attraction towards armpits, if im around them and already in a sexual setting, it’s not hard at all to get aroused very easily. Sidenote: Y’all are really fucked up for reading this. If anyone has any good hentai or whatever do please send it to me in the comments or whatever. I cuddled with a skeleton because i was lonely last night. Send help.
9/30/18
Happy Spoopy Month readers!!! I’m definitely continuing this as I opened up the 8ch thread again and saw all the wonderful replies I’ve gotten!!! TYSM for all the love! I saw some tips on how to avoid using deodorant while still being nonrepulsive and I’ll definitely try it!!. I’ve been edging recently and it’s been about 5 days since i’ve came, and im pretty desperate. I’ll also start updating on 8chan now as the consensus is nobody likes google docs.
Reader Questions
Who are AJ, JP3, and KV? The names are initials I’m giving to various people in my life that have at least some (even if tangential) relation to the experiment. As previously stated AJ is a coworker that’s typically the center of my fantasies as she’s very attractive and doesn’t stare through my soul with burning hatred. JP3 and KV are tists participating in helping me along with this, both through Kik.
On to the topic… why would you have any problem with armpits? After all, a good whiff of your lover's armpits simply gives you your lover's pheromones, which should only make you more aroused. And they're right there so close that you get the pheromones as you go in for a kiss… (response) well, I was (when I first started) was repulsed by the smell of armpits because well, normally its not just pheromones, it’s also a little bit of body odor, and i think that’s really what I’m most conditioning myself to be around and enjoy most. I’m hooking up with a girl soon that I’ll definitely explore this a little with.. mmm.
I'm definitely going to be updating here too!