You're just addicted to the search, the object of the addiction is not so important.
Remember those old experiments in which rats died pressing one button that stimulated what scientists called "the pleasure center of the brain"?
It was just the dopamine production area, which is a neurochemical plays a role in all kinds of addictions. In short, dopamine produces the anticipation of pleasure, but not pleasure itself. It makes us mechanically repeat behaviors that are not pleasurable in themselves, but we deceive the brain into thinking that pleasure is just around the corner.
Anyway, don't know where I'm going with this, but it's the kind of mechanism that makes us F5 threads continuously, or check twitter for the latest piece of news after a natural disaster, or go out every weekend knowing that nothing exciting is going to happen, or look for the latest hypno file that ends being the same old tired bullshit.